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"When you realize that you have been the third wheel in their love story, sit up and think straight!"
Easier said than done.
I watched my best friend in bed, curled into the arms of the only guy I ever liked.
Ethan.
Being in the same study group, Lisa didn't think he was good enough for anyone. Until I told her I wanted to ask him out.
I gathered the shattered pieces of my heart, shut the door on them and lumbered downstairs. Between anger and the hurt chipping away at pieces of my heart is the fact they're both my friends.
Lisa, the cheerleader who's been more of a sister to me.
Ethan, the nerd I found too hard to ignore.
Both in bed the same day I asked him out on a date.
I didn't wait for her to come downstairs. I knew she would bolt after me, so I went home straight with nerve breaking exhaustion.
Should I curl up and cry in a corner? Hell no.
When you're a foster kid, you don't get those privileges.
A minute after I got home, her call came in.
" Hello, Nicki... listen, it wasn't planned. It just happened..."
I imagined her gesticulating while speaking, and him on the bed watching her pull those excuses into my deafened ears.
" I gotta go," I spoke calmly, reining in my anger. By tomorrow I'll be fine. Until them, I hate everyone right now.
" Nicki, we are still friends right?" She probed, voice a little above a whisper.
" Maybe tomorrow," I thought and hung up.
I'm back here in this government assigned shelter. What was once a haven has become a nightmare.
I thought I had the best foster dad in the world until he was snooping around, prying my phone, and peeping into my room through the keyhole.
An ass!
The next morning, I'm fixing breakfast when I heard him cough.
“ Nicki, you will be eighteen in two days. Anything you want for your birthday?” He approached my side of the kitchen counter and placed his hand on mine. He moves a finger in circles, tracing invisible lines on the back of my palm.
Honestly, I'm resisting the urge to wack his head with a fry pan. After what he did few days ago, I'm planning his funeral.
So, here's the gist.
He sneaked into my room. I assumed it was Maya, a younger foster kid. While few of us have separate room, others, especially the younger ones, share, and most times Maya comes to mine.
He crawled under the sheets. It took his calloused large hands to alert me of the intruder.
“ Wanted to give you a massage,” the fat old piggy brute blurted.
“ Ohh!” my lips tilted in disdain. That was the beginning of my nightmare. Today, he's tone deaf to the dripping venom in my voice.
A breath away from me, he continues. “ Whatever it is, I can arrange it to be bought.”
I feigned a smile. Exaggerated. “ You have done enough. I might be leaving few days after.” I announced and watched him grow pale.
“ But you can stay as long as you want. This is your home now.”
I dramatically touched my heart. “ That is so kind of you. I will be eighteen. It's only appropriate that I leave as soon as possible.”
He grabbed that opportunity. Looked sideways and inched closer, right behind me.
He grabbed my ass. I jerked at the unexpected touch and clenched my fist. He pressed my well rounded butt, leaned in and took a deep breath.
It felt nauseating and different.
No one has touched me in such sensitive places before. I went through high school without any form of romance. Ethan would have been my first.
Besides, with the way he guarded me from boys, I didn't expect him to be such a jerk.
“ I could give you your very first experience.”
I frowned. “ This jerk knows I'm still a virgin?”
I turned and wriggled out. “ The kids might be watching,” I spoke flirtatiously.
He chuckled. “ Later then?”
I shrugged and watched his pot belly take the lead.
“ Gross!”
He didn't look so terrible in my eyes until these past few days.. Now I can't imagine him being anything order than a pig.
I am yet to round off all the necessary requirements for my college admission. But I haven't mentioned it to anyone, except Ethan. We applied to the same school.
Since I don't have money for hostel accommodation, I also applied for the Devinsky free accommodation for indigent students. Hopefully, I can sort out myself before graduation.
Right now, I have few days to the deadline for my acceptance fees, and the tuition for my first year.
I practical have no idea of how I'm going to get the money.
Raising the complimentary card Ethan gave me days before he made his choice, I dialed the number.
He said they might have a job. No idea what kind of job, but I have to give it my all. It's my only hope right now.
Following some direction, I met with the card owner in a restaurant.
One glance at me, and he nodded, somewhat satisfied.
" You will do just good. I have an important guest. He just arrived. You will be serving him tonight."
It didn't sink in at first. I imagined that the restaurant needed private services for VIPs. Something within that line, but a rough guess quickly snapped my eyes right back at him.
" What kind of services do you mean?"
His face contorted into a frown. His heavily built figure looked like a flood about to drown me in its waves. But his remark made my heart shutdown.
