Chapter Three

Timika

“Drew looks at me; I fake a smile, so he won’t see…”                                                

I sing along, listening to Taylor Swift on my earphones.

I’m up early, making breakfast in bed for my parents.  

Daddy will be leaving in a few hours for a very important Alpha meeting in another State.

I’m making omelettes with bacon, spinach, feta, and mushrooms and of course lots of cheese. I love baking and cooking and our head Chef, Harry, is always patient teaching me a few things, every now and then. 

Oh, here comes the chorus!!! I feel my excitement burning up!

This is my jam!

“He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star”

I belt out in my best version!

I give it my all and don’t really care who is still sleeping.  I hope this is a nice way for the rest of the house to wake up. I give a little snort.

“Hold up!” 

I’m startled while I’m sprinkling some paprika on the edges of the plate and over the omelettes.

“Who the hell is Drew, and why you got teardrops on your guitar?”

Xander asks me with a raised brow and a very serious expression.  Resting his one hand on the counter, peering down at me. Wearing only his spiderman boxers.

“Timika your eleven, who is this, Drew? I will beat his ass! What’s going on here?” he says. Clearly upset, his brows in a deep frown.

 

I am completely taken back.

“You scared me!” I say with my hand over my heart. “Look, now you made me mess the paprika!” I state annoyed.

“Well???” he gives me an expecting look.

I begin to laugh at his serious expression. He looks like he is ready to go to war with any boy who walks through the pack house doors, at any second.

“Oh, seriously Xan” I roll my eyes at him. “I’m 11years old. There is no “DREW”!!!”  I emphasise, making air quotes with my fingers.

“I’m just listening to a new song I really like. And there are no boys breaking my heart! Way too young for stuff like that. And besides I have a mate out there somewhere, my heart will only be his!” I state with finality.

His face relaxes, and he blows out a puff of breath.

“Goddess, Kenzie! Good girl”

“Ok, enough of this drama! Please grab that plate and help me take this up to Mum and Dad’s room.”

“Fine, but I’m not going into Alpha and Luna’s room wearing only my boxers.”

“Oh hush! But off course not my dearest, Xander Hart. Not someone as modest as you…”  I reply in a mocking tone. Knowing well he has no problem being nearly naked among his school friends.

He tosses me a little wink, his blue eyes shining with mischief.

We reach my parents room, and he passes me the other plate carefully, then opens the door for me.

“Thank you for the help, Xan.  Also, for being ready to protect me if my heart would have been broken.” I whisper to him.

“Any time Kenz, see you later. Remember our date later today” he winks at me before leaving.

I enter my parents’ room.  They are still asleep, Daddy spooning with Mommy. I take a second and just stare at them. The sunlight is shining softly through the curtains, and I hear the birds chirping away in the early morning hours.

“That smells amazing” Daddy says in a low voice, his eyes still closed. 

I knew he could hear me, and smell the food, even when I was still downstairs. He is an Alpha, and all his senses are heightened. 

“Good morning, Daddy” I greet him with a little giggle.

“Oh, my heavens! What a lovely surprise! Thank you, Sweetie,” Mommy joins in.

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The rest of the morning was spent with Mum and Dad. I showed them my report card and they were a little shocked at my high grades, but very proud! We also had a few moments where Daddy joined me in playing guitar. Daddy left with Uncle Zuko late morning. 

So now, I had some alone time with Mommy.

Gosh I loved girl time with her!

She braided my hair, with pink and turquoise ribbon intertwined into the braids. 

“You want to sing with me?” My eyes shoot up to meets hers’. 

“Definitely!  Can we sing Butterfly Fly Away, please?” 

I love this song by Miley Cyrus. Hannah Montana is one of my favourite movies! 

I’m so excited! Mommy has the most beautiful voice. She would sing me to sleep every night up until I turned 10years old. I miss it, but I know they are giving me space into becoming a pre-teen. But I miss hearing her voice, it is so sweet and soothing. I hope one day I can sing like her.

I get my guitar and try out a few notes before I’m happy with the preferred melody…

“You tucked me in, turned out the lights

Kept me safe and sound at night

Little girls depend on things like that …”

I started singing. Mommy joining in at the Chorus. We harmonise so beautifully; I love our voices together!

“I promise you there will come a day

Butterfly fly away…”

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Today has been perfect!

I’m reading a book about mermaids.  I wonder if mermaids are also real?  Werewolves exist but are also thought to only be mystical creatures.  I make a mental note to ask Daddy about it when he returns from his trip.

I’m passing time while waiting on Xander to finish his football practice.

We attend human schools in the nearest city. It takes about 25min to drive there by bike. Our pack lands are situated just out of town, into the forest. They don’t know about our existence, but this offers us to learn how to control our wolves and blend into society.

So, we still do normal school sport. But of course, the werewolves are naturally outstanding at this, as we are genetically more athletic, faster, and stronger.  This makes Xander very popular, and he loves the attention! I snort at the thought of my big brother. He is such a fun character. 

