Chapter 5

Mikhail's P. O. V

We entered the car and I sat quietly at one end, with my face contoured into a frown. My brain kept on replaying the scene of Leela and the stranger, which earned a frown plastered on my face. Her smile is ever so beautiful, but I wasn't the one that made her smile and it made my heart ache.

I regretted what I had done to her eight years ago.

I let my trauma control me, Instead of facing it myself, I poured all my emotional distress on Leela, when all she ever wanted was for me to love her right.

I was injured by someone else but I bled all over her. 

I can still remember that night when I took her chastity by making her believe I had accepted the mating bond. it was the best moment of my entire existence but I pretended I wasn't affected by it. I can still remember how her soft body felt on mine, how I loved her voice when she called my name when our hips collided in sensual passion and how her eyes were full of tears when I told her that my pack can't accept her.

 Seeing her in tears when the words left my mouth broke me within, but I was so determined to hurt her blindly without reason, due to a trauma that was triggered by someone else and I wanted her to think I hate her

I sighed, "I guess I deserve the hurt I was feeling now, and it can't even be compared to the hurt she felt that day."

I looked out of the window with a gloomy expression, I watched as the street of London passed us by in a speed of light, almost like a blur. I sat back into my leather chair and turned to my side to look at Dean. His eyes were sad too, my mood has affected him as usual.

I smiled inwardly, "typical Dean."

I can't let them see the weak side of me, otherwise my position will be threatened. 

I adjusted my mood and closed my eyes. I can't place my emotions on my sleeves, without letting my inner wolf go berserk. I have a responsibility as an Alpha of my pack, so I can't let the driver or Dean realize that I don't have control of my inner wolf.

I took silent breaths, and with a firm resolve, I vowed to get her back the next day.

When we reached my suite, I got out of the car, not after giving Dean some instructions for tomorrow's meeting with Leela.

"Okay, I'll leave you to get maximum rest, sire, goodnight boss."

"Goodnight beta," I already know that I will never be able to have a good rest, I might probably think through the night.

I got into my well furnished room and slumped on my bed, I rested my head on my right palm in a way that my head is facing the ceiling of the room. My mind wasn't in the present it has wandered off to the event that happened eight years ago.

I've always been fond of Leela from the first day our eyes locked, even before she was my intended mate, but I kept my feelings in check, but nothing ever went past my mum Diane, she was the former Luna and she knows how to read emotions without even trying.

She went livid, cursing Leela and saying she will never accept her in the blood moon pack.

"No Mikhail, I can't let you get married to Leela, her family committed treason." She said with fury.

"You can't change my mind mum, nothing you say will help change it." I said calmly

 "I don't have to change your mind, the pack has already agreed to burn her, just like her mother" she said with an evil smile.

"The pack went against the Alpha," I thundered.

"Yes they did, her family was cursed by the moon goddess, she can never be our Luna, not when I'm alive." She said with a hatred laced voice.

"Who do you want as the Luna then?, I asked dreading her answer"

"Nakasha Oswell, she is a very beautiful lady, every man in the pack wants her for themselves and she is also a strong omega," she said.

" I'm not every man, and you know that " I said with flamed eyes.

"You have to be, son" she said with a gloomy expression

I'm the Alpha, but I can't even save Leela.

 "Okay, Nakasha will be my chosen mate , but on one condition. Leela will not be harmed in any way" I said with a firm expression.

"You know that's not going to happen, the pack needs something, she has to be exiled from the blood moon pack, never to be seen " she said seething with anger.

My inside burned, my wolf is almost going berserk. With deep breaths I looked at my mum and nodded.

The memories from eight years ago kept hunting my sanity. I sighed "I should have fought for her, because no one ever did, but instead I hurt her so badly.

"But at least, she's still alive, that's all that matters," Seeing her today, even if it's from a distance, made my heart warm.

The images of her smile kept replying in my head and a broad smile appeared on my face.

Alpha! Alpha! Alpha! I heard Dean's voice faintly, then it became louder.

I woke up at once, my face was smeared with sweat and my lips contoured in a frown. I looked up at him, his eyes were full of fear.

"Dean, what's wrong?" I asked with a concerned feeling, because this is the first time that I will see my beta Dean with a trace of fear.

"Sire, when I knocked numerous times and you did not reply, we became concerned, then I broke the lock only to find you in a convulsing state and you were saying incoherent words in your sleep." He said in one breath.

I looked around me and found my elite bodyguards that only appear at night, staring down at me. 

"I'm fine, you all should go to various posts and Dean lock the door on your way out" I said in a fit of anger.

They all left hurriedly with their tail in between their legs, but Dean was the last to leave. He looked at me with concern for sometime then he closed the door behind him.

I looked at my hands, they were trembling. This is not the first time something like this has happened, but this is the first time that it has happened in front of others(my pack ). I left the bed and went straight to the bathroom. 

After I'm done taking my bath, I put on my black coat and taupe shirt underneath, with a black pants.

I left the room, while walking in the stairs, I called Dean, he appeared almost immediately.

"Dean, I want the pack to be at this venue by the evening, I need to make them aware of something that has been bothering me and where is doctor Charles?" I asked

"He should be in London by mid noon sire,"

"Tell Angelo to escort him to this mansion, we will be back by the evening."

"Good, let's go pay a visit to Leela at the restaurant she works."