Chapter 3

I sat alone on the floor for a long time. The sound of Sideline and our parents outside the door talking about choosing which prettier dress to wear for the party makes me break down again. I couldn't stand my family, especially today of all days.

I'm going to the shed just to gather my wits because it has really been a long day. couldn't stop the tears. I was mourning and unwanted love. I was mourning a one-sided love, and it was killing me.

I just felt unloved and unwanted by everybody, and I'm tired of begging for people to love me.

Some people say that if you love somebody, then their happiness should matter the most to you, but why should his happiness be with my sister and not me? Sienna hasn't done anything for him, she doesn't even think he's the most special one. Because she's working on making herself the dream goddess of all the boys in the pack.

As I was heading to the shed, I met Drew. Drew and I spent most of the time in the woods, so we built our little shed. It grew to be our secret base, and we were always ditching the others to sneak in here for fun. No one knew about this place except me and Drew. Arnold was here once too, but he probably doesn't remember.

"Do you want to talk to Alpha Arnold about your feelings? If you don't tell him, he'll never know." Drew said. Everybody was preparing for tonight, and I thought he would be helping his parents out, but I'm glad he's here.

"I wouldn't be able to take the rejection." I said in frustration. I don't think I can handle being openly rejected. I think it would finish me.

"You were friends before all of this. Ask him what happened to your friendship and why he ignores you." He said. It's really surprising that he's the one who is encouraging me to do this because he has always been against my feelings for Arnold.

Arnold doesn't owe me. He has never told me that he loves me or indicated that he cares about me even one bit. But I want to know why he chose my sister. I know they didn't get along until three years ago, and I want to know what brought them together. Although I think we were once friends, for some reason I don't know, he drifted away from me.

"I know you're afraid of what he will say, but it doesn't matter anymore because Sideline will be his mate tonight. You've never done something for yourself, and you've always put your sister first. Do it for yourself." Drew said, and something just clicked in my mind.

"You're right. I have to let him know how I feel." I stood up. I have been quiet about my feelings for Arnold because I didn't want him to reject me, but I have nothing to lose at this point.

I can't take seeing him with my sister, and now I will have to watch them be all lovey-dovey together as mates.

"Wait, you mean now?" Drew asked confused, and l nodded.

"I'm going to put myself first for the first time in my life." I said, leaving, and I didn't even stop to hear what he had to say.

The preparations for the Luna ceremony were in full swing, but l didn't let it deter me from doing this today. l went straight to the Alpha's office, and luckily, Arnold was alone.

"Sienna, what are you doing here?" He asked, confused after l entered.

He sat behind a huge desk, his toned body making him drool-worthy even in his normal three-piece suit. Including me. At that moment, he closed the file he was working on and his dark blue eyes looked at me, making my heart race.

I took a deep breath to ease my nerves.

"Why did you choose my sister?"I asked him, but he looked at me coldly.

“If you're just here to ask me why, then I suggest you leave as soon as possible. I don't need to explain my choices to you.” He breaks my heart, but I won't let anything stop me from telling him how I feel.

"Arnold, I've always lov-" I've always loved you! Before we were friends.

“Darling!”

My sister's intrusion interrupts me. She looked at me with a look I couldn't understand.

She ran to Arnold, then placed herself in his arms and raised her head to ask him, feigning innocence, “Why is my sister here? What are you talking about?”

“Nothing.” Arnold smiled softly at her, then looked at me sternly. "Our talk is over. I don't want to create any misunderstandings between me and your sister."

"Oh please, I trust you more than I trust myself." Sideline blushed, going closer to him, and he kissed her forehead.

I knew why Sideline had popped in because the Luna ceremony was about to start and she had come to Arnold so she could be at the party with him. This Luna ceremony was held on a tight schedule, but it was grand. This means that Arnold has predicted the timing of Sideline's shift and made preparations ahead of time. He couldn't wait for her to become his Luna.

I felt like a knife was stabbed into my heart. I secretly squeezed my hand as hard as I could to keep me from crying out in front of them.

"I'm sorry that I disturbed you, Alpha." I said, but before I could leave, Sideline smiled at me triumphantly. It was a clear indication that she was doing all of this on purpose because she knew it hurt me.

As I exited the packhouse, I felt like my world had completely stopped. Everything was pointless. I have never felt so worthless, useless, and lifeless. I guess I should have known better than to find myself in a one-sided relationship.

I didn't go back home, and I didn't even go to the party, but having a wolf means that I can hear anything from a distance.

The last piece of myself I was holding together broke when Arnold accepted Sideline as his Luna and mate.

There is no way I will be able to stay and see them together. I didn't think or consider anybody else, and I just went straight for the forest with no Plan B or anything whatsoever.

I'm leaving my pack.