“OH MY GOSH! Like, I totally wanna be in jail right now, just to get caught by him, you know?”
“Your wife is here.”
“Itabi niyo akin na ito #TeamNathanielHere”
Grabe, yung buong campus, walang tigil sa chikahan about kay Nathaniel.
Habang nagi-scroll ako, may nakita akong comment sa page from someone with a photo of Inter Milan football as his profile photo:
“Nathaniel is a close friend of mine, he's so low-key, no F******k, no I*, no Twitter. It's important for you to know that he's not into all that spotlight stuff. He asked me to talk to the Admin of this page to immediately delete his photo.”
So totoo nga yung sinasabi ng iba na ayaw niya talaga ng center of attention, Walang ere-ere, walang social media drama. Chill lang siya, like, walang halong keme.
I'm raising a tarpapel now, na may nakalagay na “I love Nathaniel.”
Hays, parang tanga.
Right after school at three o'clock in the afternoon, me and my gang walked from the faculty of Law to the Faculty of Political Science because our building was close to each other.
Baka naman may mga naghuhula pa rin d'yan kung anong nangyari sa litrato ni Nathaniel sa 'pogi spotted page. Eh wala na, nawala na parang bula. Pero alam ng lahat na ang pamilya ni Nathaniel ay isang mataas na ranggo sa sundalo, kaya kilala ang apelyido nila.
Hearing that, I had a glimmer of hope about ditching Adrian with his help,
Sa totoo lang, iniisip ko na baka masira ang utak ko kapag humingi ako ng tulong kay Nathaniel pero dahil sa pressure mula kina Yvonne at Kath. I felt like I had no other choice but to approach him.
"Sure ka bang ito yung room niya? Parang wala na siya dito."
"Chineck ko kanina, alas-kwatro matatapos ang klase niya."
"Eh, bakit mo naman ako pinaghintay nang halos isang oras dito?"
"Just in case. Baka mas maaga matapos ang klase? Baka malampasan mo yung chance mo."
"Parang hindi ko ramdam na magwo-work itong ginagawa ko. Try mo ngang tingnan doon." Tinuro ko ang mga babae na nakaupo sa ilalim ng Science building. Sila lahat naka-uniporme galing sa iba't ibang faculties, hindi sa Faculty of Political Science. Hindi ba't malinaw na nandito rin sila para kay Nathaniel?
"Chill ka lang. Huwag kang panghinaan ng loob."
"Ayoko namang sobrang mag-overthink, pero hindi ko mapigilan!"
"Anyway, humingi ka na lang ng tulong sa kanya. Ngayon, umupo ka na at maghintay."
"Nakakapagod na kaya. Hindi na kaya ng mga binti ko 'to." Grabe! Ang tagal ng paghihintay, at may isang oras pa akong aantayin. Buti na lang, may grupo ng mga estudyante na nag-umpisa nang umalis mula sa classroom.
"Nandito si Nathaniel! Ahhh!" Yung mga girls na naghihintay, bigla silang nagtakbuhan patungo kay Nathaniel, na 185cm ang height, kaya mahirap para sa kanila makita ang mukha niya. Ako naman, wala akong magawa kundi titigan siya na parang tanga.
"Saan pupunta si Nathaniel?"
"Balik na lang ako sa apartment ko." Nakita ko ang matangkad niyang katawan na umaattempt mag-escape pero naharangan siya ng mga girls.
"Binili ko yung cake para sa'yo."
"Nathaniel, sobrang bait mo. Pwede kang mag-guitar sa school events?"
"Kung may chance. Pasensya na, kailangan ko nang umalis..." Sinusubukan pa rin niyang makatakas sa kaguluhan.
"May girlfriend ba si Nathaniel?"
"Wala."
SCREEEAAAMM~
Pero Pwede bang makapasok at kausapin siya? Sobrang out of control na ang mga fans niya. Hanggang sa tumulong ang mga kaibigan ko na itulak ako papunta sa kanya.
"Hello, Nathaniel. Pwede ka bang makausap saglit.” Pagkasabi ko, tumingin siya sa'kin.
“Ano?”
