Emanuele opens her eyes and stares at the ceiling. The bed is comfortable and slightly messy. The wound on her neck hurts, although it doesn't seem serious, and the early morning has been terrible because of the nightmares.
The night before, after Joshua left the bathroom after cornering her against the wall, leaving her with a mountain of questions, she tried to take a shower. Her hands shook from the adrenaline, and several times she had to hold back tears as she cleaned herself.
When she finished, the girl noticed that her clothes were still in her suitcase, which was in the living room. Not wanting to disturb her host, Emanuele wrapped herself in her towel and went into the living room, silently thanking Joshua for not being there. Apparently he had gone back to his own room.
It had destabilized her. In fact, more than she was already unsettled. He saves her one moment, only to leave her alone the next?
The dark-skinned girl stood up. Despite the great risk she had taken the night before, she was still willing to make things work. They had to. Otherwise everything would have been in vain.
In her pajamas and slippers, Emanuele went into her own bathroom to take a shower. As soon as she finished, she left the guest room, or rather her new bedroom, and headed for the kitchen.
But even before she arrived, the girl ran into Joshua happily drinking coffee with a stranger.
The two stopped talking as soon as she looked at them.
"Glad you're awake, Emanuele," Joshua said. He didn't seem unfriendly or taciturn as he had the night before. "Are you feeling better?"
"He told me about what happened," said the woman who was accompanying him. Then he stood up, moving toward the redhead. "Is everything okay?"
Emanuele could barely pay attention to the girl's words. He only noticed how beautiful she was. She had wavy wheat-colored hair, striking blue eyes, and pink lips. She looked like a magazine model.
"I..." Emanuele muttered.
Joshua stands up quickly, looking guilty:
"Forgive me, let me introduce the two of you. Emanuele, this is Thabata. My girlfriend."
Thabata smiles, but concern still flashes in her eyes when Joshua continues:
"And Thabata, as you already know, this is the new tenant. The one Alexandra said would be coming this morning."
"I had to come early", muttered the young girl. She was completely embarrassed.
"Well, you are here now. Would you like to join us for coffee?"
The invitation was polite, even enthusiastic, but Emanuele's stomach seemed to be wrapped too tightly. And she had no idea why.
"Thanks, but I need to take a walk now."
"Now?"
"Yes. I always take a walk when I wake up," Emanuele lied quickly.
"But you didn't eat anything," Thabata clearly worries, "and last night was a rough night for you." The blonde stares at her cleavage, which only further increases the redhead's discomfort.
"I'm fine."
"If Alexandra were here, she wouldn't let you go out like that", Joshua speaks half-seriously, half-jokingly. Apparently he likes to do that.
"Well, but she's not here, is she?" Emanuele's tone of voice comes out much sharper and more accusatory than she intended. The couple looks at her and is silent.
Not allowing the guilt to reach her, Emanuele simply walks back into the room at a quick pace.
Once inside the room, breathing deeply, the girl tries to calm down. She didn't know why she had become so nervous. She didn't need to be rude like that, but she also couldn't imagine sitting at a table with two total strangers and pretending that there wasn't a whole apocalyptic event going on in her head.
The echoes of the almost rape were still present in her mind. She wanted to talk about it with someone, maybe actually have a real conversation, but not with Joshua. He was her savior, yes, but that attitude the night before had given her a certain distrust.
And Thabata seemed very nice, but she was a total stranger. And apparently Joshua didn't keep any secrets from his girlfriend. Did he brag while he was telling?
Emanuele picked up her cell phone and tried to call Alexandra. Voicemail. The girl was beginning to wonder whether the real owner of that apartment had ever existed or was just a collective delusion.
Half an hour later, the small-town girl, feeling so insecure and ashamed, finally left the room to apologize. But there was no one in the living room. Could it be that they were upset and decided to leave? But she still didn't have a copy of the keys. They wouldn't do that to her.... Or would they?
"He went to buy something for me."
Thabata's voice is much colder than it sounded before. The girl is leaning against the kitchen door, arms crossed and a totally annoyed expression.
Emanuele cringes at seeing her like that. Thabata speaks a little louder this time.
"Now, let's have a serious talk for a second."
