PROLOGUE
Nakangiti ako habang tinitingnan ang sarili sa harap ng salamin nang biglang tumunog ang aking cellphone na nasa vanity table lamang.
Kaagad ko itong kinuha at sinagot.
"Susunduin ba kita diyan?" I heard the familiar voice of my manager from the other line.
I smiled then shook my head. "No. I'm on my way, Clar. Hintayin mo nalang ako sa loob. Sa table."
Kaagad kong binaba ko ang aking cellphone bago ito ipinasok sa aking clutch. Tiningnan ko ulit ang aking sarili sa salamin at napangiti nang makita ang suot na damit. I am wearing a red satin mini dress with a deep backless on it. Kitang-kita ang likod ko nito kaya hindi ko maiwasang mag-alala. Medyo malamig ang simoy sa labas lalo na at gabi ngayon at kung hindi ako magdadala ng kahit anong panangga ay baka hindi lang lamig ang makuha ko kung hindi sakit na rin. At ayaw ko namang mangyari iyon lalo pa at may paparating akong shoot at runway sa susunod na araw. Anyway, magdadala nalang siguro ako ng jacket at ilalagay ko na lamang sa loob ng sasakyan para makuha ko mamaya.
When everything was finally settled ay kaagad na akong bumiyahe patungo sa bar na tinatawag na Catastrophe. It's a very well known bar in the town. Dinadayo ito ng mga mayayamang personalidad kaya naman tinatawag rin itong bar for elite people. Hindi na ako magtataka doon lalo na at mayaman talaga ang may-ari at gwapo pa.
Ilang minuto lang a ibiniyahe ko patungo sa bar at kaagad akong nakarating doon. The club was named that way. Catastrophe. Kung tutuusin ay dapat na matakot ang mga tao rito lalo na sa pangalan ng bar. Parang nagbibigay kasi ng babala na sa ano mang oras ay may mangyayaring sakuna sa loob.
It was a bit weird, but the club was only for elites, at walang takot ang mga taong 'yon sa kung ano mangyayari, and besides, wala rin namang nababalitang kung ano tungkol sa bar na ito e.
I immediately parked my car on the car park before going out. Inayos ko rin ang pagkakahawak ko sa aking clutch before strutting my way inside. Some people were outside, smoking, flirting, some were even making out which I just shrugged off. Sanay naman na akong makakita ng mga ganoong bagay lalo na at nasa industriya ako kung saan kailangang open-minded ka sa lahat ng bagay.
The club was packed with so many people. Nasa bungad pa nga lamang ay ramdam ko na ang dami. It was probably because it's Friday and most of the people are here to chill out after an exhausting week with just working.
Kahit gaano ko pa kagustong dumiretso sa aming table ay hindi ko na iyon nagawa lalo pa at maraming mga tao na kilala rin sa industriya ang nakakita sa akin sa loob. The lights were dim. Papalit-palit ang ilaw sa paligid pero hindi iyon naging dahilan para hindi ako makilala ng mga tao sa paligid.
Pahinto-hinto pa ako sa tuwing may bumabati sa akin. Some were even offering me a drink, and I'm too good to say no. Hindi ko iyon tatanggihan, lalo na at kailangan ko rin talga ng alcohol sa katawan ngayon. I was too exhausted with the recent shoots and this is my own way of chilling. Iyong tipong walang ibang iniisip kundi ang uminom lang.
"Excuse me, I have to go to my friends' table. They're just over there." I said. The guy, whom I know is a model too like me, pouted. Para bang nanghihinayang ito sa kaonting oras na namagitan sa aming dalawa.
"Aww, I thought we're going to have fun tonight." He smirked as he eyed me up and down. Asshole. Hindi na ako magtataka pa. Our industry is packed with boastful and prideful men around too.
I smiled. "Next time then." I replied shortly, pero hindi ko naman talaga 'yon totohanin. I just said it to end our conversation.
He seems excited with what I said though. I know he's already expecting. Nang tumalikod na ako matapos makapag-paalam ay agad akong napairap.
Flirt. Flirt. Flirt. I hope I won't be meeting him around again, even though I know it's quite impossible. As what I've said, maliit lang ang industriyang ginagalawan namin, kaya sa ayaw ko at hindi, alam kong magkikita rin kami.
"Oh, Amberleigh! Where have you been? Natagalan ka." Agad akong sinalubong ni Franz. She have been a very good friend of mine ever since we were still starting our career back then. Siya lang din talaga ang nag-iisang ka-close ko sa industriya. Paano ba naman iyong iba, they see me as a competitor. Kaya nga wala akomg masyadong kaibigan. And I hate making friends with girls who'll only use me. Ayaw ko sa mga plastic. Definitely a no no.
