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"When you realize that you have been the third wheel in their love story, sit up and think straight!"
Easier said than done.
I watched my best friend in bed, curled into the arms of the only guy I ever liked.
Ethan.
Being in the same study group, Lisa didn't think he was good enough for anyone. Until I told her I wanted to ask him out.
I gathered the shattered pieces of my heart, shut the door on them and lumbered downstairs. Between anger and the hurt chipping away at pieces of my heart is the fact they're both my friends.
Lisa, the cheerleader who's been more of a sister to me.
Ethan, the nerd I found too hard to ignore.
Both in bed the same day I asked him out on a date.
I didn't wait for her to come downstairs. I knew she would bolt after me, so I went home straight with nerve breaking exhaustion.
Should I curl up and cry in a corner? Hell no.
When you're a foster kid, you don't get those privileges.
A minute after I got home, her call came in.
" Hello, Nicki... listen, it wasn't planned. It just happened..."
I imagined her gesticulating while speaking, and him on the bed watching her pull those excuses into my deafened ears.
" I gotta go," I spoke calmly, reining in my anger. By tomorrow I'll be fine. Until them, I hate everyone right now.
" Nicki, we are still friends right?" She probed, voice a little above a whisper.
" Maybe tomorrow," I thought and hung up.
I'm back here in this government assigned shelter. What was once a haven has become a nightmare.
I thought I had the best foster dad in the world until he was snooping around, prying my phone, and peeping into my room through the keyhole.
An ass!
The next morning, I'm fixing breakfast when I heard him cough.
“ Nicki, you will be eighteen in two days. Anything you want for your birthday?” He approached my side of the kitchen counter and placed his hand on mine. He moves a finger in circles, tracing invisible lines on the back of my palm.
Honestly, I'm resisting the urge to wack his head with a fry pan. After what he did few days ago, I'm planning his funeral.
So, here's the gist.
He sneaked into my room. I assumed it was Maya, a younger foster kid. While few of us have separate room, others, especially the younger ones, share, and most times Maya comes to mine.
He crawled under the sheets. It took his calloused large hands to alert me of the intruder.
“ Wanted to give you a massage,” the fat old piggy brute blurted.
“ Ohh!” my lips tilted in disdain. That was the beginning of my nightmare. Today, he's tone deaf to the dripping venom in my voice.
A breath away from me, he continues. “ Whatever it is, I can arrange it to be bought.”
I feigned a smile. Exaggerated. “ You have done enough. I might be leaving few days after.” I announced and watched him grow pale.
“ But you can stay as long as you want. This is your home now.”
I dramatically touched my heart. “ That is so kind of you. I will be eighteen. It's only appropriate that I leave as soon as possible.”
He grabbed that opportunity. Looked sideways and inched closer, right behind me.
He grabbed my ass. I jerked at the unexpected touch and clenched my fist. He pressed my well rounded butt, leaned in and took a deep breath.
It felt nauseating and different.
No one has touched me in such sensitive places before. I went through high school without any form of romance. Ethan would have been my first.
Besides, with the way he guarded me from boys, I didn't expect him to be such a jerk.
“ I could give you your very first experience.”
I frowned. “ This jerk knows I'm still a virgin?”
I turned and wriggled out. “ The kids might be watching,” I spoke flirtatiously.
He chuckled. “ Later then?”
I shrugged and watched his pot belly take the lead.
“ Gross!”
He didn't look so terrible in my eyes until these past few days.. Now I can't imagine him being anything order than a pig.
I am yet to round off all the necessary requirements for my college admission. But I haven't mentioned it to anyone, except Ethan. We applied to the same school.
Since I don't have money for hostel accommodation, I also applied for the Devinsky free accommodation for indigent students. Hopefully, I can sort out myself before graduation.
Right now, I have few days to the deadline for my acceptance fees, and the tuition for my first year.
I practical have no idea of how I'm going to get the money.
Raising the complimentary card Ethan gave me days before he made his choice, I dialed the number.
He said they might have a job. No idea what kind of job, but I have to give it my all. It's my only hope right now.
Following some direction, I met with the card owner in a restaurant.
One glance at me, and he nodded, somewhat satisfied.
" You will do just good. I have an important guest. He just arrived. You will be serving him tonight."
It didn't sink in at first. I imagined that the restaurant needed private services for VIPs. Something within that line, but a rough guess quickly snapped my eyes right back at him.
" What kind of services do you mean?"
His face contorted into a frown. His heavily built figure looked like a flood about to drown me in its waves. But his remark made my heart shutdown.
