Beautiful Readers ..
I have been dreading this post... but ... it has to be done...
As much as I hoped things would resume to a normal schedule, things have taken another turn on my personal side.
Unfortunately I will have to put the book on hold.
I have no idea what things will look like going forward, so I will either post as I get time, or just finsih the book and then post.
I am sad and dissapointed, this was not the plan when I started writing this beautiful story.... I am so so sorry!š¢
But I promise I will finish it ... right now I just need to navigate my way into what life holds for me...
I won't disappear...
I'm still here.All my Love
šøWillow Joyšø XxxPrologue Knock! Knock! Knock! Someone knocks at the dressing roomās door. āHey, B, youāre on in 15!ā I hear a maleās voice call out from the other side. āOhā¦ Thank Youā¦. Iāll be ready!ā I shout back. Tonight, Iām at the Blue Moon Pub. It is a rather popular little place in this town. Iām only passing by and will be here for two more days before I move on to the next town. I have been here a few times before. It usually holds a good crowd. I stare at myself in the mirror. Looking at my refection, Iām filled with conflicting emotions. Staring straight into the same crystal green eyes of the one person I wish could hug me right now. The one person I wish I could talk to right now. Share my every high and low of every day with. But, I will never have that again. I close my eyes, heaving a deep sigh. Just then, a different memory hits me. Another one I wish I could ignoreā¦ āLetās get out of hereā ā¦. I hear the words being whispered, in my mi
Timika 10 Years AgoāMama, Mamaā¦Look here!ā I shout out, in excitement!I am running toward my mother who is swaying on the big swing in our garden. My dad is only a few steps behind me, chuckling away.āWhat is it sweetie?ā Mommy beams at me. The way the sunrays are shining through the branches of the big old oak tree, are making her crystal green eyes sparkle. She has such a softness to her, making her look like an angel.āDaddy got me my own guitar!āI have never been this happy! This has to be the best birthday present ever! I have never wanted anything more in my young 11year old life!āThank you, Mama! Thank you, Papa!āMy parents share a look and envelop me in a loving hug. This moment hereā¦ my motherās soft honey blonde hair touching my face, her scent of roses. My dadās strong arms around us. His dark stubble brushing against my little shoulder. His scent of musk and freshly wet soil. I feel so loved and safe right h
School came out an hour ago.Itās officially school holiday and Iām excited to have a few weeks off, to play my guitar and attempt to write my first song. I already have an idea or two.Iām humming a tune while riding my bike home, the packhouse already in sight. As soon as I reach home, I enter and run up the stairs to my room. I lock my bedroom door behind me. Opening my backpack, retrieving the precious piece of paper Iāve been dying to open.I open my report card, my heart hammering in my ears and my face turning hot.Please Goddess, let my hard work pay off!My eyes scan the Report cardā¦. āA+ā in all my Subjects!A big smile crosses my little face and I fall back on my bed, letting go of a breath I feel Iāve been holding since this morning.Thank you, Goddess!I have been working really hard to be at the top of my class. To be the best in all I do!I know Daddy says that I have only now to be a kid, and to be just that. I play along with it. But I know who I am, I may only be 1
Timika āDrew looks at me; I fake a smile, so he wonāt seeā¦ā I sing along, listening to Taylor Swift on my earphones. Iām up early, making breakfast in bed for my parents. Daddy will be leaving in a few hours for a very important Alpha meeting in another State. Iām making omelettes with bacon, spinach, feta, and mushrooms and of course lots of cheese. I love baking and cooking and our head Chef, Harry, is always patient teaching me a few things, every now and then. Oh, here comes the chorus!!! I feel my excitement burning up! This is my jam! āHeās the reason for the teardrops on my guitarThe only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing starā I belt out in my best version! I give it my all and donāt really care who is still sleeping. I hope this is a nice way for the rest of the house to wake up. I give a little snort. āHold up!ā Iām startled while Iām sprinkling some paprika on the edges of the plate and over the omelett
Timika 5 Years Later āAgain!!!ā Iām yelled at for the 20th time this morning! I groan in frustration as I get back up and take my stance. What is with me today? He comes at me, and usually I would have moved quickly, and ducked the move, just to catch him off guard and knock him down. Yet, today, Iām slow, clumsy ā¦useless!!! āFor Fox Sake!!ā I let out with frustration! I run over to the side, and vomit. Trying to hide my shame from Uncle Garren and Auntie Lil. āCome on Kenzie, shake it off! Letās go again!ā I nod my head, wipe my tears, and take a sip from my water bottle, to rinse my mouth out. I take my stance once again. Trying to focus, but my mind is a mess! He comes at me and throws me to the ground. My body moving like a piece of cooked spaghetti, knocking the wind out of me! Itās like I have no fight in me, no fire, nothingā¦just emptiness. I cover my face with my arms, still lying on my back. I break out into a sob, and just keep cryi
Timika I open my eyes. I realise how far I have come since that day! For so long, I have wished I could just go home, go back to the life I had. But that life did not exist anymore. There would be no one. For long I had no idea where I fit in now. Would I just disintegrate into nothingnessā¦ just lose any purpose of life, my wolf side, would I even have a future? For the first time I feel like the anger has left me a little. Maybe it was finally crying, giving way to my emotions, or maybe it was the wish I just made. Either way, I feel like I can finally breathe again. In time Auntie Lilura and Uncle Garren made me realise there would still be more. I was not born simply to live on the run my whole life. Moon goddess had a destiny for me. And right now, I finally feel that maybe, just maybe one day I would have my life back. I get up and make my way back to the little cottage. I have been living here with Uncle Garren and Auntie Lil for the past 8months. We will be moving agai
Alpha Arkham Stone (At the same timeframe, Timika 16th Birthday) āFireā¦.ā What was that?I hear the faint sound, an angelic voice, echoing into the forest. What is that?Is that a whisper, or a song? āNever fallen from higherā There it is againā¦. My ears perk up. āIām still hereā the voice echoes again, then fades ā¦ Where is it coming from? My wolf gets up, tilting his head in search of the sound. We are in the forest, the sunlight dancing through the dark green trees. I get a very faint scent, what is that? Itās sweet! Goddess, itās heavenly, itās making my mouth water! We start running, goddess knows in which direction. But I trust my wolf. He is fuelled by something; Iāve never felt him driven like this. What is it, Ark? Suddenly, something catches our attention, something running ahead, only a glimpse, thatās all I saw. Then I see it again. A champagne-coloured wolf. The sunrays dancing on her coat, wait, is that a light pink glow? Beautiful! She stops in her tra
Alpha Arkham (2 Years Later) I open my eyes to the soft sunlight of the early morning, dancing across my face. Itās warm, yet gentle. I close my eyes again. I swear it almost feels like soft kisses. I groan in annoyance; I donāt even want to get up! If only I could go back to my dream I just woke from. To smell her, hear her voice, and see those gorgeous eyes. I could stay in that moment forever! Goddess, I wonder how it will feel to wake up to her soft kisses. Just imagining it has my dick throbbing. Fuck I canāt wait! I have not been with a girl in 5 years. It takes a lot of self-control, and I am proud so say I have been saving myself for my mate, even though before I have been intimate with women, I have changed my ways. There are constantly she-wolves, and even human girls throwing themselves at me, itās nothing new. But I will never mess with any of my own pack members. That has always been my nr.1 rule! That will be disrespecting my future Luna! Even though there are