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Chapter 5

Thalia's pov 

“Get out,” I said, my voice sharp as a dagger, “did you not hear me just now? I said, "Get out!” 

He stood up still not meeting my eyes as his gaze remained on the floor, “I'll come and see you later,” he said. 

Instead of; “I'm sorry for jeopardizing your future,” or “I should have told you earlier,” 

Nothing. 

He wasn't even planning to explain himself, I should have known. 

Varian was the type to shut down at every argument where he was clearly at fault, if he wasn't framing himself as a victim then he wasn't even engaging at all. 

“Don't ever show your face in front of me again, you're a despicable Varian. And guess what? I'm still going to Crescent University,” 

He slowly raised his eyes, not exactly looking at me but not completely planted on the floor either. 

“Are you going to kill our baby?” 

His words came like a stab to my heart. 

“Just get out! This isn't your body! This isn't your life at risk! Don't stand there and say ‘our’ when I'm the only one at risk!” 

His eyes fell again, this time he didn't say anything and just left.

When he was gone I was ready to tear out every single piece of hair from my head, tears welled in my eyes. I'm sure that the test for my pregnancy will soon be out and my mom came to me. 

Her eyes were also filled with tears too.

“Mom, I still want to go to Crescent University I–” My voice broke off as I burst into tears, she held me until the tears subsided. 

When I came back home after 2 days at the hospital, it was an unexpected and unpleasant interversion.

Eugene and Alana Bloodmoon were in my living room, their son Varian was also there. 

Something twisted inside of me when I saw how disheveled he looked, his skin was pasty, eyes rimmed red and he even looked like he'd lost weight. When I saw how miserable he looked I wanted that if I had gone too far. 

But I quickly steeled myself.

“Good morning, Alpha Eugene and Luna Alana,” I greeted them and completely ignored Varian. I saw a flash of heart pass his eyes but he said nothing.

Hmpf he seems to be good at that.

“Thalia we are not here today as the Alpha and Luna of blood moon pack, but as the grandparents of your first child,” 

A lump formed in my throat.

My mom guided me to a seat as alpha Eugene continued to hit the nail on how reckless I had been. 

“Thalia, this baby is more than you, it signifies the future of the pack. It is a firstborn that holds both the alpha and beta blood of bloodmoon. Do you know that?” 

I nodded.

I knew that but I had not allowed myself to think of the gravity of my actions, I knew that if I paused for a second too long and ruminated on it I would end up backing away from what had to be done.

“Thalia we are like your uncle and Aunt we're not here to blame you, we understand why you did what you did. But we think we have come to a better compromise…have the pup,” 

My heart shifted in my chest and I looked at my mom, she cleared her throat and spoke.

“What about her education? She still wants to become a healer.” 

The couple looked between themselves and then back to me. 

“The pup doesn't have to stop that, have it. We will sponsor your education at any University and take care of the child here in the bloodmoon, that's fair enough right?” 

Varian was just sitting like a piece of ornamental vase when he finally spoke up.

“Thalia please don't say no to this, I promise you that I'll be the best father possible to this child,” 

The weight of everyone's eyes on me was intense, but eventually I came to a decision nodding in agreement to the new plot of my life. 

Varian and I became official mates, at least it was necessary for the time of the pregnancy before it was done so that the child would be recognized as legitimate. I decided that when I went to uni we would try the long distance thing. 

But we never had to.

Because I never got to step foot in Crescent University.

My pregnancy was difficult, each day a fresh batch of torture. Luna Alana told me that it was normal for Alpha pregnancies to be like that, Varian tried to keep to his word but because his father was passing over the responsibilities of Alpha to him and in the upcoming months also the title he was not able to be there as often as he wished. 

So it was mostly my mother and Shelly I saw supporting me during those months, but whenever Varian had time he came with me for my post natal and such.

In a few months I found out I was having twins, a boy and a girl. Varian nearly went mad with joy while I was anxious at how motherhood would look like for me.

Finally the day came when my water broke, I called the Varian several times but all my calls went straight to voicemail. By the time he finally checked on his phone and rushed over to get me I was already 5 cm dilated. There was no other choice. The midwife had to be called over to my house and 12 hours of screams, tears and sweat broke with the cry of too beautiful babies. 

They looked so precious.

The first time I held both of them I knew my dreams of becoming a healer would remain just that.

I couldn't leave my babies without a mother, I knew just how damaging it was to grow up without a parental figure and I never wanted them to experience that trauma.

I thought this would be the beginning of something beautiful, a family I had not expected but now planned to cherish. 

That was until five years later, when I was looking through Varian's phone to find pictures of our babies when a text popped up that made my whole world collapse at its foundation.

“Varian, it's been eight years, if you won't tell her about us, then I will.”