April Our convoy slows down just as it passes the borders to the Blue Amber Pack, but my heartbeat increases inversely proportional nearly breaking out of my ribcage. I see the wolves staring at us from behind the trees, their hate for me crystal clear, even on their shifted faces. I guess that I can be thankful that I’m here to save the life of an important pack member as any of them must be asking themselves if it would be worth the risk to lose their position as a guard in their pack and attack us. Or even risk a war just to satisfy that itching desire to sink their claws into my throat. Daisy lays her hand on mine, squeezing it soothingly and making me jump out of my thoughts. “Are you okay?” she whispers, and I nod, fighting to keep back my tears. I hate the fact that the landscape, the people staring, and the buildings passing by my window don’t stir any other emotion in me than sadness and resentment. I used to love it here and I loved growing up in this pack. Man
April I feel like I am trapped in a bad movie as I get escorted to Alpha Scott’s office. The pack house is just like I remember it. Luxurious but lovingly furnished as the touch of the former Luna, Scott’s mom and mate to former Alpha Kelvin, still present. I gulp down the memory of me and how I spent my time here in the long past days. Beta Daniel is walking a few steps before me, trying to chat leisurely with Alpha Scott while I concentrate on my breathing pattern, afraid that I will just stop breathing and collapse at one point. Arriving at the office, I perceive my surroundings as if I were trapped in an aquarium and everything around me is muffled by the water I am immersed in. My view blurs and refocuses as I watch Alpha Scott’s lips move, gesturing for me to go into the office. It’s only as I enter into the snobbishly styled room that I recognize that I am apparently stepping into the office alone, my heart halting in my chest as I turn around. I look at Beta Dani
April Kane’s eyes widen as I step in behind the doctor who had once refused to treat me but acted so worried for his head warrior’s health condition. Gulping down my hatred to be able to focus on Kane, I take another step forward, triggering him to rub his eyes in shock. “April,” he repeats over and over again, getting a smile to appear on my face.And for the first time since I stepped over the pack borders, it is a sincere one. “Hey, Uncle Kane.” I walk around the bed to reach him, his big eyes following me as if he were seeing a ghost. “Oh, my Goddess. April, is this really you?” I know that he must have problems to really recognizing me as April, as I have grown quite a bit since he last saw me, but my heart sings that he got it right away. “Yes, Uncle Kane. What are you doing? What happened?” He stares up at me, his mouth open. With a groan, he tries to push himself up into a sitting position, making me react immediately. I put my hands on his shoulders, pushing him back
April I chuckle, shaking my head as he puts on a shy smile. “I am going to do the check-up, Uncle Kane.”Moving my fingers towards the doctor, I gesture to him to hand over the patient’s file, and I clear my throat as he scurries over to give it to me with his head lowered. As if he was intruding… I like this kind of power. “Impossible,” Kane whispers, closing his eyes to take a deep breath. He must be exhausted, and for a moment, I am preoccupied with the thought that he stopped breathing, and I crane my neck to check him out. It looks like he isn’t breathing anymore, and panic expands in my chest, getting my heart to beat faster, but just as I hold out my hand to feel his pulse, he inhales a lot of air and reopens his eyes. I slump back into my seat as he turns his head towards me, smiling. “So, you are a doctor. I always knew that you were a very special one.” Redirecting his eyes to the ceiling, he sighs, “Really intelligent.” His voice is barely a whisper, and I look int
April I watch the warriors of my pack bring in my instruments after I had asked every one of Alpha Scott’s pack to leave the room in order to be able to work in peace. I had already received enough dirty looks just from the few people who had seen me since I entered the pack grounds, and I was tired of being observed like I was trying to kill one of their strongest warriors. As if I would travel hours and a shit load of miles to do something that stupid. But I guess I will always be their Luna’s murderer, so what can I even expect? Uncle Kane has still not answered me properly, continuing to gush about me being alive and me being a doctor. I still didn’t tell him that I was the miracle doctor who saved his and his colleagues' lives, and every time he asked about my mother, I just smiled, telling him about how we had been living happily and without any problems. “In a pretty small home on the grounds of another pack,” I explain to him as I set the syringe to draw another
April Time slows down, my surroundings only moving in slow motion as I try to think about a way not to die. The screams around me get drowned out by the loud sound of the blood rushing through my ears, and I can recognize the warriors and Beta Daniel moving from the corner of my eyes. But they are too slow, and I can’t shift without risking endanger Uncle Kane. I take a deep breath, closing my eyes and cowering in the hopes to protect my vital points and survive as long as it takes for the warriors and Beta Danile to get the wolf off me. ‘And the Alpha,’ my wolf says, gritting her teeth as she is preparing for the impact as much as I am. I laugh bitterly, hoping the feeble protection shield she is fighting to get up, will at least fend off a few blows and shield my skin from his sharp fangs. ‘I guess he will rather join his pack member.’ Sighing sadly, I step as much away from Uncle Kane’s bed as I can manage before he can reach me to prevent the attack from accidentally involv
