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"When you realize that you have been the third wheel in their love story, sit up and think straight!"
Easier said than done.
I watched my best friend in bed, curled into the arms of the only guy I ever liked.
Ethan.
Being in the same study group, Lisa didn't think he was good enough for anyone. Until I told her I wanted to ask him out.
I gathered the shattered pieces of my heart, shut the door on them and lumbered downstairs. Between anger and the hurt chipping away at pieces of my heart is the fact they're both my friends.
Lisa, the cheerleader who's been more of a sister to me.
Ethan, the nerd I found too hard to ignore.
Both in bed the same day I asked him out on a date.
I didn't wait for her to come downstairs. I knew she would bolt after me, so I went home straight with nerve breaking exhaustion.
Should I curl up and cry in a corner? Hell no.
When you're a foster kid, you don't get those privileges.
A minute after I got home, her call came in.
" Hello, Nicki... listen, it wasn't planned. It just happened..."
I imagined her gesticulating while speaking, and him on the bed watching her pull those excuses into my deafened ears.
" I gotta go," I spoke calmly, reining in my anger. By tomorrow I'll be fine. Until them, I hate everyone right now.
" Nicki, we are still friends right?" She probed, voice a little above a whisper.
" Maybe tomorrow," I thought and hung up.
I'm back here in this government assigned shelter. What was once a haven has become a nightmare.
I thought I had the best foster dad in the world until he was snooping around, prying my phone, and peeping into my room through the keyhole.
An ass!
The next morning, I'm fixing breakfast when I heard him cough.
“ Nicki, you will be eighteen in two days. Anything you want for your birthday?” He approached my side of the kitchen counter and placed his hand on mine. He moves a finger in circles, tracing invisible lines on the back of my palm.
Honestly, I'm resisting the urge to wack his head with a fry pan. After what he did few days ago, I'm planning his funeral.
So, here's the gist.
He sneaked into my room. I assumed it was Maya, a younger foster kid. While few of us have separate room, others, especially the younger ones, share, and most times Maya comes to mine.
He crawled under the sheets. It took his calloused large hands to alert me of the intruder.
“ Wanted to give you a massage,” the fat old piggy brute blurted.
“ Ohh!” my lips tilted in disdain. That was the beginning of my nightmare. Today, he's tone deaf to the dripping venom in my voice.
A breath away from me, he continues. “ Whatever it is, I can arrange it to be bought.”
I feigned a smile. Exaggerated. “ You have done enough. I might be leaving few days after.” I announced and watched him grow pale.
“ But you can stay as long as you want. This is your home now.”
I dramatically touched my heart. “ That is so kind of you. I will be eighteen. It's only appropriate that I leave as soon as possible.”
He grabbed that opportunity. Looked sideways and inched closer, right behind me.
He grabbed my ass. I jerked at the unexpected touch and clenched my fist. He pressed my well rounded butt, leaned in and took a deep breath.
It felt nauseating and different.
No one has touched me in such sensitive places before. I went through high school without any form of romance. Ethan would have been my first.
Besides, with the way he guarded me from boys, I didn't expect him to be such a jerk.
“ I could give you your very first experience.”
I frowned. “ This jerk knows I'm still a virgin?”
I turned and wriggled out. “ The kids might be watching,” I spoke flirtatiously.
He chuckled. “ Later then?”
I shrugged and watched his pot belly take the lead.
“ Gross!”
He didn't look so terrible in my eyes until these past few days.. Now I can't imagine him being anything order than a pig.
I am yet to round off all the necessary requirements for my college admission. But I haven't mentioned it to anyone, except Ethan. We applied to the same school.
Since I don't have money for hostel accommodation, I also applied for the Devinsky free accommodation for indigent students. Hopefully, I can sort out myself before graduation.
Right now, I have few days to the deadline for my acceptance fees, and the tuition for my first year.
I practical have no idea of how I'm going to get the money.
Raising the complimentary card Ethan gave me days before he made his choice, I dialed the number.
He said they might have a job. No idea what kind of job, but I have to give it my all. It's my only hope right now.
Following some direction, I met with the card owner in a restaurant.
One glance at me, and he nodded, somewhat satisfied.
" You will do just good. I have an important guest. He just arrived. You will be serving him tonight."
It didn't sink in at first. I imagined that the restaurant needed private services for VIPs. Something within that line, but a rough guess quickly snapped my eyes right back at him.
" What kind of services do you mean?"
His face contorted into a frown. His heavily built figure looked like a flood about to drown me in its waves. But his remark made my heart shutdown.