(Nicki)I'm tired.Tired of fighting to be with Aaron. To retain his attention and the position of being his wife. His family, his history with Samantha and the looming shadow of Steven over everything I cherish and hold dear. I'm tired of everything.Somewhere in my head, I'm convinced he's responsible for Samantha's presence in the family dinner. But I hate to admit it to myself that there's no connection between Samantha's unlikable presence and the failed assassination attempt.Weeks after the incident, I stood before an open grave.This is not the little Nicki who brawled her eyes out during her family's funeral. She's older. Less lonely. But still the same girl.The one person who had stood by my side during my family's funeral is gone.I watched as the casket lowered, along with the remains of my amnesiac grandmother. My last relative.It numbs my thoughts that I'm alone now. Before granny passed, I was a stranger to her. My visits to the nursing home had decreased when I got
Patience thinned into a thread, I exhaled, fighting off the intentions to kill, and a growing exhaustion as well. “ What should I do, Mrs. Copeland? I want his head for what he has done. I would wrap it as a present and send it to that half-baked twit who struck at my crown…”“ Consider that done, Sir.” She said, and silence reigned. It came with a rush of adrenaline. I gaped for a second, struck by her immediate agreement.With her response, my chest fell, like an appeased deity before I hung up. My attention reverted to Nicki, and something broke inside me. “ I shouldn't have gone back. You never wanted me to leave your side. It feels like I fail you everytime you need me.” I thought, caressing her cheeks.She warned me in her own way. The signs were there.The next day, I have my heartbeat pacing to the beep of the monitor, counting along and drifting off to sleep, when I heard a knock, and next came a blonde hair, pale face and red lips.Samantha.I shut my eyes, and took a deep
(Aaron)I had returned to set the record straight. It had come to my knowledge that my nephews were lobbying the company's stakeholders, and secretly vying for top position and offices in the company. I aim to let them know it wouldn't happen under my nose.If they want it. They have to earn it. But before I could reach my destination, I heard the loud crash and the subsequent alarm. A gunshot.“ Nicki!” My blood raged as I took a flight down the same stairs, praying to God to keep her safe.“ Oh God! Get the doctor, now!”Anger surged beneath my skin. Pangs of fear and rage mixed seamlessly within me. Holding her in my hands, fear gnawed at my chest, twisting my insides. It feels like my mind is floating. It feels like I could lose her if I held too tight, and it also feels like I could lose her if I loosen my grip an inch.“ Stay with me, Nicki…hold on, wife. Please, don't do this to me, Nicki. Don't do this to me.” My voice cracked, and something dropped on shirt, leaving a wet p
41“ Sister?!” He quizzed. “ When have you ever let someone outside our family call you that?”“Shut up!” She punched his rib again. “ Ouch! You want to take her around? Goodness!”Fighting his taunts with a glare, she takes my hand and leads me away. “ Let me show you around,” she repeated with a smile, ignoring Aaron completely. Uncomfortable? Yes. Can I say no? Definitely not me.The second we were out of earshot, she pulled me closer. “ How did you do it?”“ Do what?” I asked, as confused as anyone would be in my shoes.“ How did you…you know…get him…have you consummated your marriage with him?” She dropped the question after stuttering through the initial words.I nodded, and she returned the question. “ How did you do it?”It suddenly occurred to me that she's talking about Aaron's medical condition.I smiled, knowingly. “ It just happened, sister.”“ Just like that?!”“ Just like that,” I repeated.With a contented smile, she stretched, and yawned dramatically. “ Honestly, it
(Nicki)Learning of the upcoming Devinsky family dinner had given me more nightmares than I have had in my whole life put together. Aaron informed me two days ago. I hoped it would still be a month away, but it was closer than I anticipated.I stood before the mirror, watching my reflection with little confidence and no satisfaction.Nothing seems to fit. Not even the dresses I purchased last time. Either the color looks too dim or too bright. The slit is too high up, or too low, or it doesn't seem to blend with my skin color. My wardrobe is a mess.“ I look fat, don't I?” I asked out loud. Standing before his closet, he dips his head backwards to get a glimpse of me. “ I doubt.” I insisted, and spinned. “ Well, take a closer look.”“ How close do you want me to look?” He asked, abandoning his business, hands in the pockets of his pants.“ That close,” I gestured that he should stay where he was and tell me.He chuckled. “ Well, from this close, I don't think so. I could give you a b
(Nicki)After a long while of wrestling the conflicting thoughts within me, I had finally let it out. I cheated on him…but with him.What a relief?A temporary relief. With his answer, my heart had quickly rolled into a pang of doubtful assessments. I have gotten five messages. All from anonymous sources, or a source as it might be.Photos. Short videos. Everything taken from the second I walked out of the hotel. Whoever it was, had seen me go in. At first, I had thought that it was connected to the stranger I supposed that I had slept with. But with Aaron owning up to that, the huge discrepancy takes the spotlight.“ Let me handle it,” he says and takes my phone. “ You will get another by the end of the day.”He's about leaving when something else strikes my thought. Or should I say, someone else.“ How's her health now?” I asked him, torn between concern and the urge to pry on his activities for the past two days. “ About that, Nicki…”“ I heard she's cancer free now.”“ Yes,” he