April Opening my eyes, I find myself lying in an amazingly cozy bed. “Goddess, am I dead?” I whisper, and I doubt my own question even before I hear Daisy’s whimper as my mouth feels dry as hell. And I guess I would feel better if I were dead. No one would have to face the Moon Goddess with a dry mouth. “April,” Daisy whisper-squeals. “Oh, my Goddess, how are you feeling?” I groan, pressing my palm against my hammering head as I sit up. “Everything is alright. What happened?” “You fainted,” Beta Daniel says, and I lift my head to see him leaning against the wall. “It must have been too much for you. Returning to this pack, seeing Alpha Scott, and the wolf who attacked you. As soon as the threat was removed, your body must have given up.” Taking a deep breath, I close my eyes, letting myself fall back into the bed. “Could you ask Amber to bring me an analgesic, please? My head is killing me.” “Sure,” Beta Daniel loosens his crossed arms and leaves the bedroom to go lo
April ‘Gotta love a jealous Alpha,’ my wolf giggles, making me groan internally. ‘He should just fuck off,’ I groan back, pulling my blanket closer as I snuggle back in. “I am having a headache, and he wanted to go fetch Amber for me to bring me a painkiller.” Sighing, I close my eyes again, wanting to blend out how he distorts his face in disgust. But it’s more difficult than I thought. “Why? Something the matter?” I ask him, pushing out an exhausted breath. “You could have asked one of the Omegas to bring you something,” he grumbles, stepping closer. Does he really want to reprimand me? “Sure,” I scoff, squinting my eyes at him. “Next time, I will ask one of the Omegas, who can’t wait to bring me a painkiller drenched in arsenic.” “Don’t be silly,” he retorts angrily, letting himself fall into the armchair Daisy was just sitting in a few seconds ago. “As if you were that important that they would risk a war between packs and be executed by an insignificant Alpha like Noah.”
Scott“Huh?” Liam looks at me wide-eyed, annoying me even more. “Get the fuck out of my office,” I growl, and his confused face falls, morphing into a disgruntled expression. “Sure… As you wish, Alpha,” he snarls back, and I ball my hand into a fist, ignoring the disrespect with how he sneered my title. Pushing out a deep breath of relieve as he leaves my room, I stare at the closed door for a few heartbeats before I try to concentrate on my documents once again. But it doesn’t take long until I get distracted again by my own thoughts, and soon enough, I call it a day. After putting my files away, I take a bottle of bourbon out of the bottom drawer and pour me a bit of the amber liquid into a crystal glass. With a sigh, I take a slow sip, closing my eyes as I lean back in the seat. I enjoy the alcohol gliding down my throat, triggering a burning sensation and I distort my face as I put the glass onto the desk. ‘So, what are we doing?’ my wolf asks me, slurring his words as his
Scott“Is there something you need to tell me?” Liam asks me. His expression has lost all its smugness as he looks up at me with a void expression. “About April, I mean.” He adds the phrase as if it were nothing. And still he gets my heart to nearly explode. What the fuck is happening with me? I fucking rejected her. The gears turn over and over in my head, my brain calculating the risks of just telling him all. Maybe it would be good to talk it out. Maybe it wouldn’t be that serious anymore. Maybe he could beat some sense back into me… “There is nothing to talk about,” I finally say, redirecting my eyes to the documents and hoping that he will understand and see that the conversation is over. Or at least get that I don’t want to talk about it. Whatever it is.But as the stubborn best friend he is, he gets onto his feet and leans against the desk, lowering his voice. “Scott, if there is something going on with April, I as your Beta need to know about that.” I take up my p
Scott“The omegas were whispering something quite interesting in the hallways.” I can hear the grin in his voice even if I keep my eyes glued to the documents spread before me, avoiding looking at him. “I don’t know what you are talking about,” I murmur in an annoyed tone, but he only chuckles before practically jumping into the seat standing in front of my desk. “Did the traitor say something regarding our warriors?” he asks, and I finally lift my gaze to see that he is looking at me with big eyes. His dark irises nearly sparkling in expectation. “She wasn’t able to tell me anything. She is still searching for the cause,” I say with a sigh, hoping he would just go away. But it is to no avail. He has always been the obtrusive kind. “So, she couldn’t tell you why our warriors’ health conditions are deteriorating and why their wolves stopped healing them properly?” His grin grows, and I really can’t see where he wants to get at. “Hm-mhm,” I answer with a hum as I lean my head o