Xander has shared a little secret with me. I don’t keep secrets from Mommy and Daddy, but this is Xan, and it is personal. Xan likes boys.

He had let it slip once when he was checking another boy out at training, and I noticed. I asked him. And him always saying I’m mature for my age, confided in me and confessed that he likes girls and boys, but he hopes his mate will be a guy. 

 

I don’t really understand his feelings, but one day, I will. He is my big brother, and I will respect and love him no matter what.  I will never judge! Love is love, and the Moon Goddess has made us each by design.

So, for now it’s our secret. But he will be able to find his mate next year when he turns eighteen. So, then there is no hiding it. But I know his parents won’t mind this.  I don’t really get why he wants to keep it a secret?

Two hours later I hear Xander knock on my bedroom door. I can’t wait till I’m old enough to mind-link.

“Ready to go Kenz?” he yells is a sing-song tone.

I put on some candyfloss flavour lip-gloss, grab my guitar, and my cute pink sequin backpack. Inside I’ve got my pen and notebook, two juice boxes and some candies.

“Come on slowpoke, what you standing around for?” I joke as I rush out the door grabbing his hand,  pulling him to follow me.

We head outside and chat about how our day has been. We ate some candy, drank our juices, talked, and laughed a lot.

“Xan?” I ask quietly.

“Yeah, what’s up?” he asks me with a raised eyebrow. He knows me so well.

“Are you excited to find your mate?” 

He stares into the distance, staying quiet for a few moments.

“Hmmm, Kenz, maybe when you are my age you will get this better.”  He passes me a gentle smile.

“Well, let me put it this way. I am excited to meet my mate, but also scared. I am still confused about a lot of things, and I hope I have some time before I meet my mate. I hope that I only meet him or her when I’m a bit older.”

“Is that why you haven’t told anyone you like boys as well?”

“Fuck, this is so weird talking to a little kid about this shit.” He mumbles under his breath, scrubbing his hands over his face. 

“Shit, sorry Kenz! Forgive my filthy mouth!” he says with wide eyes, putting his hands over his mouth.

“It’s ok Xan” I giggle.

“Kenz, you know I love you! But this is just something personal for me. I think I just need time to figure out some things first. I need to figure out who I am before I can just reveal a part of me, I’m not sure about yet.” He looks downs at his hands while playing with his fingers.

“I get it Xan.” I say to him gently while stroking his cheek softly. “Just know there is no shame in who you are. And we all love you no matter who your mate turns out to be, just as long as you are happy Xanny.” 

He tilts his head to the side; his blue eyes study my face. 

“You really are an old soul Timika, you know that?” he says with a light laugh.

“Ok, missy… How about a one-on-one jam session?” he asks, wiggling his eyebrows again.

“Absolutely! But First I want to ask you a huge favour.” I rush out!

“Oh, Goddess…what is it?”

“Do you think you can train me? I mean, like soon! I don’t want to wait one more year. I’m ready Xander!” I stare into his blue eyes, pleadingly!  Working my best magic on these crystal eyes, they somehow always did the job.

“You know Alpha will have my ass for this !?!” He asks, knowing Daddy will be very upset at this.

But I need this. I can feel it within me!

“Well, it will be our little secret. I keep your secret, and you keep mine. Sounds fair don’t you think, Xander Hart?” I say, tilting my head and tapping my chin with my finger.

He raises his brows, his eyes widening. 

“Oh, my Goddess, you are some kind of crazy little Alpha chick!” he says in a very dramatic tone, waving his hand around.

“Do your parents even know this manipulative side to you?”

“Nope! Of coarse  not!” I give a huge smile.

“Only you my dearest Xan! They only get the angelic version ” I finish, batting my eyelashes and tapping him on the cheek with my hand.

He laughs out loud, throwing his head back.

 

“OK fine! We start Monday morning, early! So, you better show up and work for this if you want it so badly.”

“You got yourself a deal, future Beta Xander.” I shake his hand.  I’ve got the biggest smile on my face.

I’m so excited!

We continue with having a fun filled jam session!  Xander has a good voice, and we sound pretty good together.

The rest of the afternoon I spent in the kitchen with Mommy.

We baked some chocolate brownies, with lots of nuts and ate it with vanilla ice-cream and chocolate ganache.

We had a bubble bath, with pink glitter bubbles. We lit some vanilla candles and drank milk from wine glasses, while relaxing in the tub and just having girl talk.

Then Mommy spoiled me by tucking me into bed and singing me to sleep. Gosh how I have missed this.

I like growing up, but this, this I have missed. I close my eyes and listen to her sweet voice.

I inhale her sent of roses. I take this moment in. I feel so warm and happy inside. Today has been such a happy day.

I have a smile on my little face as I drift off to sleep. Unaware that this was my last day of happiness. The last day of my life being like this.

Forever changed…