Thank you so much for joining me on this journey back into Night of the Rogues! Reading the first book is absolutely not necessary but it does introduce you to Howen, Reu and Elvie - apart from that, it's all new! As always thank you so much for all your support, comments, gems and reviews - they mean everything xx
Not a huge suprise but it didn't take long to confirm being underground is fucking boring. Alpha Reu storms up and down, relentlessly checking every pipe and valve for something to do. Luna Elvie has taken to her room, studying furiously as to why the light turned against Mireille. There is nothing I can do to help. I’m an inconvenient guest. Plus, I don’t care how many tricks they’ve managed to stuff into these long corridors. Little libraries, music rooms, meditation chambers. It’s all just disguising the fact that we’re prisoners. Add onto that a layer of worry that I’m going to wake up with Howen’s hand around my throat and I’m far from happy. Howen is a worry because I saw the look in Hope’s eyes at the meeting. The exact same as mine. Six months of enduring a magnetic pull. Something crackles everyone we spar and I’ve got to keep a lid on it. Whether I like it or not, when I had my hands on her wrists, her chest arching up to meet mine, there was a spike of desire between u
I’m so pleased I bit the bullet and asked him. These past two weeks I’ve actually laughed and joked. The paranoia about the place caving in on me has lifted too.Tonight is the first full moon since we locked down the bunker. Later, we will dope ourselves up on Monks Pepper and drown out our wolves' desperate urges. Apparently underground it’s almost savage how much your body craves sexual contact. As in whimpering, begging, whining, anyone-do-anything-to-me desire. So, considering Cal still makes my stomach flip every time his dark eyes meet mine, I intend to drink at least a pint of the stuff. Maybe two.There is a routine established now. Vera and Ervin have stepped into the Beta roles. Arlen is now Sol’s full-time carer. So the slightly smug blonde pair are keeping things running day to day. Between the other devotees, the kitchens are run, the rooms are cleaned, and the boiler is maintained. They meditate, eat, and socialise together. Calix and I are the annoying children left
After Quinn got the boiler working Raze came to visit me. Leaning his long, languid body against the bars of the cage he shook his head in amusement. Arms folded, muscles fighting against his black shirt. “Now…I know Quinn didn’t magically become an engineer.” “Quinn?” I reply, playing dumb. “If you want to play games, I’ll leave right now-” “No! Please don’t. I helped Quinn, I wrote down the instructions but she had to do everything!” He stared at me flatly, his green eyes clearly finding me completely stupid. With the heating on he had shed his furs and I could see his shape more clearly. Slender but seriously strong, he wore dark black pants and a long shirt. The edges of tattoos peeked out from around the neck. I imagine he is covered in them. “No Mireille. Quinn just got one of the men to do it and pretended she’d worked it out.” “Oh.” Maybe I am stupid. “So what now?” “I want to know what your intentions are, while you’re here.” His voice remains flat, cautiously watch
The day of the full moon Raze leafed through the fresh stacks of paper, standing at the threshold of my door. Watching him read every word left me shaking. I should be used to the pre-moon jitters, but I'm so edgy I feel I could really slip up here. No tea, no calming, just a steady, tingling build-up of dirty thoughts and throbbing erogenous zones that I didn’t even know I had. If someone touches behind my ear, I might moan.Alpha Raze left me alone in my room for the most part, with just Brody checking in on me. Every so often, I caught the smell of rosemary. My guard is still watching over me, even if it’s in the shadows. “You have gone into an awful lot of detail here, Mireille,” he finally answered, his voice low, more of a growl. Certainly not pleased. “Not just about creating this full moon space but in general. Almost as if you’re telling me how to do my job.”My stomach sank. Dressed in the same long-sleeved black pullover and pants, I watched his long hands leafing through
The day after the full moon, my mood was foul. How could my wolf let me down so badly? I should have control over my beast. Instead, I almost gave in. I took it to the very limits of my resistance. I think of myself as having the control of an Alpha, except I almost shredded it all for a chance to kiss her.Even worse, I almost went and found Vera, knowing she would have been more than willing to take advantage of my pathetically aroused state. Reduced to an awkward waddle I went to find the fucking tea, thanks to my cock trying to launch itself out of my sweats. Then I knocked a load of washed up teapots over in the kitchens making a complete fool of myself. It couldn’t have gone much worse, the clattering sound ripping through the silent night.A torch shone at my eyes in seconds, Alpha Reu glaring at me as I fumbled in the dark.“It won’t work now. You’re too late,” he said drily. “Fuck off,” I growled, “I’m fine.”“I warned you about how you speak to me. I’m the Alpha of this b
I hadn’t lied. I am pissed off that he ditched me, but saying it was because I missed our friendship wasn’t the entire truth.My father is attending so much meditation that he is forgetting to eat. His blue eyes, always so vivid and bright, are dwindling, like a dying star. I miss his personality. His muteness never stopped him from filling a room with his character before.Staring at the portrait of my mother, I know I’m trying to capture something I’ll never have again. So I don’t blame my father for hiding down here. We can both pretend until spring, when we return to our empty house. Where we will be stabbed in the heart all over again.I haven’t added much to the portrait. Each day, I spend hours staring at it, listening for footsteps that never come. Ryan sometimes floats into my mind. I try to keep him there. Remember how it felt to nuzzle against his blonde scruffy beard and gaze into his gentle brown eyes. Fill my thoughts, my heart with our fragile, barely sealed bond. Why
I don’t know what I expected the night after a Full Moon frenzy. I only just managed to drag myself into my room for a sleep, cursing at remembering I had no mattress. In the darkness, I didn’t even turn on the lamp, just grabbed a pillow and lay on a fur pelt. I stretch out like a cat, my aching muscles confirming it was not a crazed dream. Too tired to blush, I wonder how badly scratched up the stranger must be.I’d lost my virginity, but more than that, I’ve unlocked something deep inside me. I was the property of that man tonight. Nobody else could have me. Nobody could go near me, and I loved it. When he swiped that person away and slammed his mouth over my breast to erase their brief touch, I shuddered. His roar was a warning for everyone else.Just as I drifted off, a horrifying scream rose up. “HELP! QUICK! COME NOW!”There isn’t a tannoy in this bunker. A huge air horn went off instead. “What the hell is this,” I mumbled groggily, pulling on the fur, completely naked under
Somehow I’ve gone from laughing at Brody and Sven messing with broomsticks and buckets to the Alpha’s bedroom. Not just his bedroom but stood against the supporting bar of his bunk bed with his hand halfway up my shorts.I can’t think straight. The full moon isn’t until tomorrow, but my wolf wants me to do a thousand things at once. They want me to spread my legs, kiss him, yank my shorts down, and pull his sweats down. Run. My brain is a car crash filled with sweet birch.“I had sex, okay, no different to anyone else,” blushing so hard it hurts. Raze leaned in ever closer, his lips skirting my ear. In a serious voice, probably the one he uses before cutting fingers off. “I want details. How many men? Where did they touch you? Did you like it? Was it your first time?”“How did you…that’s not your business!” I blush even harder at the mention of my virginity, but then his fingers inched upwards, just inside the hem of my shorts, dangerously close to finding my soaked panties, and I shu