The request burnt on my eardrums, like hot coals. My gaze hardened, jaw clenched and eyes frozen in space. Numbed and speechless, her words re-echoed in my head. It felt like fate itself is telling me that I can't handle what's coming. I can't stop our eventual separation. The muscles around my heart tightens. I look up and shut my eyes. I have to tell her, but each time our gaze lock, and she looks at me tenderly, I find every reason not to.I can't. But I have to let her go.“ Maybe we should…”“ What?” Her lips parted in a low shallow gasp. Her eyes scans mine with critical attention and confusion. She shakes her head, tears creating a mist over her eyes, which blurred in time and drop. That one drop. That single drop drove a sword straight into my heart. She cried. This time, it is because of me.I look at the tears I caused but I can't go back.“ You will have half of everything I own. Every penny…”“ Stop!” She hushed me, hands suspended, while her gaze pulled away from me, sc
Agonizing silence swallowed both of our voices, until the thud of the boots of the patrol guards could be heard clearly in the room.“ You are married to her?” He queried, eyes almost popping out of their shells. “ Oh, my god!" He gasped, with his right palm over his mouth, stunned into silence. “ For how long now?”“ Not up to a year,” I droned, trying not to imagine the girl I can proudly call my soulmate being an infiltrator. An insider with a motive of her own: revenge. “ No, it can not be Nicki.” I said to myself. “ She wouldn't hide the truth from me if she knew. My marriage can not be a product of her scheme. Nicki isn't made of such a material.“ Are you going to confront her?”“ No!” I cut in, more certain about her innocence than I could ever be. “ It was just fate. She grew up a beautiful soul thanks to her grandmother. She doesn't remember the boy, but she remembers the accident. If she had known, the Nicki I know wouldn't have married me even for all the treasures in the
“ What's the matter, Aaron?” My voice hollowed out, fright crawling into the centre of my heart. Something feels too wrong… so off about him. I clutch the sides of his shirt, closing in like it could make him open up to me. Lips sealed shut, he stared blankly into space.“ Honey,” I called in a panic, my heartbeat flying over the roof of my heart. He shakes his head, like he wants to dislodge something from his head or make sense of something that no longer made sense.“ How small were you when this happened?” He queried, his face completely drained of colour.I made a sign with my hand right up to my waist. “ About this small,” I replied, clutching the side of my chiffon dress. (Aaron)I had taken the detour. I took this path to revisit the sight of the accident. It's still fresh in my memory. Everytime I close my eyes, I still see her. I'm wondering how she has eluded me when Nicki suddenly requested to be accompanied somewhere. I lifted a brow. Not at the request but the clouds ho
(Nicki)“ Aren't you so sweet, my darling husband?” I smirked. “ I presume you are beginning to seek an escape. To be rid of me somehow.” I tilt my head quizzically, wearing a cynical glare. He pressed his lips tight, eyes roaming everywhere without focusing on a given place.“ Who is she?”“ Who is she?” He returned the question, brows furrowed in a daze, denial wrinkling his forehead into lines that struggled to touch each other.“ You're suggesting a divorce. There has got to be someone out there…someone sexier…hang on, I'm still talking…”“ You said your grandfather wants you to divorce me. I was merely asking if…”“ If it's what I want so you can use the wholesome opportunity to get yourself a fresher pasture.”“ Forget I ever asked, alright.” His voice lowered in a fake panic. I punched his chest and looked away, my attention drifting off to where the waters curve in the distance. After a long while, my voice cut into the silence, low and sullen. “ I wish there was another way.
I carry that weight home, and it only left my mind temporary when I put her to sleep. Relief washes over me like I have pleased some deity or spirit out there.Coming downstairs, I waved at the butler and we stepped outside. “ You knew, didn't you?”His forehead wrinkled, but his lips remained tight as if there is a secret he can't give away. “ I'm referring to the accident. You knew…you remembered it was where the little boy was taken and that room…that exact room was where he died. Why didn't you tell me straight up rather than blasting me for everything that has happened so far.”“ I know damn well it was my fault, Mr. Li. Damn well. I got behind those wheels because my uncle obliged me. Because he wanted to please me so much that he let a child take a wheel…I never shrugged off the responsibility even for a moment.”“ I have searched for her and if that's the reason you don't feel you can trust me enough to protect my own wife. Fine. Guard her with yours…”“ You have no idea wha
I leveled up, but he looked me straight in the eyes, and scoffed. “ Go and take care of your wife…”“ Mr. Li!”He halted, and turned around to face me again. This time with a bristle that made me rethink my attitude for a moment. “ If you had an idea about whom she really is, you would have put a bullet to the lady Samantha's head for her involvement in the shooting. What did you do?”“ You handed her a passport to return with a more ridiculous scheme. What about the elders? What did you do to any of them?”“ I understand they're your family, but she's your wife. And if you won't do your duty to her as her husband, in full…I will step in as her guardian…”“ This is still about the shooting…”“ Yes, it is damn about that! That was a bullet, Aaron. A bullet!” His voice lowered to a breaking point. It almost sounded like a crack. A crack I never saw coming in him. Now that I think about it, he mentioned about her identity. “ Would things have been any different between the both of us if







