LOGINCharlie It was as if a punch to the gut had winded me. She wishes she'd never met me? I knew that keeping the secret about sleeping with Francesca was bad but to completely write us off over it? “What the fuck, Nortica? You seriously want to erase our relationship because I slept with someone two years before I even met you?” Surely she can see how irrational she's being. The guilt I had been wrestling with is slowly morphing into anger. I thought we were strong, that we’d get through this but now I know she just wants to not only end us but wipe our entire relationship. “You really expect me to believe you did fuck her again the day she came to the office?” She lets the accusation fly and becomes clearer about why she's so hung up on this. “I hate Francesca, why would I have slept with her during our meeting?” I point out. The thought alone makes me want to vomit. “Don’t lie to me Charlie, I know you fucked her to save your company,” she says, so calmly. I think I preferred
The water in the shower had gone cold, but I was too numb to get up off the floor and shut it off. Instead, I sat on the tiled floor, empty inside. I don't remember hearing Tess barge through the bathroom door, or the water getting turned off. I don't even recall her wrapping a towel around me and helping me walk from the bathroom to my bedroom. I know that she dressed me and lay in my bed, holding me as I sobbed uncontrollably. Time passed by but everything stood still. I kept going over our entire relationship in my head, taking it right back to where it had begun. I’m a smart woman yet I ignored all the red flags he boldly waved in my face. “I'm not boyfriend material,” that's what he had stated early on and I just didn't listen. The only time he had been honest and I ploughed right past it, thinking I could be the one. I believed I was special, the one woman who he wanted to commit to but now I know, it was all a lie. My exhaustion must have won out just before dawn but I wa
Acid, milky liquid burned my throat as it expelled from my mouth into the gutter out the front of Shenanigans. I was aware that Charlie was holding my hair and rubbing his hand over my back. I wanted to scream at him to get the fuck away from me, but every time I tried, my words came out as vomit. “Let it out baby, let it all out,” he consoles me, his voice smooth and comforting but it feels like a razor-sharp knife, slashing at my heart. I had drunk a fair bit tonight but my intoxication didn’t cause my vomit. My lying, cheating, piece of shit boyfriend literally makes me sick. “Get away from me,” I finally managed to scream, once the waterfall stopped flowing. My face is soaked with tears and my hands feel clammy. I turn and look at him, wanting him to see what his deception has done to me. “Let's just go to my office and we can talk about this,” he suggests but I shake my head. He thinks he can charm his way out of the hole he dug himself into but not this time. I look past h
CharlieI spent all day just obsessing over her going out tonight. I trust her, wholeheartedly but I know what men are like. The fact that she has a boyfriend wouldn't stop some drunk guy from hitting on her, and it would make her seem like a challenge to those competitive dicks. I had to be there but I didn't want her to know that I was watching her. I snuck in the back just after midnight, wearing all black to not draw attention to myself. I stood next to a fire exit and watched the drunken patrons fawn all over each other like it was a conquest to get laid. I used to be them, seeking out someone to end the night with. Looking at them now made me realise I had something missing in my life, her. I weave through the crowds and lift the hatch to the bar. It's the best spot to get a direct view of the dance floor and if she catches me in here I can just say I was doing a stock order.Not that I do stock orders, I have a manager who handles the running of the club but it's the only e
CharlieMy employees may have been accepting of my relationship, but I spent the week taking no-so-subtle insults from my father. All aimed at getting inside my head and convincing me that Nortica was just with me for my money. Gwen was right though, Richard was bitter about losing everything and needed to drag me down as well. I just had to rise above it and wait for the right time to fire his arse. The more he tried to turn me against Nortica, the more I wanted to be around her. Every time he threatened my control, my Goddess would restore it. I wanted to thank her for giving me what I needed and show her that I appreciate her. “I’m taking you out for dinner at Piazza tonight,” I announced to her over breakfast. “I’ll book the penthouse at the Rochester too, make it special.” “I can't tonight, I've got plans with Tess and Bailey,” she says, putting a roadblock in my own plan but I don't want to be that boyfriend who stops her from hanging out with her friends. “That’s cool bab
When Charlie kissed me, making sure Francesca saw it, I knew then that all our fighting was behind us. He had learnt from his mistakes and would never lie to me again. I wish I could have seen her face when she saw us lock lips but I was too wrapped up in the moment even to acknowledge her existence. I anticipated that she was going to come marching up to our booth and make a scene but surprisingly she didn't. Instead, she just sat at the bar, chatting to Gwen. I spent the whole time of dinner, cocooned in his arms as we ate our food and shared kisses. “Tell me about the dirty daydream you were having during the meeting this afternoon,” Charlie asked me and he nuzzled against my neck. “What makes you think it was dirty?” I giggle. “I’ve learnt how to read your face baby, it may have been oblivious to everyone else in the boardroom but I know you,” he chuckles. “I can’t make your fantasy a reality unless you tell me,” I look around, afraid of who might be within earshot. “I was
CharlieThere was never any doubt in my mind that my friends wouldn't admire my girl as much as I do. Watching them laugh and share stories with her, as if they'd known her forever, felt like I'd finally found that missing piece from my life. As you get older, there's a lot of pressure to settle d
CharlieThe water crashed around my body but it couldn't wash away my stupidity. I was going to lose the best thing I ever had, all because I fucked up in my past. I hated myself for hurting her, to see those tears that rolled down her cheeks, knowing I was the cause of them. I was also angry at h
“Nortica, wait!” Charlie called out to me as I fled from him, not even sure where I was headed. “You’re ashamed to be with me so I'm just making life easier for you,” I yell back at him, growing angrier by the second. I thought Francesca was just trying to get under my skin yesterday, making me f
I was so happy when Charlie said he’d never slept with Francesca. I knew even he wouldn't sink so low that he’d bed her. I couldn’t have agreed to be his girlfriend, knowing he would be such a poor judge of character. As much as I wanted to keep our relationship private I also couldn’t wait to rub