. . . . . . . . FIVE MONTHS LATER . . . . . .Emanuele looked at herself in the huge full-length mirror. The girl hardly knew where to look, which detail to care about first.She didn't know whether to look at the beautiful hairstyle in her now dark brown hair; her natural color.She didn't know whether to look at the impeccable makeup on her face, which made her even more beautiful and radiant than she was feeling.And I also didn't know whether to look at the beautiful white dress, simply cut, adorned with small mother-of-pearl beads. Despite the simplicity of the outfit, it was undeniable to say that the bride looked divine that day.Smiling, she turned around in front of her own reflection. Her heart was pounding with happiness, and she felt the stars in the night sky outside wishing her good luck. The curtain behind the door opened. A short, pudgy girl smiled sympathetically as she entered the room, openly admiring her."Miss Parker, you look beautiful!"Emanuele smiled."Thank
The old man falls to his knees at the same instant. Emanuele runs to him and hugs him tight, but Joseph does not respond. Instead, he seems to be doing his best not to scream as loud as he can."Dad!" The girl says."Adriele died? I had two daughters, and one of them died? Is that it?! Is that what you are telling me?!'Emanuele tries to hold back her sobs, but she can't. Instead, she says:"Yes, Dad. I'm really, really sorry. It all happened so fast! I lost my mother, my sister, and now... Now you are all I have left. You are literally all I have as family!"Joseph can't say anything for a while, only cry. The two of them are shaking very hard. Sarah, when alive, said that Morgan couldn't get the proper reaction, that he was too broken inside. But now he seemed quite emotional. I wonder what had happened.The smell of her father, enveloping Emanuele's nostrils, is soothing and familiar. In a snap, she remembers that the same scent enveloped her when she was in the arms of death, tra
Convincing Crimson to enter the police database to find her father's address was not that difficult.In fact, Emanuele was quite surprised when she had to use only one of the six rehearsed arguments. The old man shrugged and said that at that point it was no longer worth trying to pretend not to act unofficially from time to time.What really took a lot of lip from the redhead was convincing Joshua not to go with her. The girl knew that he only wanted to protect her, but Emanuele was very assertive in her arguments. She needed to do this alone, face that part of her past, and see if there was any possibility of fixing it in her future.Sarah had said that he was in a depressive spiral, and that when he saw her he could not react properly, and that it hurt her.Emanuele then prepared herself emotionally. She would not be disappointed or resentful if, by some chance, the man who at one time taught her a beautiful lullaby did not remember her... or was not touched by the moment.The youn
For a few seconds, all Emanuele can do is stare at Joshua. The two of them are still naked, and the distance between their bodies is as minimal as possible. "What?" she asks, softly. I wonder if she had heard right. Had her emotions stunned her enough for her to hear such a request?He gives a quiet laugh, then opens a confident, sentimental smile."Will you marry me?"The girl immediately sits up, leaning against the headboard of the bed. She covers her own nakedness with the blanket, still looking at the man, who also sits down."I..."Several things go through her head.The first was that no, she could not get married. Not in that life and not ever. All the misfortunes that had happened to her, all the horrible and unfortunately scarring traumas that were etched into her skin; all that made marriage itself a terrible idea.According to the books that the young woman read, especially during her teenage years, marriage was the union of two people. Total commitment to each other, com
As soon as he closes the door, Joshua gives warm, soft kisses on the sensitive skin of Emanuele's neck. The man sighs, almost intoxicated with passion, and murmurs:"I love the way you smell."With all the delicacy and romance in the world, Joshua props the redhead's torso on the bed, leaving her legs and feet touching the floor. He caresses her over her clothes. Emanuele moans."The last time we were together like this, I gave only a demonstration of what might come next. Remember?"He stimulates her further with the tip of his thumb, in subtle, gentle circular motions. "Those were the words of a man overcome with desire, and even lust, if I am willing to admit it. Today I may again have those feelings in my body, but... there is a difference. Now I am sure that I love you."Still with his thumb on Emanuele's clit, Joshua kisses her eagerly; the movement of his tongue is smooth and warm. Murmurs come out of her throat, as if the teacher is delighting in that moment.Emanuele's hands
The winter dawn is cold.A month has passed since Emanuele saw her sister die. One month, and even then, the memory was still latent and terrible.The girl had already been to therapy, but the nightmares continued to torment her. Joshua didn't know what to do anymore, since every night at two o'clock in the morning the girl's terrified screams woke him up.The teacher got out of his own bed in the dim light. The clock on his cell phone said it was one hour and fifty minutes, that is, ten minutes before the nightmares began.Standing up, taking care not to make any excessive noise, Joshua opened the door to his room, going towards Emanuele's door.But the door was open.Frowning, the man approaches the room. Her bed is empty.Still not making hasty decisions, Joshua goes to the living room, equally empty. His heart only slows down when he sees the girl sitting at the table, drinking a glass of water. She watches him without saying anything, then goes back to sipping the liquid.Slowly