"Pwede ba kitang…"
"Anong gusto mong pag-usapan?" Ang lalim ng boses niya.
"Um... I..." Sa sobrang naghuhuramentado ang puso ko hindi ko na rin marinig ang sariling boses ko, na wala akong magawa kundi tumingin lang sa kanya. Marami siyang fan girl na nakatingin sa amin.
Paano ko kaya ito sasabihin...
"Ano bang meron? Nagmamadali ako sinasayang mo lang ang oras ko."
"Um... Pwede ka bang..." Ano bang sasabihin ko? Pero hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin nang ilapit niya ang mukha niya sa akin.
"Para mo naman akong kakainin ng buhay sa titig mo. Nakakatakot ka.”
Then he left. He left me alone standing here alone in the middle of his fans.
The moment I arrived in my room up until now, I didn't call his name with anger, not even for a second. I feel like someone spit into my face and just left like nothing happened. Nakakahiya talaga. Iniwan ba naman akong nakatayo sa loob ng temple?! Feeling all cool and abandoned.
Yung mga kaibigan ko, masaya silang nagtatawanan, hinahaplos ang balikat ko, at sinasabi na okay lang. Sobrang yabang talaga ng gago na 'yun. Mas mahirap pa palang lapitan kaysa kay Adrian, na lagi akong sinusundan.
A few moments ago, yung mga taga-fan group ni Nathaniel, they transferred their ops sa #Nathanielcontent group. Private group na 'to kung saan lahat ng members ay nag-a-add at nag-e-exchange ng info about him at mga pictures niya nang walang kaalam-alam niya.
Seriously... Alien group talaga 'to. They're totally out of this world.
Matagal akong naghanap ng info tungkol sa kanya sa G****e. Wala akong mahanap maliban sa info na nasa listahan siya ng mga high-achieving students sa Faculty of Political Science at nanalo siya sa classical guitar contest ng PH Motor Groups. Buti na lang, kasama ako sa group na pinasok ni Yvonne para mas madali kong mahanap ang mga impormasyon tungkol kay Nathaniel. Kasama na rito ang schedules niya sa klase, address, mga hilig, at kung sino-sino ang may crush sa kanya. Medyo nakakatakot na para bang stalking levels na ito, seriously. Ano ba itong ginagawa ko?
Ting!
I sat quietly for a long time. I am also getting bored with the boys who send messages to get acquainted. Unfortunately, most of them are not eye-catching. Kaya hindi ko sila ma-invite na maging boyfriend ko just to fool Adrian. Sa totoo lang, I still pictured his face even though I only saw his F******k name, so until now I still don't want to accept his friend requests.
I closed the f******k tab and called Yvonne right away.
"Girl... Bilisan mo, hanapin mo na yung number ni Nathaniel! I will really catch him this time."
[Anong problema mo? Tingnan mo ang messenger mo.]
"Huh? Ano bang nangyayari?"
[May magandang balita para sa'yo.]
Pagkatapos no’n ay binaba niya ang tawag, at agad kong binuksan ang messenger app para tingnan ang mensahe na galing kay Yvonne. Kaya pala sinabi niya na may magandang balita, isang larawan lang na may ilang salita ang laman, but for me, this was the only way to send a message to the opponent right now.
Nathaniel.Hudson@g***l.com
Annoying! Parang bumabalik ako sa panahon ng matatandang walang panty.
Nag-email ako sa kanya, nagpapakilala para magmukhang seryoso. Parang nag-aapply lang ng trabaho, huh.
Denisaur@g***l.com
To: Nathaniel.Hudson@g***l.com
Subject: Hi
Hi! My name is Denise Merculio from the Faculty of Law. We've met once. Do you have time? I want to ask a little help from you. Whether we can meet tomorrow, wherever, it's up to you. I'm okay wherever and whenever...
I think that's enough, then click send.
Ten minutes later, I got a reply email on my phone. I immediately read it and his reply turned out...
Nathaniel.Hudson@g***l.com
Na: Denisaur@g***l.com
Baliw ka ba? Make an effort to send an email just to ask for sex? Wherever? Go fuck yourself!