I smiled before kissing her cheeks. "Napapahinto kasi ako sa tuwing may bumabati."
She chuckled. "Oh! I bet you drink some too. Your mouth already smells like Tequila already." I laughed at her statement.
I was greeted by some of Franz's friends who are in the same table too. May mga co-models at mga artista sa table namin kaya hindi talaga ako na-bored. Nandoon rin naman si Clar, my manager. We chatted and drink. And after an hour, Franz started to drag me towards the dance floor. I just laughed as I let her drag me to wherever she wants.
I'm a bit drunk and my head's starting to spin already, but it wasn't enough reason for me to stop from dancing wildly.
Wala naman akong pakialam kung sino ang makakakita, dahil lahat ng ginagawa ng mga tao sa loob ng Catastrophe ay hindi dapat dalhin sa labas. Kumbaga, kung ano man ang masaksihan mo sa loob, dapat tikom kang ang bibig mo hanggang sa makalabas ng establisyimento.
The loud music illuminated the whole bar. The people became more hyped when Gasolina started playing.
Franz shouted. This is probably everyone's most favorite party song.
The club lights rotate like hell that made me even more dizzy. I started to bump on people and that's when I decided to leave the dancefloor.
Fuck. I think I need a break.
I tried to find Franz so I can bring her with me, but with the hyped up crowd right now, I know it was impossible for me to find her.
Pinilit ko nalang ang sariling makawala sa dagat ng mga tao. Some were even trying to talk to me, but I immediately dismissed them. I badly needs a rest right now and a little chat won't be a big help.
Konti nalang sana at makakawala ako nang bigla nalang may tumulak sa akin mula sa likod. The crowd shouted, kasabay no'n ay ang pagsaboy ng tubig mula sa itaas.
My eyes widened. What?! Hindi ako na-inform na may paganito na pala?!
"Oh My God!" I shouted when I was about to fall. Hindi ko na mabalanse ng tama ang sarili ko dahil sa hilo, sabayan pa ng madulas na sahig kaya paniguradong babagsak ako!
Fuck! Sino ba kasi ang nagpauso ng pa-shower sa loob ng bar ng 'to?!
I was expecting na mahuhulog talaga ako sa sahig, pero hindi ko inaasahan ang pag-pulupot ng isang matigas at maugat na kamay sa aking baywang.
"Got you." Nabalik ako sa aking katinuan nang maramdaman ko kung gaano kami kalapit ng lalaki ngayon sa isa't isa.
I groaned when I suddenly felt tingles in my body.
"T—Thank you," I manage to say despite of my stuttering voice. Tumayo ako ng maayos, but the man's hand never left my waist. In fact, he tightened his hold there. Ngayon ay dalawang kamay na niya ang nakahawak at naka-pulupot sa aking baywang na para bang wala siyang planong pakawalan ako ano mang oras ngayon.
And instead of feeling disgusted, kakaiba ang naramdaman ko bigla.
I felt nothing but excitement. I feel hot. I feel like I was craving for something, but I don't even have any idea what I was craving for.
What the hell is happening to me?
CHAPTER 31WARNING: SPG! "Take me, then." Napasinghap ako nang bigla nalang niya akong binuhat ng pang-kasal bago nagsimulang bumaba. I buried my face on his chest before inhaling his addicting scent. I'd rather let him take me than to tell him about the thing that I was thinking that made me feel bitter. No way. Papasok pa lamang kami ng kwarto ay agad ko na siyang hinalikan. Hindi naman siya nagpatumpik-tumpik at agad na tinugon ang aking mga halik. He groaned when I bit his lower lip. I smirked while kissing him. That's more I like it. At least I know that I have an effect on him. Ibinaba niya ako at akmang huhubarin na sana ang aking damit nang pigilan ko siya. He look at me with a confused eyes. "Na-uh, turn the lights on darlin'." He immediately followed. When the lights was on, agad siyang nagtungo sa gawi ko at mabilis na hinawakan ang aking baywang. His hands started to get inside my dress, but before it could reach on my cherry, I stopped him. He sighed. I can clearly s
