LOGINI was the biggest curse to my pack and an even bigger one for my parents. They made me my sister's Keeper, and I did everything I could to keep her safe, but it was never enough for them. I found solance in the love I held for the alpha of our pack. I loved him even though I knew he didn't feel the same way. I thought I could still win his love, but my heart was shattered when I found out he chose my sister as his mate. I couldn't take it anymore in the face of his rejection. I packed up in the middle of the night with no plan and nowhere to go, but I found myself a new home. 5 years later, l got a call that my sister had passed away. A part of me didn't want to go back, but if I didn't, then it was a decision that I was probably going to regret my whole life. I came face-to-face with the man who rejected me, but that wasn't the only highlight. I was surprised to see a sweet little boy who wouldn't let go of my leg and called me mother. I had to marry Arnold in order for him to grow up happy. But what happens when the dead resurrect and she wants to take What's now mine.
View More"Couldn't you just let it go? You ruined everything." My sister cried out angrily, taking off her shoes as we entered the house.
"I was trying to protect you." I rolled my eyes. I should have let Aimee beat her crazy ass because she is the most ungrateful person I've ever met.
"How many times have I told you to stop protecting me? I can stand up for myself, and all you ever do is ruin my life." Sideline continued to yell at me. I swallowed her words even though they killed me.
"What is the noise about? shouldn't the two of you be at the party." My mom said as she and dad entered the living room, looking at us in confusion.
"How could I stay there after Sienna embarrassed me in front of everybody?" Sideline cried, and of course, my parent's eyes found me, and they weren't impressed.
"She was bullying you, Si, and all I did was teach her lesson." l justified my actions. I don't think I had to justify myself because she was being bullied, and I did what any sister would do in that situation, but as always, I am the bad guy, even when I'm doing something good for her.
"Who did you beat?" I could tell my dad was one moment away from exploding at me.
"Aimee, the Beta's daughter." Sideline said. She was definitely eager to see me in trouble.
"What were you even thinking, Sienna? Aren't you tired of embarrassing me? " My dad shouted at me, but I rolled my eyes. It didn't matter what I did because I always disappointed him.
"Why can't you be more like Sideline?" My mom said sighing. They were both behaving like l killed somebody.
That statement definitely hit me harder than I anticipated because between them and the person that I love, I was definitely losing myself in order to fit in their description of perfection or trying to be like Sideline.
"Oh, trust me, I wish I was as stupid and weak as she is." l said sarcastically, and just as I expected, Sideline started crying.
I don't care what people say about me, but I can hold my own, and I don't give a f*** what anybody says about me and unlike my sister who cries about anything.
"Apologize to your sister!" My dad said, and he meant business judging by the look in his eyes. If Sideline and I hadn't looked identical, then I would have come to the conclusion that I was adopted because of how they treat me.
"I'm sorry for protecting you against a douchebag princess, Sideline." I spoke to my twin sister. I felt sad and helpless. If I didn't apologize, then I know my dad would make a fuss out of it, and I'm not in the mood for that nonsense.
I stood up to leave because nothing good came out of us being together other than the fact that they didn't forget to point out my mistakes.
My parents have always put Sideline's needs ahead of mine, and it didn't bother me much when I was younger because she was the one who got sick most of the time, but it's gotten to a point where nothing I do is ever good enough for them. They were the ones who asked me to always protect her, but they still found a way to make me feel like s*** for doing it.
Just when I was about to leave, I was hit by a sharp pain all over my body. I have been in pain before, but this wasn't just any pain. Every born in my body was on fire. l screamed and fell down.
"They are about to shift." Dad's distant voice said. I could hear somebody else crying and screaming in the background.
l was carried out to God knows where, and the pain intensified. As the moon shined down on us, I felt like I was dying until I felt my body rearranging itself. l screamed harder than before because this was the worst pain I'd ever felt in my entire life, and I just couldn't take it.
l felt my shift, and l saw my hands turn to paws before l knew it, l was standing on four feet. I could hear everything in the background. I could see everything much clearer, and I could see as far as I wanted to see, but my eyes stopped in one place.
My Alpha, Arnold.
I wanted so badly for my wolf to say he was my mate. but no, she didn't say anything. However, I still want him.
There is nothing more painful than falling in love with a man who will never feel the same way about you, but I've done it most of my life in the hope that maybe someday my feelings will be reciprocated.
He stood there like he owned the place, with his green eyes narrowed at me. He has a smoldering gaze that draws anybody in.
Some days, I feel like he wants me, and then he ignores me like I don't exist.
Everything he does puts a smile on my face. Each one of our encounters is unforgettable, and every time he is near, I feel butterflies in my stomach.
I know for sure that the feelings I have for him are of love, but most of the time, they are like a curse that weighs down on me and slowly sucks the life out of me because of his rejection to be anywhere around me. But at one time both he and Drew were my best friends. However, he chose to walk away from me 3 years ago and I don't know why.
I could smell the wood pine and manly aura he emitted, and l was hooked. When he started approaching me, l couldn't help but stare at his perfectly crafted body. His muscular chest pushes against his chest. I have never seen somebody as perfect as him. With a good jawline, high cheek bone, and beyond handsome.