Shet! Pagkatapos kong basahin 'yon, biglang sumirit ang dugo ko. Agad-agad akong nag-type ng reply at pinagmumura siya in all caps, hanggang sa parang namamanhid na halos ang kamay ko. Parang pitong linya lang 'yon pero no’ng in-click ko ang send...
BLOCK!
He blocked my email. Godammit!
PARANG gusto ko magalit kay Nathaniel sa mga ginawa niya sa akin kahapon, sobrang nakakahiya. Ngayon, kasama ang mga kaibigan ko, iniisip namin kung paano lulutasan ang problema ko. Wala akong kahit anong impormasyon tungkol kay Nathaniel, wala akong numero, Facebook, Instagram, o kahit Twitter niya. Wala rin siyang mga aplikasyon na iyon, at dinamay pa ang aking email sa spam. Wala kaming paraan para makontak siya. Sobrang nawalan na ako ng pag-asang makatakas kay Adrian."I think that cruel Nathaniel is not the right person to help you." said kath, frowning as she steamed her eyes."Hindi siya masama, kupal lang talaga siya." Iyan ang totoong nararamdaman ko."Mahirap na siyang i-approach ngayon. Make yourself all busy in the group #NathanielContent. After all, the people in the group will help each other. If anyone finds his phone number and shares it, then we should take advantage of that." Suggestion from KathBut you know, me appearing in the group page of the devil's wife... th
THE STORY of Nathaniel's cell phone has been temporarily set aside because that won't be fixed in a day or two. If there is a chance, I am ready to argue with him again.Ngunit ngayon, may problema ako... Gutom na gutom na ako. Fortunately, this afternoon I had an appointment with my student code members for the second time to strengthen senior-junior relations. Students from our Law of Faculty are all handsome and beautiful people, so we went to a Japanese restaurant near the university to eat. Too bad that my friends couldn't get together because they went with their respective code members as well. So, I had to sit alone with the seniors."Denise! Bakit ka ba nandito nang maaga?"is a cute little boy with his braces. His name is Jericko. The very first time I saw him, I really wanted to flirt with him but unfortunately, he already has a girlfriend."Oh, sobrang gutom na ako. Haha!" I replied."Sige, hintayin na lang natin ang mga senior at junior year mentors natin. Ayun! Narito na
I SOMETIMES THINK, why do I have to suffer things like this? I pressed F5 already, log-out then log-in again. But the post is still there.Nathaniel Fucking Hudson.So fucking shameless. Hindi niya lang basta na-unlock ang phone ko, he also harassed me through a status just before bed. As I did not want things to escalate any further by being misunderstood by the people, I had to search my name in the chat so I could immediately message him for a cursing session.Tangina mo, Nathaniel! How did you know my password? I saw the typing button so I know he read the message. Instead of replying, he just sent an emoji.Nakita ko yung p-in-ost mo.Ginamit ni Nathaniel yung Facebook ko para mag-type ng message habang patuloy akong sumasagot gamit yung same account. Parang ako na lang yung nakikipag-usap sa sarili ko na parang baliw.I've got nine digits as my password. Paano mo nalaman ang password ko?[987654321 yung ginamit mong password. Hindi mo man lang ginamitan ng creativity.]This assh
The opening day for club activities arrived. I tried to enter the crowd of new students who had gathered to fill the hall. Ngayon, kinakailangan naming magparehistro sa isang akademikong club in a certain amount of time before we can graduate soon. Wala pa ako naiisip kung anong club ako sasali, dahil patuloy na sumusunod sa akin si Adrian tulad ng isang uhaw na linta. It would be very good if I could avoid him. Ngunit sa halip na tulungan ako, iniwan ako ng mga kaibigan ko na nag-iisa at hindi alam kung saan magpaparehistro. Iniwan nila ako sa kahihiyan, habang sila'y nagpunta sa traditional medicine club upang magpa-foot massage. Iniwan nila akong nakatayo roon nang walang kaalam-alam kung sa anong club ako sasali. Hanggang sa nakita ko ang Ping Pong club, bigla akong nagkaroon ng pag-asa. "Hi..." "We're full!" Before I finished asking, they immediately cut off my words. Kung minamalas ka nga naman, oh. So I returned to an area where it was filled with people. This zone has the
