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Seven hours on the road and the window had become my whole world. Trees. Road. Trees again. I watched it all blur past without really seeing any of it, my thoughts moving faster than the truck and in far worse directions. “I know how you're feeling right now,” Mom said. “But we don't have much choice.” “You don't,” I said. Simply. Because she didn't. She glanced at me from the corner of her eye. “I understand, baby. But listen, if you're worried about them, I won't let any of them near you. Helena won't either. And if someone tries anything--” “Mom.” I turned from the window. “I'm twenty.” I faced forward again. “And whoever thinks they can come at me is welcome to try. I'll shove their head so far up their own ass they'll wish they don't cross me.” Mom was quiet for a moment. Then, softly: “I know you will.” And she did. That was the thing. She'd watched the change happen in real time over the past two years. But that wasn't the problem. The problem wasn't bullies or old classmates or any of the cruelties I'd survived the first time around. The problem was that I'd built something, a home, a version of myself I actually recognized, and we'd packed it up overnight. I turned back to the window and didn't say anything else. Because going back now, I don't plan to be thrown around in Redridge anymore. *** Mom pulled over at the part of the pack I barely knew. I hadn't come to this side much before, too caught up in books, always chasing the next one, never looking up long enough to learn much about my environment. But stepping out of the truck, I could feel even without familiarity that things had shifted. I was reaching back into the truck for my bag when the front door of a nearby house swung open. And an older warm-faced woman came out, moving quickly for her age, a watering can still dripping from her hand that she abandoned completely the moment her eyes landed on us. She came across us at something close to a run. “You really came, Ember.” She pulled my mom in and kissed both her cheeks, holding her by the arms after like she needed to confirm she was real. “I thought you'd changed your mind. I've been expecting you for over a week.” “Things got worse faster than I expected,” she said. “I couldn't wait it out any longer.” “No,” Helena agreed. “No, you couldn't.” Her gaze shifted to me, and she looked for a long moment, “This must be Elara.” A small smile. “No one could miss it. You look exactly like your mother. Almost like she's running away from herself.” I gave what I hoped read as a smile and not whatever my face was actually doing. Helena caught it anyway. “Not much of a talker,” she said, not unkindly. “That's alright. Come on, let's get you settled. We have a great deal to catch up on, but first things first. We need to get you both registered.” I frowned. “Registered?” “Things have changed since you left, sweetheart. Especially since Alpha Crassus arrived.” Alpha Crassus. Something about that name nagged at me. It seemed like Jason's endless posturing had finally paid off, all those years of puffing himself up about becoming Redridge's Alpha the moment he hit twenty-two finally came to pass. What a depressing outcome for everyone else. “Alpha Crassus,” Mom repeated beside me, and her voice had changed completely, almost like a flinch she was managing. “You mean Alpha Damon Crassus?” Helena nodded. “He returned about a month ago. Took over the pack.” She led us toward the front door, speaking over her shoulder. “With everything happening, the smaller packs folding, people seeking protection under larger ones, the Alpha mandated full registration. New members, returning members everyone. Proper headcount and identification.” “Oh,” so not Jason. Someone else entirely. Which would've been a breath of fresh air if it isn't another Crassus, whoever that was and clearly someone my mother knew, based on the way the blood had quietly left her face I filed that away. I didn't actually care about anyone named Crassus. The only thing I cared about right now was getting through the next twenty-four hours without my chest caving in. We went inside. The house smelled of warm herbs. Helena took Mom to one room and then brought me down the hall to another. Small. Clean. with a table, a chair, a window with a decent view of the back garden, and a bed sized for exactly one person. “You'll be comfortable here,” Helena said from the doorway. Then, reading something in my expression she probably wasn't meant to see: “You don't need to worry. You can still hold off on registering till tomorrow.” A pause. “Go shower, sweetheart. Dinner in thirty minutes.” “Thank you,” I said. And meant it. She nodded once and left me to it. **** I lasted twenty-five minutes inside the room before the walls started feeling like they were leaning in. Unable to bear it, I slipped out quietly. Mom had told me not to go near the forest and I wasn't planning to. I just needed air. I found the training post almost by accident. I hadn't known this place existed when I lived here before. But then I'd spent most of my time in Redridge with my nose in a book, eyes down, making myself as small and forgettable as possible. I