Feeling I slowly open my eyes and stare at the pristine white walls of my room.Another day like the previous one.Days are never different, there are no surprises when you already know what to expect, but something told me that was about to change. I felt the turmoil in my chest, as if my days were numbered and the storm was coming, it would drown me in the blink of an eye and I would never make it to the surface.I huddle under the covers to keep the late February winter chill from reaching me. my heart was already frozen with the conversation I heard a few days ago, I didn't want the cold to take over the rest of my body too.Don Kingston Lucchese.I could only think of that name in the last few days, the hard face without any feeling haunted my mind day and night, giving me no rest or breaks.The few times I was with him, I felt invisible, like I was a fly he could swat at any moment. he was making a name for himself in town and he can have any wife he wants, maybe he's worrying
Kingston I take a deep drag on the cigarette while silently enjoying the agony of Thomas Ventura, who is currently being purified in the flames for all the sin and intransigence he has committed during the last few years as one of the most respected underboss in New York.the power managed to blind yet another man.Fools...Greed for power would only lead them to the grave.The seven underbosses formed a circle as they watched Thomas' last screams, none of them showing any pity for the underboss's fate, their faces wearing the mask of tranquility I knew so well.But inside? deep inside them maybe they were afraid, that fear would make them rethink their attitudes before committing something that would make me turn against them.I knew that everyone in that circle wanted my place, however, they didn't have enough strength and power to fight for the position against me.my lungs burn as I hold the nicotine inside them and I finally exhale, letting the intoxicating sensation reach my ne
Feeling 2020My stomach twists painfully when I look at the lavish table, a huge hypocrisy on my part, because there are many people on the streets of New York who are starving, but the feeling of disgust at seeing so much food is greater than any other feeling."Eat, Feel" My father says patiently, pointing to the table with a wide variety of food and meat. He hated eating red meat at night, he was always sick, it went down really badly in my stomach and my day started complicated to force something I didn't want.I start to grab some salad, but you know when you feel someone watching you?I look up to see my dad staring at me, his angry eyes watching me intently.“Eat the damn food, Feeling. you feed like a damn bird, you need to gain weight or you're going to disappear from my face any day " Oh dad... how I would like to disappear not only from your face, but also from your life "Cristina, make your daughter's plate" My father commands and my mother looks up from her plate as if sh
Persephone I felt great the first few months of pregnancy, my skin was silky smooth and my hair was shiny. I became fond of the pointy tummy and created the habit of talking to the baby. My little Sebastian Devenuto Guerra. The months passed and the pregnancy became more and more difficult. I had just reached nine months completely exhausted, my waist was huge, I could no longer see my feet and my leg. My breasts felt like two watermelons and the pain in my back was killing me. I promised myself that this will be the only child I'll ever have, because pregnancy is a hell of a stress. And I've heard of women who've been through this more than ten times! I haven't been able to sleep or work properly for a month now, I was about to take the knife and cut my belly to get this sprout out. "Love. You're looking down at me in a very strange way.” Cosmo snaps me out of my thoughts and I look towards him. “I was just thinking…” I mutter."I know your mind and I know you're not th
Persephone 2 years later I stare at the two pink stripes feeling dread overwhelm me. I knew this moment would come, because I had been trying to get pregnant for two months, but I didn't imagine that the test result would shake me so much. The fact is, I didn't know if I was ready to be a mother, I couldn't imagine giving birth to a child at 21, even before taking over the leadership of Southward Angel. It was a conversation with my mother that opened my eyes, she emphasized that Cosmo was already 47 years old and that he would not enjoy having a child if he was too old for that. I'm sure he would agree if he said he wanted to have a child only when he was 30, however, the conversation was weighing on my mind and I decided to abandon the contraceptive on my own, leaving the decision up to fate. In the last two years I have put as many disciplines as possible in my curriculum, I managed to reduce graduation by half and I will graduate next month. After that I would sit down wi
Persephone 15 days later "Damn it, mother!" Stop this! I say irritably when she tries to fix my hair again. Her hands were fidgety and she had something to fix every five minutes! I was already nervous and she was just putting more anxiety on me! I look at my reflection in the mirror and feel reassured to see how beautiful she looks. The brown eyeshadow really enhanced my eyes accompanied by the nude lipstick. My hair got a modern, choppy cut, and although I miss my long hair, the new cut has brought a positive change in my life. Looking in the mirror, I saw a new woman. I get up from the chair, put on the velvety white pumps and admire the way the dress has molded to my body like a second skin. I never felt like “normal girls”, I didn't dream of a wedding since I was a child and I never imagined what my wedding party would be like. I also never dreamed of the perfect dress, so my choice was simple and quick. The satin dress was held up by two spaghetti straps, the V-shaped ne