"DENISE! Denise! Denise.”Damn!My face was slapped so many times to wake me up. Pero before I could snap out of my dizzy state, nakita ko na lahat sila, sobrang nagulat. If you'd ask me when and how I ended up on the ground? Wala akong alam. Kailan ko binuksan ang mga mata ko? I didn't know either. But how do I die? I know...Right now!"Guys, we're just playing. No need to be shook like that," sabi ng senior na nag-cause ng problem, nakatagilid at chill lang siya tingnan. He is not worried at all about the bitterness in the hearts of the first-years like me."Denise, are you okay?" Fortunately, another senior asked me. She helped to sit in a daze."Umm...""Looks like Denise is so shocked, huh.""Uh, um-"I've spent all my whole life kissing the boys, yes, it's normal! But that person whom I was doing 'that thing' was not a pretty boy, but a kaaway! Even though he did not kiss me, his action made me feel so dazed.If that person only kissed me and did not use his tongue to push the
WHEN I got back to our practice area after using the restroom, I thought we are done as well but... "Are you ready? Let's continue practicing." "Aren't we done yet?" "Today, we will complete the eight basic chords." Nakakainis naman. My fingers will break first before we finish the session. I want to cry. "Denise, for A minor, right fingertip on the 4th string and one on the 2nd." "Yes." It is karma to have short fingers as Nathaniel said. Can not reach what is destined for me. "Try playing." "I will do it." Trung~ "Wrong." "Umm." "Try again, Den. Try your best." I am trying! Ahh! I hate it. I want to go home. I don't want to play guitar anymore. "It's wrong when you play it like that. Press on the strings firmly. You are doing it as if you have no strength at all." The low voice that echoes is from Nathaniel who was sitting and watching me from afar. "I can't help it. Strings are too old and I am in pain." Then the guitar in my hand was openly taken by Nathaniel and rep
DENISE MERCULIO:Guys! I have good news!Yvonne Seriosa: You want to say that Nathaniel agreed to help you, right?Denise Merculio:How did you know?Yvonne Seriosa:Just guessing. Is that true?Kath Samonte:You could win the lottery.Yvonne Seriosa:How did you get him to agree? Was your body involved?What position did you get? Top or bottom? Haha!Denise Merculio:You are really dirty minded.Kath Samonte:You want to celebrate? Your freedom will be back soon.Denise Merculio: Celebrate, my ass. There's class tomorrow. Can we have coffee instead?Yvonne Seriosa:Do you know I don't drink coffee now?Denise Merculio:Really? Looking after your health?Yvonne Seriosa:No, I moved to Alcohol.Denise Merculio:The fuck?Kath Samonte: So what do you want us to do?Denise Merculio:Tell Green that Sarawat and I are dating. It's up to you on how you say it.Kath Samonte:Gotta bring our lying game on.Denise Merculio:Shh...Yvonne Seriosa:Leave it to us. We will prepare a plan.Denise
“BAGO tayo mag-umpisa sa ating training ngayon, may dalawang bagay akong ibubukas. Una, lahat ng miyembro ng guitar club ay kailangang mag-record ng isang clip at ipadala ito sa amin para ma-assess ang inyong progress. Yung mga marunong na mag-gitara ay dapat mag-play ng isang simpleng kanta. At para sa mga baguhan sa pag-aaral, mag-record kayo habang nag-pe-play ng basic eight chord at ipadala ito sa email na nakasulat sa board.” "Ugh... What's that?" Whining sounds filled the room. Especially my voice, the loudest of all people. This is the second day of music lessons and it should be something that really permeates the heart. But they are now giving us a lot of work. "Shhh. Silence. Anyone who doesn't send video clips will be removed from the club." said by Migs, the dictator. "We will die." "You won't die. Playing the guitar to show off to the boys can still be done. There are many people like that." "Kung gumagamit kayo ng F******k, puwede ninyong i-upload ito doon at i-tag