rolled my shoulders and threw the first punch at the training pillar. The impact shuddered up my forearm and settled something behind my sternum. I threw another. Faster. The way Andy had taught me, weight through the hips, don't telegraph, follow through. Again. Again. “You fight like you're angry at the world.” I stopped mid-strike. The voice came from behind me, low, unhurried, with the particular quality of someone who was used to speaking and being listened to. I turned. He was leaning against the wooden fence at the edge of the clearing, arms folded across his chest, watching me with the settled patience of someone who'd been there long enough to form an opinion. He was all genuinely tall, the kind that registered in the body before the brain caught up. Broad through the shoulders, a strong jaw that looked like it had been cut rather than grown. Tracing that hard line was a stubble-short beard, shot through with just enough silver. It was meticulously trimmed. He was, objectively, unreasonably attractive. And his scent hit me a half-second after I registered the rest of him. Cedar and something darker underneath. The kind of scent that made some ancient, unhelpful part of my brain want to lean toward it and melt in his arms like I belonged there. I told that part to shut up. Every instinct I had snapped to attention. “Watching strangers train at night?” I said flatly. “Is that a hobby here, or just yours?” One brow lifted. He didn't look impressed. He didn't look offended either. He just looked at me. “You're new,” he said. “What if I am?” I kept my voice level. “Does knowing that get you to leave, or at least stop staring?” Instead of answering, he pushed off the fence and walked toward me. Moving through the space like it already belonged to him and he was simply choosing to share it. Every alarm in my body went off at once. “You shouldn't be out here alone on your first night back,” he said calmly. “And you shouldn't sneak up on people,” I said, “unless you want a broken nose.” The faintest curve touched one corner of his mouth. “I was offering advice.” he said, his eyes, the darkest green I've seen drifting down my face and trailing downward. “I didn't ask for any. And keep your eyes up.” He not only did not listen, he also took another step toward me. My hand came up and met his expectedly firm chest, stopping him clean. He was warm through the fabric. Solid in a way that was slightly annoying. I held his gaze, “Take one more step,” I said, “and I promise you won't be having children anytime soon.” I said, though I'm a little over half this man's size. Which made my threat almost ridiculous. The silence lasted exactly one breath. Then he laughed a low and genuine one, starting somewhere in his chest. Like I'd actually surprised him, and he didn't mind being surprised. “Noted,” he said. Our eyes stayed locked. And something moved in the space between us instinctive, wordless, and entirely inconvenient. My pulse kicked up in a way I had no patience for. I swallowed it down. “I don't know who you think you are,” I said, stepping back and away, “but stay out of my way.” I turned and walked. But I felt his gaze on my back long after the dark closed around me. However, the worst part of it all wasn't his gaze, It was the sudden, dizzying heat pooling between my legs.DamonI never asked many questions about her at the time. I was too far gone to ask questions about anything.I went to Silver Fang myself not long after. Buried what was left of me in the work of building that pack into something real, something impenetrable, because it was easier to pour myself into stone and soil than to sit still with my own head. It took years. But it worked, eventually. I came back from that fracture a harder man, a more settled one, and I built Silverfang into a name that carried weight across territories.I never went back to Redridge, though. Not once, the whole time. I told myself I was busy. But the truth was simpler and far less flattering. I was afraid that setting foot back in that pack would break whatever I'd spent a decade putting back together.So I let Reese bring Jason to me instead till he was old enough to live in the main pack house, every so often, over the years. Told the boy I'd make him Alpha the day he turned twenty-two, half meaning it, h
Damon“Every karma shall be paid in full,” the red wolf rasped, and without a second of hesitation, he lunged. His jaws clamped shut with a sickening, wet crunch. And with a sharp, dismissive jerk of his head, he spat the remains of her head onto the earth and turned away.I jolted awake, my heart hammering against my ribs, drenched in a cold, suffocating sweat.It took a full minute before my eyes adjusted enough to register the obvious.She was gone.The side of the bed where I'd laid her was empty . And when I walked closer to inspect, it had gone cold. Not recently-left cold. Been-gone-a-while coldI'd made sure of that myself, hadn't I. Said every cruel thing I could find fast enough to build a wall she'd never try climbing again. Congratulations. It worked exactly the way I wanted.So why did my chest feel like something had been scooped out of it with a blunt spoon?‘That will be because you're a certified asshole. Can't you see? We're hurting her Damon.’ Maverick. Low. Alread