“ Of all the times to show up, you choose now.” I gruffed at him, helplessly watching the departing back of Nicki. He followed my gaze to her figure. His attention reverted and he shrugged like he couldn't care any less.“ You and your people always put her in harm's way. She's safest when she's away from you.”“ A single incident shouldn't decide my capacity to protect my woman,” I snapped at him. He scoffed, lips curved in a demeaning smirk. “ I gathered that she was shot sometime ago…in front of your family residence…while in your car.”Every word came out like a stress of its own, bringing along a reminder of that day. “ You did nothing to the conspirators who had her shot. Or did you?”“ Anyone's head hanging up on a spike? Anyone jailed? Anyone in a cell at least?”“ No…obviously. Because she's not your family. I imagine if that would be the case if your sister, Vicky, or your sweet Akilla was in her shoes. No…obviously. Because you…you will demand for the heads of all those i
Another Monday. Another week to bear Nicki's avoidance. “ You can't be serious! Not after everything we have gone through few weeks ago because of your stubbornness!”She folded her arms across her chest. “ So, it is stubbornness to you? How was I supposed to know they weren't from him?”“ Nicki would have known. You have been blinded by your rage and unforgiveness that you ignored every sign. Sure, you couldn't wait to disappear and leave me alone.”“ Oh someone seems hurt. What happened to proceeding with the divorce and all that?” She retorted, hands akimbo.“ I bet that's why you have petitioned for it. Isn't that so?” I retorted, annoyance burning like hot coals in my chest. She paused, tearing her gaze away from me. “ It is not you. It is Micheals. Yes?”However brief it was, it drafted the script I hadn't thought of, hitting home like lightening. Michael pushing for the divorce on behalf of Nicki. That dickhead!!“ I would like to take my leave…”“ Nicki, I am still your husb
“ You don't carry arms into a place like that,” I told Vicky over the phone. “ This is not something I can involve the military in.”“ I understand your point, but she might not be with them. Going in there is like getting entangled with the devil for no good reason. Wait, let us confirm that they have her. For all I know, your girl might be finding her way home now.”I paused for awhile, but the next time I spoke, my tone dropped like ice in my own ears. “ Sister…time is what she may not have.”I got off the phone and turned to Melissa. “ Just before you try to convince me to stay back, bear it in mind it could have been any of you.” I said to her, and the rest of the team gathered in my office. “ She's my wife. If making a deal with the devil is what it's going to take, I will dine with him.”Seconds after I left the building, I felt my pocket for my phone. Empty I reversed, and lumbered inside. Melissa met me downstairs, wearing the widest smile I have ever seen on her.“ She di
Maya came up with an idea. Catch a rabbit and put the jacket on it.And that I did. After long hours, bruised elbow, sprained ankle and a broken nose. I have seen worse.“ I guess that is it. We just have to run in opposite direction of the rabbit.”I nodded in agreement, hoping that the rabbit doesn't come running after us. “ Now that I think of it, you can't be menstruating when you're pregnant. You deceived me.” She complained, wearing a rueful look.“ I'm grateful you didn't realize that back there. Deceiving you was vital towards a convincing act.” I explained, dragging my sprained ankle across the forest floor, while trying to fix my nose. Climbers barricaded most ways, like eternal sentries guarding secret treasures. I broke out a strong stick from a fallen bough, breath about my arm size, making a way deep into the forest, while Maya followed closely behind. “ How did they pull up your grandfather's voice and how are you sure we are not running from the good guys?”I halted
Words, carefully chosen, and one of them was "home". Right outside the door, he could hear me, but nothing stung inside. I felt plain and empty. Lighter, with nothing bearing down on my chest like a sack of grain." Sister Nicki," Maya called again. This time, like she could not recognize me. I turned my attention at her with a slank stare. She looked muted by the intensity of my gaze. " Go home and pack. I'm taking you with me." I spoke casually, straightening up to leave."I don't want to go with you." She protested, firm on the decision with an unyielding gaze. It came with a hum in my ears, striking past archives to open a closed chapter of our memories. I don't trust her enough to leave her with Aaron in the house. Not in the current state. " This is not up for a debate,” I insisted, about two feet away from the door. “ I said so as your guardian. Let's go..."" If this is how you intend to leave the Devinsky family. I do no concur. You both are hurting. Do you not see that wha
It felt tasteless on my tongue when I said it the first time. His eyes shifted, flickering like a faulty bulb. The way his eyes narrowed, lips pressed tight, reinforced my decision. This is not something I would want to hear. “ No. Keep it to yourself.” I said, and took up the spoon. The broth reached my tongue with a sting. “ Urhh! This has vinegar.”“ I did mention that it is bitter.” He droned, with his gaze fixed on me. I felt like coughing it out, but that would bring him closer…he might say something. Something that would eventually break what is left of me. So, I took it. Slowly at first. When I couldn't bear the intensity of his gaze, I downed the whole broth, face contorted from the bitter sting. “ Thank you,” I whispered, dropping the plate. “ Do excuse me. I would like to get some fresh air in Mr. Li's garden.”I got up to leave and seconds later, his hands were firmly wrapped around my waist.“ I'm sorry, Nicki—”“ No, Aaron. I don't want to hear it. Please –”“ Out of m
He plunged his fingers into my wet core again, his gaze sweeping over my face. Flushed red with embarrassment, my lips parted in a plea. I attempted to hold him back." Let's go home, please. Anywhere but here."" Aaron!" I moaned, arching my back." You have been a disobedient wife. I should punis
Not only was I debating why Ethan never mentioned he still went through with the application, I was beginning to grow a sense of nervousness around Aaron like a second skin. The second Ethan was gone, I got up and excused myself. He grabs my elbow and pulled me back to himself. “ Come on, every al
At some point, I was unsure if it was directed at me or at the girls who were long gone. I got home, and collapsed on the nearest cushion. His voice interrupts my drift, demanding answers." What happened to your shoulder?"" If you were kind enough to check your inbox, you would have known." I ret
Four days later, I'm sitting on the quadrangle, brooding over how I'm going to get out of the mess I created for myself.Agreeing at that moment seemed like the only solution. “ I should have thought of something else,” I lamented in my mind. “ What do I do now?”He must be waiting. Today's the ag







