A SMALL CRACK
MARK
I got tired of my mom pressuring me for grand children. After she found out that Lillian couldn't have a child, she let her be. I thought it was peace at last but she started disturbing me to get a wife or divorce my wife. I couldn't bring myself to tell my wife about what my mom said,I mean,it wasn't her fault. Then Kemi came into the picture,she was the perfect bride for me according to my mom. If marrying Kemi would make my Mom stop bothering me and my wife, I decided to agree. But Lillian is a tough nut to crack,I know she wouldn't just allow me marry a woman because I wanted to end my mom's war so I played "falling for Kemi" but if only she knew that I didn't fight for our love for so long just to divert my heart to another woman later. * &nbsHARMLESS THOUGHTS(LILLIAN:SECRET JOURNAL)WE ARE ALL FLOWERS WAITING TO BLOOM Looking at myself in the mirror, I look prettier with my chubby face,it's nice how my face became round and fat,I get a lot of compliments of how beautiful I've become. I was too afraid of losing this baby, I felt becoming pregnant and losing the pregnancy will harm my mental health but no,this baby is harmless. I have a little garden at the back of my compound, it's boring staying at home all day,so I nurture my flowers everyday with sweet talks,they are as pretty as the beautiful soul that lives in me. Mirabel records my moment with the flowers, now you may be thinking who she is right? She's my house help,she has her own family so leaves at nights,she understands my mood swings,cravings and nagging since she has been through pregnancy too. Jay's works are consoling these day
Chasing smokesLillian I've been having dreams,you know those dreams you wake up from and feel relief that it was dream. I wouldn't like to share such dreams with Mark,perhaps I don't really care about dreams but this one left me shaking, more like trembling,I'm unable to control my hands,they keep shaking,I'm still feeling startled. But the dream wasn't scary,it wasn't some beast with three heads pursuing me with a knife. It was me,running in the dark, chasing smokes,trying to see where it leads me,my bloody naked skin didn't bother me,I was running after the smoke in confusion, I could hear mark calling me but I didn't turn,I was focused, running. Jemima, my Darling would snap her finger and say "it's a bad dream" if I should tell her but I won't,I don't Want her calling everytime being worried sick about me. I don't think my husband puts his beliefs in dream, I think I know his reply
UNSETTLING DREAMS Mark wakes up,the room is dark,he feels unsettled with the atmosphere around, he hears the wailing of a child,he looks around searching for Lillian. "Sweets,Sweets" he calls but there's no response, the only sound he can hear is the sound of a crying baby. He rushes down to the sitting room,the child is naked on the sofa,crying. He looked at the child confused, "what's a child doing in our house?",he asks. It feels like he's going insane, a scenerio he couldn't understand but his emotions were mixed,happiness and sadness. He looks at the kitchen, he can see a figure standing there,vague. There's a baby in his house,he can't find his wife or Jay. The more he moves closer to the kitchen, the slower his steps begin,his curiosity about the figure in the kitchen becomes frightening, why is he afraid? He ge
A LITTLE MORE FAITHLILLIAN Jemima called,she has been calling everyday since I saw the envelope, she never fails to call,just like my husband and mom,they all think I've lost it, but,they just can't see why I'm unhappy when I'm expecting a baby, but that is not the point, I am not unhappy, I am just afraid of trusting too much and still loosing it. I've never heard Mark speak so much about faith than this period of our life Mark does all the house chores and cooking, he doesn't allow me to lift a finger,we are being so careful, especially Mark,I don't think I can face him if I lose this baby,if after all these, it doesn't stay, I'll feel so much pity towards him. I'll tell him we need a maid when he returns. "Welcome sweets" I walked to him to take his briefcase, but he doesn't want me to. My baby bump isn't even noticeable yet. I frown a little to
IT'S NOT A GOODBYELillian. I keep thinking that my baby will die but I desperately want to keep it. I called my mom,I told her about my pregnancy, she said "it will stay" . why isn't any body telling me that it might die,they keep giving me positive vibes increasing my wanting for this baby that might die. I told Mark not to tell his mom about my pregnancy for now,he agreed even though I know he will tell her later. It hasn't been long I came to this school as a woman searching for a new life but here I am today, about to tell the principal about my resignation. To think I will tell my students who once had difficult times with me and finally now that we are in good sync, I'm leaving. I sat down in front of the principal,explaining to him why I wanted to resign. He gave his ears as I said mumbling words,words that I didn't want to tell him. He looked and spoke as i
A SMALL CRACKMARK I got tired of my mom pressuring me for grand children. After she found out that Lillian couldn't have a child, she let her be. I thought it was peace at last but she started disturbing me to get a wife or divorce my wife. I couldn't bring myself to tell my wife about what my mom said,I mean,it wasn't her fault. Then Kemi came into the picture,she was the perfect bride for me according to my mom. If marrying Kemi would make my Mom stop bothering me and my wife, I decided to agree. But Lillian is a tough nut to crack,I know she wouldn't just allow me marry a woman because I wanted to end my mom's war so I played "falling for Kemi" but if only she knew that I didn't fight for our love for so long just to divert my heart to another woman later. * &nbs