XANDRY
I was wholly unprepared for the sharp stab of the pain at the left side of my chest. I hadn’t seen and talked to her for over two weeks and it opened up the fresh waves of longing and searing pain when she broke up with me. Over. The. Fucking. Phone.
I lost her.
Let’s end this. These three words repeatedly electrocuted my brain. I took another sip of the scotch Forrest filled me. I ignored his cold and stoic looked and gestured him to pour me another shot, and he didn’t hesitate. And that confirmed my suspicion that this guy hated my guts. For whatever reason, I didn’t have any idea.
“Hmm, if it’s not my dear cousin,” Pyke sang, took a seat beside me, and Forrest quickly placed down a cold beer for him.
“I’m not in a mood for chit-chat, Pyke. I came here as a customer and not a cousin, so, fuck off.” I gulped the last shot of the scotch, willingly took in the burn into my throat, hoping to numb my b
BLAINEOh, my God!He is here.He came.He stood there like a fallen angel. His eyes landed on the sign posted on the glass door.How did he find out I lied?He had a scruffy and looked rugged. I meant, he was still handsome though, with disheveled hair, dark circles under his eyes. His crumpled clothes like he had been sleeping on it for days, but I still wanted to jump on him right now.Get a grip, Blaine.My heart leaped in my chest and my skin instantly tingled in anticipation of his kiss, his touch, and him inside me. Crap!Holy crap!The door swung open and chimed. He walked inside, then stopped and roamed his bluer eyes around like searching for something. Or maybe for someone.I froze in my place, knees weakened to his presence. My hand gripped the counter for support as his eyes landed on Ethan. A large hand grip on my waist made me more stiff
XANDRYLast night, Saph and Sunshine confirmed Blaine went to my apartment to see me. Undoubtedly, she knew everything about me and Sunshine was having a baby.I spent several minutes back in my office bemoaning of her lost, it only told me one thing, she didn’t want me, but Saph made me not to give up. Until I saw what was in her eyes today. The way Blaine looked at me, I knew she cared —her eyes filled with surprise and longing, then suddenly replaced with sadness.The motherfucker Ethan Hall caught me off guard when his hand gripping Blaine’s waist. I knew he did it on purpose. Just the thought of what he did to Blaine during her pregnancy, all I cared about was to punch and end him. I completely lost control and there was no way I let him take Blaine away from me.She. Is. Mine.How did I miss the sign? The way he looked at me back at the Night Stalker, of what he said? Did they really— I pushed the thought out
XANDRYCursing under my breath, I saw how the time slowly moving by on the wall clock. These past nine weeks of my life I’d been to heaven and hell. Hell as I drowned myself with work when Blaine had friend-zoned me. The pain seared through my heart was hard to ignore. And heaven— we still talked, but I was a greedy asshole. It wasn’t enough. And I still missed her terribly.Thankfully, Sunshine and the baby were healthy. Last week, she asked me to watch an erotic movie with her. It wasn’t new to me, but the hardest part was watching the egotistic jerk male lead fucking a woman by his own terms. It made me think of being balls deep with Blaine and my aching attention-seeker of a cock hardened like a rock before the scene got to the best part. My body was buzzing with the desire to taste Blaine, to be between her legs, and to be buried deep in her sweetness. The heat of lust spiked through
BLAINEDisappointment swamped over me like a strong wave. Xandry held my call and chose to answer Sunshine. I hated the feeling of being affected when it was my idea to be just his friend. It was harder than I thought. Jealousy slapped me like a bitch.We talked over the phone almost every night and he never forgot to tell me how he missed me. It was like a broken record, but it made my belly flutter despite our friend-zoned status. He reminded me of his relationship with Sunshine, but I couldn’t help to think of the possibility that he was going to choose her when the baby came. It scared me to death. My feelings were stronger each day, and I already prepared myself for losing him—of breaking my heart again because I knew how much I loved Xandry.“What’s with the stony expression?” Olive pulled me back to reality.“More like she just swallowed a bitter pill,” Charlie countered, “I thought you talked to Xandry earlier.”
XANDRYHave you seen your life before your eyes? It’s a phenomenon even scientists believed that your life history flashed before your eyes in your near-death experienced, but I was not dying. Far from it, as far as I knew. The moment I saw my baby inside the transport incubator, everything flashed back like a black and white movie.My legs weakened as I reluctantly walked toward the glass window of the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit. It was overwhelming, yet terrifying. Overwhelming that I was a dad. I couldn’t wait to touch her, to cuddle her, hear her first cry, change her diaper, feed her, watch over her all night till she fell asleep. A lot of things came into my mind—protective instinct was one of them, scaring boys away, purchasing shotgun—scratched that—hiring a bodyguard was less brutish.Hell, it’s terrifying.I raked my trembling fingers through my hair, then rubbed my palms to my face—my wet face. Xandr
BLAINEAnxiety shuddered through my nerves as I watched Xandry sprinting toward our direction with the most gorgeous and glorious smile I’d ever seen. He was wearing a crumpled white shirt, sleeves rolled up his elbows, and dark grey pants. His disheveled hair was longer than the last time I saw him. He had dark circles under his eyes and days worth of scruff.Ben was already jumping with excitement beside me. “Mommy, it’s Sandry! Mommy, look he’s coming!” It didn’t end there. He slipped his hand off my grip and ran toward Xandry.“Ben!” With trembling fingers, I covered my mouth, my eyes bulged as I watched Xandry lifted up him into a hug. My son wrapped his arms around Xandry’s neck and legs around his waist.Oh. My. God.“Ben, you seem not too excited to see me, huh, buddy?” Xandry tickled Ben as soon as he put down to his feet.Ben giggled, blocking Xandry’s hand with his tiny one. “Mommy said, I won’t se
XANDRYMy gut was tied into a thousand knots. The kind that it took days to settle. I could feel the hesitation in her action, see the confusion and worry in those eyes, but above all, there was hope in that embrace. I could feel the pulsating of her vein, the quickening of her heartbeat— only for me.I left her though my heart told me not to. At least her heart didn’t lie—and that was what I was holding onto.I had plans for tomorrow, so I slept like dead the moment I rested my head down against my pillow.The constant ringing of my phone woke me up from a deep slumber— it was a call from the hospital, telling me that Sunshine had wakened up.“Hey, how do you feel?” I smiled down at Sunshine still on her bed. She looked better—a light pink color tinged on her face, though her body was still weak, she was able to seat on the bed without support.They transferred her to the private room I paid for h
BLAINEWe almost kissed if Ben didn’t save me from a serious humiliation. I couldn’t blame myself for being drawn to him because I knew how it felt like to be kissed by Xandry. On the other hand, I wanted to hit myself in the head for thinking of kissing in front of my child. My heart shrank as I pressed my lips tight, ducking my chin against my knees as I continued berating myself in my mind.And friends don’t kiss, do they?A soft knock got me back from frowning. I composed myself. “Come in, B.”Bianca emerged from the door and let herself in. She looked like hiding her life-size Peppa pig plush doll under her silky light pink nighties. She locked the door softly behind her. Ben was already sleeping in the other room.“Why are you still up, hot mamma?” I eyed her quizzically as she sat on my bed like we used to do back in our home when we talked about boys.“Kyland has a night out with Pyke and Lev