Elara The hallway outside Damon’s room was completely silent, but I didn't stop moving until I was out the front doors and standing in the freezing night air. I pulled the thick sweater tight around my chest, my bare feet practically freezing against the cold dirt. I couldn't wait to look for it even if I wanted to. I didn't want to wake him after all. The walk back to Helena’s house shouldn’t have been far. On a normal day, it was just a quick, ten-minute or so walk across the village. But tonight, it felt like climbing a mountain. My body was completely shutting down. Every step sent a dull, throbbing ache up my legs. My vision blurred, the moonlight fracturing into spinning, dizzying halos. It had been exactly three days since I dumped that first cup of herbs down the drain, and whatever those herbs had been suppressing was violently fighting back. My head was spinning so fast I felt sick to my stomach. Worse than that, I felt incredibly strange in my own skin. It was li
ElaraI don't know how much time passed. I just knew I was floating in a hazy, suffocating darkness. My head throbbed, and a bone-deep, freezing cold clawed its way through my body.Slowly, fractured pieces of reality started slipping through the haze.And I know two things as a fact. I wasn't lying on the hard dirt. I was buried in something incredibly soft. A heavy, thick scent wrapped around my senses, wet cedarwood. Damon.I tried to force my eyes open, but my eyelids felt like they had weights tied to them. I managed a tiny, blurry slit. The room was not dark, but it wasn't bright either. Someone was walking toward me. Before I could tell who it was, something warm and damp pressed gently against my forehead. I let out a weak, pathetic whimper, leaning into the heat. The hot towel moved slowly, carefully wiping the cold sweat and dirt from my cheeks, down my jaw, and over my trembling neck.I forced my blurry eyes to focus, it was only then that I saw Damon. He was sitting on th
ElaraThree days.That’s how long it had been since I poured that first cup of herbs down the drain. I pushed the blankets off and sat up. My head spun instantly. My body felt incredibly heavy, like my bones were made of mush, and just walking to the door left me out of breath.When I made it to the dining room, the house was completely silent. A plate of food sat on the table, and right next to it, the steaming mug of dark herbs. Mom and Helena were out again.I hadn’t been back to the training grounds since that day at the waterfall. I kept telling myself it was because I wanted to stay as far away from Damon as possible. But the humiliating truth was that my traitorous body still ached for him. Even after everything, part of me still listened for his footsteps.But the other, more pressing reason I stayed in bed was that I just couldn't do it. My strength was completely gone.I took the food into the kitchen and forced myself to eat a few bites. Then, I picked up the mug, walked t
ElaraThe heavy footsteps were getting closer. I only had one logical option.I pushed off the wall and silently darted back down the hallway toward the front door. I grabbed the handle, rattled it loudly to make it sound like I was just walking in, and yelled, “I’m home!”The kitchen door swung open, and Helena stepped out, wiping her hands on a small towel.“Oh, you’re back, Elara. How was the outing with the young man?” She paused, her eyes sweeping over my dripping hair and soaked clothes. “...And why are you so wet?”She was smiling. There was no suspicion in her eyes or her tone, thank god.“Finn took me to a waterfall near the border,” I lied smoothly, forcing my tense shoulders to drop. “I went for a quick swim. Anyway, did you make lunch? I'm starving.”I clung to bring normal, desperately trying to ignore the words suppressant and three days screaming in the back of my mind.“Yes. Your mother actually baked some pie. Come have a piece.”Mom and Baked In the same sentence!?
Elara This man is Alpha Damon Crassus! The reality crashed into me, and any admiration I might have had for him went down the drain. All I could feel was anger. Even though he wasn't the Crassus who had dragged me through the mud and almost ruined my life two years ago, that didn't change the fa
Elara I woke at 4:30 in the morning staring at a ceiling I didn't recognize. I'd tossed and turned all night, given that I never slept well in new places. And last night exhaustion had been losing badly, because the other half of my brain had been occupied with something far more irritating than
Two Years LaterElara“What are you doing in there, Elara? Andy's all over the place looking for you!”I didn't need to look out the window to know it was Kofi. The boy had a voice like a cracked bell, definitely impossible to ignore.“Give me a sec!” I called back, twisting the stove knob down to
Elara “You’re such a slut for my dick, aren’t you? You’ve wanted this for so long, you’re basically taking it like a fucking champ.” My eyes widened in horror as the grainy video played on my screen. The phone slipped from my trembling fingers, bouncing off the duvet as a ragged sob clawed its







