Masuk********** Tessa **********I had managed to stay composed all through the time of the wedding, and once it was done, I knew that I was about to go through one of the worst phases of my life.I had managed to calm myself down, and immediately the ceremony ended, I didn’t see him again, and I used that time to slip away from the crowd.I know that I would say this, and it was so hard having to accept it, but right now, I think that I haven't breathed a breath of fresh air.I walked straight to Isabella’s room and shut the door right behind me.“Fuck, fuck, fuck,” I cursed loudly at myself as I paced around the room, the sudden tension eating me up. What was I doing?I didn’t love him anymore. I knew that. I didn’t want a damn thing to do with him. I hated him for the way he treated me, but why can’t I just hate him?Seeing him back there was worse torture than life itself.My phone vibrated from my purse, and when I looked at it, it was Nicolas.I forced out a smile as I picked up the
Isabella wore the most beautiful and the most stunning wedding gown that I had ever seen in my life.The strides were made of gold slimy materials, and the shining lights at each end were enough to make me shed tears.Her hair was well packed, her makeup made to perfection. She was the perfect bride that anyone could imagine, but yet when I stood behind her, the words failed, my eyes blinked, and the tears were threatening to fall.The room was empty since her bridesmaids were in the other room.The wedding was about to start in about 30 minutes, and we were waiting for the people to arrive.She didn’t look anxious. She looked confident in her decision of marrying him, and I could tell that she really loved him.Isabel turned to me and then smiled before running her hands over my cheek. “You just have to say the word if you actually do not have to go through that hurting experience.”I almost laughed at the moment, but I didn’t.“I knew what I was doing when I showed up here. I knew t
Isabella’s bachelorette party was even way better than I had imagined it would be in my head.She knew how to throw a fucking party, and she did a fucking nice job.My best friend sat in the middle, smiling as the girls danced.The party was going calmly and I loved how she didn’t force me to do anything. That wasn’t my thing anymore.Isabella wanted us to have a club night, but Zead kicked against it, and even after she threw tantrums he didn’t agree, and she just had to cut it out.The private suite that we were in had the most beautiful view, and Isabella said it was one of Zead’s properties.The dancing and the screaming ended, and now it was time for a speech.When it turned to me, I stood up from the couch as I walked to the front of everyone.“I know almost all of you have so many good things to say about Isabella tonight, and I just want to start by saying that all you’ve said has been nothing but the truth.”“I can’t begin to say how much I love this girl sitting right he
Isabel was getting married, I agreed to be her chief bridesmaid, and somehow I was taking a flight back to the same country that I ran away from years ago.The United States is my home, my life, and the one place I would never trade for anyone, but somehow I had spent one of the most interesting parts of my life away from home because I didn’t know what I was doing.Isabella didn’t want me coming if that was going to make me run into Killian.I didn’t care about that anymore. Killian was my past already, and even though I kept his babies, I had nothing to do with him, and neither did I still have feelings for him.I wanted her to understand that, and when she offered to find somebody to get the job done, I disagreed.Isabella had been my biggest rock, my foundation, and the one person I would love more than myself.She had supported me in ways that I wouldn’t have imagined, and now it was time for me to do the same thing for her.She told me she didn’t know if Killian was going to at
******Tessa******Gerald looked like a kid who had just lost the most important thing in his life, but I wasn’t having it.I stood in the same room, same spot, staring out of the window as the laughter of the family filled my ears.He hadn’t left my side, not even for a moment, and I didn’t know what he wanted from me now.I tried not to think too much about it, but how could I? I was definitely beginning to question my choices in men.The football, the pictures of his football idols on the wall, told me all I needed to know about his childhood.Gerald was a huge fan, and his room reflected everything that I begged to know about him.He had been out for about an hour now, and even though he wanted me to be here, I knew I didn’t want to be here. I knew what I was about to get, and I hated that I had to go through this. It was more like going through the interrogation of meeting Killian’s second mother all over again, and I hated it.When the door opened again, Gerald was standing there
**Tessa**I didn’t know if it was good fortune or whatever shit was going on with me in that moment, but this time when Gerald asked me out, he didn’t do it in a normal relationship way. I swear he wanted me to have a ring and at the same time be his girlfriend, and this time I said yes.I know I was finding it so hard to accept, but it wasn’t my fault that I felt what I felt for the man.I knew that he loved me more than words could express, and I loved him too. I didn’t plan on letting him go anytime soon.Isabella was the most happy when I broke the news to her after she had gone back to Zade, and even though she felt like it was too fast, she was still happy for me.I had told Gerald that I wasn’t going to talk about marriage now, but I was going to be his girlfriend, and once again he didn’t push it.Isabella’s wedding was coming up, and I was the most excited for it, but yet I still couldn’t bring myself to accept the invitation.Somehow, I didn’t know why I still felt reluctant
**********Tessa*******Another week alone making what my new life had thrown to me or the new terror I now face.Since I turned my back on my mother had been pure torture on its own.Firstly my mom turned down the payment for my apartment and since I hadn’t lived to three months they were able to
The world of the mafia *****killian ******Rico was seated in the midst of the table when we arrived.From the tight securities to the flashy cars and back to the people sitting down there was the least thing my eyes caught.My eyes met the man sitting at the tight side of the table. His potbe
*******Killian***** I don’t know exactly what’s wrong with me and I don’t know how long I was going to keep up with all this.Zade stood by the window, he had this look on his face and with Luca behind him glaring out, I knew exactly what was going on.The walks have ears, they say and now
*******Tessa*******My mom stood right in front of me, the rage and anger in her eyes was different from every other one that I have seen before, I could tell how mad she was.The silence in the room was totally caused by my atrocities and for the first time I wished I had never let my feelings g