I wish I could put my hand in his black hair and just play with it because it was just perfect and nicely done.
His eyes were definitely everything to me. They made me feel naked and exposed while making me feel safe at the same time.
I held my breath as he drew closer. This is the moment I've been waiting for my whole life. I just wanted him to notice me, and he was.
I have always been begging for scraps of his attention, but this time, he seems to be freely giving it to me.
Just when I thought he was stopping in front of me, he passed, and I followed him with my eyes, only for him to stop in front of my twin sister.
l swallowed a lump that was stuck in my throat.
Are they mates?
Sideline's wolf was beyond magical. It was so brown and beautiful, and it just made me want to see what mine looked like.
I saw Arnold petting my twin sister's wolf, and it made me feel like something was choking me. I wanted to break down, but I couldn't. I didn't want to make a fool out of myself in front of everybody.
"Beautiful." He said to her. As she nuzzled in his hand, l felt a pit in my stomach that spread through my entire body.
"I, Alpha of the Spirit Lake Pack, chose Sideline as my mate and Luna!" He announced to everyone while my heart broke into a thousand pieces.
This time, it wasn't just my heart that was broken, but my soul was crushed, my ego, my self-esteem and self-worth, and every part of my body felt weak and numb.
They are not mate.
I don't know why l am not enough. I know that we haven't been close in the past 3 years, but I didn't expect him to choose my sister.
I didn't care about anybody or anything, and I ran as far as I could. I ran and ran without stopping. It felt like I was carrying an entire weight of emotions around my back. My heart and body were as cold as ice.
I lost half of my life loving somebody who never saw me. l shackled myself into this fate, and I don't know how to break the chains.
My heart was bleeding for the love l felt.
I slowed down when I felt nauseated and weak. I suddenly felt lightheaded, my vision was blurry, and everything went black.
From the moment I walked through the door, I realized that Arnold had been staring at me. What was he thinking? Was he shocked by my return? But I don't want to be speculating about what's going on in his mind anymore.I walked toward him with feigned composure and said, ”I'm sorry for your loss."I need to get out of here as soon as possible. It had really taken a lot for me to get out of that dark hole, and being back here was going to send me back down that path."I'm sorry for your loss as well." He stood up and embraced me.His good smell made me feel dizzy, and his embrace made my heart race. But I knew I shouldn't think anything of him because he was my twin sister's mate.I pulled away from the hug and smiled at him awkwardly."Can you please take Luna's sister to her parents' house? " He asked Mary, and she nodded.Just like that, this place started to take my identity, yet again, he called me the luna's sister. He didn't even have the decency to address me by my name. All I
"No." l said."That can't be." l was in denial, but l saw it in Alpha Luca's eyes that he wasn't joking."She will be buried later tonight, and I think you should go pack. I'll prepare a car to take you there." He said, and I knew at that point that he wasn't joking.l tried to think about all the good memories that I shared with my sister Sideline. They weren't much, and they were mostly initiated by me. The only memories that I remembered perfectly well were the bad ones. Her selfishness and hate for me. She went above and beyond to get me in trouble with our parents, and she always succeeded.My mind and my thoughts were all over the place when I left Alpha Luca's office and went to my room."Oh my god, I just heard, and I'm so so sorry." Dr Jamie said, hugging me as l packed.I didn't even hear him come in, but his hug was exactly what l needed. He was like a second father to me. The father who Loved Me through everything, and he wasn't even my biological father."Why can't I feel
5 years laterl felt his presence. He was watching me. It didn't bother me back then because it felt like an extra layer of protection, but now it was suffocating me.Jonah was the first person I met when I came to Blue Moon Pack. When I stumbled into this pack, hungry, alone, and heartbroken, Jonah was the one who found me. It was a miracle that he decided to check out the nearby grounds to his pack, or else I would have probably died of exhaustion.He was really kind, and he gave me more than I expected. He was supposed to kill me at first sight because packs don't kindly take to visitors who come unannounced, but somehow, he knew I wasn't a rogue."Hey you." l plasted a fake smile turning around to face him."I know you don't like being bothered when you're working, but I hope we can get some lunch." He said looking at me gently. I was avoiding being anywhere near him these days because I know what he'll ask, and I don't think that's what I want."I'm still a little busy, but maybe
I sat alone on the floor for a long time. The sound of Sideline and our parents outside the door talking about choosing which prettier dress to wear for the party makes me break down again. I couldn't stand my family, especially today of all days.I'm going to the shed just to gather my wits because it has really been a long day. couldn't stop the tears. I was mourning and unwanted love. I was mourning a one-sided love, and it was killing me.I just felt unloved and unwanted by everybody, and I'm tired of begging for people to love me.Some people say that if you love somebody, then their happiness should matter the most to you, but why should his happiness be with my sister and not me? Sienna hasn't done anything for him, she doesn't even think he's the most special one. Because she's working on making herself the dream goddess of all the boys in the pack.As I was heading to the shed, I met Drew. Drew and I spent most of the time in the woods, so we built our little shed. It grew to
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