April “Oh, stop it,” I groan as Daisy pushes herself off the seat, gasping. “No! Listen to me!” She screams before lowering her voice dramatically. “I drank that tea too.” “Everybody drank from that tea,” I shake my head, as she lets herself fall back into the chair. “Do you want to go on and be dramatic about it or do you want to talk about what happened in the library?” Daisy pouts, crossing her hands as she bounces in her seat. “Why? What happened in the library?” I chuckle, taking another sip of the tea, and I must admit that it is indeed delicious. “Alpha Scott waited until Beta Daniel had left the room to fetch us something to drink and came in to talk to me,” I hold the cup in front of my face, watching her smugly as she turns her head at me, looking intrigued. Even if she is still pursing her lips, wanting to play it cool. “And what did he say?” she asks. I clear my throat, shifting in my seat. “He wanted to talk about his warriors and the process of the treatme
April ‘I don’t think that we should drink that,’ Beta Daniel warns me via our mindlink, and as if the warrior was able to get it, he flashes us a big smile. “Ana was so kind to bring us all a cup of this delicious tea,” he gushes, and I sigh. Beta Daniel rolls his eyes, accepting one of the cups she is holding under his nose with an uncomfortable smile and takes a small sip with an exaggerated slurp. I giggle lowly, hiding my lips behind the border of the cup as he hums theatrically, “It is indeed one of the best teas I have ever had.”Turning towards me, he broadens his smile, his expression turning nearly grotesque. “Right, April?” Coughing as the sip I took went into the wrong pipe, I nod repeatedly, holding my hand on my chest. “Yes. Yes, definitely one of the most delicious. Thank you so much, Ana.” Ana beams up at us, smiling so brightly that I fear her face is going to disintegrate on itself. “Oh, I am so glad. I am going to tell Scott that you liked it right away.” With
April I stretch as we walk out of the library under the curious gazes of the omegas who are acting as if they are dusting the shelves and the insanely boastful statues. Chuckling to myself, I hug my book closer, walking faster through the long hallways of the dimly lit packhouse. As I have forgotten the time during my research, it’s already dark outside, and it has always been this dark also in the pack house as the Luna loved this mood. So the former Alpha kept it like this even long after her death. And I guess Alpha Scott just waddled along. “Has the pack house always been this depressing?” Beta Daniel asks, making me laugh. I nod as we turn into the hallway that leads to our quarters. “It’s because the late Luna, Alpha Scott’s mother, loved thunderstorms, so this lighting arrangement was made to make her happy.” “Ugh,” he scrunches up his face, his gaze still directed to the hallway in front of us. “I didn’t know that those bastards could be that cute.” I laugh, “Yeah, but
April“You shouldn’t have said that.” “Huh?” he looks up at me after putting the coffee down on the floor next to me. “You shouldn’t have said that,” I repeat in a whisper, putting my hands in front of my lips as I regulate my breathing pattern, my panic attack wafting through my body as the adrenaline diminishes. “That ‘future Luna’,” I push out a deep sigh, and he repositions on his knees to take my shaking hands in his. “That was too much. Why did you have to provoke him like that?” “Sorry, it was stronger than me. I saw him holding you like that and thought…the fucking audacity! What is wrong with this guy?” He squeezes my hand soothingly, helping me take a few slow breaths. As I feel a bit better, my fog clearing from my mind, I shift my hands in his, squeezing his back to show that I am doing fine. “What do you want to do now? Shall we return home? I could call Noah. I am sure that he wouldn’t approve of you being treated like this over here. Especially when all you want t
Scott I don’t know what is wrong with me. As I am facing the stupid Beta who is looking at me enraged, my vision refocuses, making me fall out of my tantrum. How fucking embarrassing. What happened? How could I let my wolf take over like this? ‘You are an idiot,’ he growls, retreating in my mind offended. ‘If we don’t react we will lose her for good.’ I shake my head, pushing myself off her, and straighten my spine as I keep my cool. “What did you just say?” “What are you doing to her? Who gave you permission to touch her?” he asks shocked, looking around distressed only to see the table scattered all around the place. “What the fuck happened?” “It’s okay, Dan,” April tries to calm him down as he gets more and more enraged. But he couldn’t do anything. Protector my ass. He is so weak that I would break him in half like a twig. “We were just talking. But how did you fucking call her?” I hear April sigh behind me as my anger flares up in me again. “No need to
April “April,” he feigns shock, grinning like the idiot he is. “You could have told me.” “Stop it, Scott,” I groan, annoyed as I lower my head back to my book. “I was obviously not talking to you. You should really know that.” He laughs, leaning back in his chair while sitting with his knees apart. Fitting for an entitled asshole like him. “Whatever, April,” he snickers, leaning his head onto his fist. “So, are you done hiding? Can we talk like adults, or do you need another round of ‘Avoiding the Alpha’?” I understand that he knows me better than everyone else, but after all that has happened between us and all his outrageous behavior, he should know that he does not have the right to act this way. He should act just like I do and take his distances. He should act professionally as the Alpha he is supposed to be, let me treat his warrior in peace, and not try to provoke me with stupid games. Or ask me to trust him when only a few years back, he tortured me. “I don’t remember