CHAPTER 30Nagising ako sa mga magagaan na halik sa aking balikat. I groaned before slowly opening my eyes. Unang bumungad sa akin ang medyo madilim na paligid. Tiningnan ko si Niclaus na nakatagilid ang higa paharap sa akin. I blinked. "Kanina ka pa gising?" "Uh-huh," Kung kanina pa siya gising, edi kanina niya pa ako tinititigan? My face heated at that thought. Tch! E, ano ngayon? At least, he got to stare at my goddess-like beauty. "You're so beautiful." See? I just smirked at him before slowly getting up. He groaned before encircling his arms around my waist. Napahiga ulit ako sa tabi niya. He immediately buried his face on my neck. I slapped his arms. "Ano ba! Anong oras na oh?" He breathed on my neck making me shiver. Nilalandi na naman ako nito oh. "It's 7:40 in the evening." Napasinghap ako. "Bumangon na tayo. Nagugutom na ako." He groaned again before putting a kiss on my neck. "I prepared something." "What?"He smirked before kissing my lips. "It's a surprise." I r
CHAPTER 29WARNING: SPG! "Isn't unfair?" "What?"He looked at me up and down before kissing my lips lightly. "I am the first one who always get to be naked, while you're still fully dressed." I laughed. "Ang arte mo. You're just topless, not fully naked." He smirked before sliding his hands inside my tube dress. "Then what are we waiting for? Let's both get naked." He whispered before carrying me. I yelp in surprise. Hinampas ko ang kaniyang braso ngunit naging himas iyon nang bigla niyang sakupin ang aking labi. Habang papunta kami sa second floor ng bahay ay wala kaming ibang ginawa kundi ang maghalikan. It took as some minutes to finally arrive inside his room. Hindi ko na masyadong natitigan ang kaniyang kwarto dahil pareho kaming abala sa aming ginagawa. Mabilis ang naging paggalaw niya upang mahubad ang aking damit. Hanggang baywang lang niya naibaba ang damit dahil agad nitong isinunod ang aking bra. When my breast are finally free, he stared at it. I gulped, but I didn
CHAPTER 28"Where is my son?" Tanong ko nang makapasok na kami sa bahay niya. Tiningnan ko ang buong paligid. The marbled floor shines like a diamond. All the furniture looks very expensive. Of course, what would I expect from a person like him? He's wealthy enough to have all of this shiny things around. "He's safe. Don't worry," he answered that made me look at him. "Baby, he agreed to be with Tungsten since he wants us to have some time alone," He said defensively when he saw my glare. "What do you mean by some time alone, ha? I don't like to have some time alone with you." Dahil baka may iba pang mangyari sa time alone na 'yan. Hindi ko nagugustuhan ang salitang 'yan. "Where is the food? You brought me here for the food, where is it?" He guided me to his dining area. May mga pagkain nga doon na nakahanda na. Napakunot ang noo ko nang makitang halos puno ang lamesa niya. "Bakit ang dami naman yata? Anong akala mo sakin patay gutom? I still have a runway the day after tomorrow
CHAPTER 27"You look....upset." Ani ni Clar. Siguro'y napansin ang mukha kong parang pinag-bagsakan ng langit at lupa. "Upset is an understatement. No words can explain how I am feeling right now Claire." I said in a very cold tone of voice. I gritted my teeth. Kasalanan 'to ng lalaking 'yon e. This is all his fault! Ngayon, naapektuhan pa ang trabaho ko dahil sa kaniya! "Oh? Fix yourself now, Miss Zoe. Your shoot is about to start. You don't want to intimidate the photographer, don't you? Your eyes are spitting bullets right now." She laughed before turning her back at me. I sighed. I shouldn't let that asshole affect me. E pakialam ko naman kung galit siya? Paki ko di ba? Pero may mali siya e! Nagdedesisyon siya para sa anak ko without informing me! That's so rude! Ni hindi ko nga alam kung anong ikinagagalit niya e! What? Siguro dissapointed siya sa nakita niya kagabi? Siguro hindi ganun kalaki 'yong boobs ko unlike ng kay Carlie Vedad? Iyon ba ang ikinagagalit niya?!"Zoe, wha
CHAPTER 26It was past 9 in the evening when we finished the shoot. It was exhausting. Hindi na ako nagtaka noong pagkalabas ko sa dressing room matapos makapagbihis ay nakita kong tulog na si Luke sa balikat ni Niclaus. I sighed as I looked around. Nililigpit na ng staff ang mga kagamitan. Tomorrow would be even more exhausting dahil sa beach ang magiging setting ng shoot. Medyo malayo ang biyahe kaya alam kong nakakapagod talaga iyon. Hindi na talaga ako nasasanay sa mga ganito kahit gaano pa ako katagal sa industriya. "Let's go," Niclaus looked up before smiling at me. Iniwas ko kaagad ang tingin ko dito. Hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan ang sinabi at ginawa nito kanina. Pakiramdam ko ay permanente na iyong nakaukit sa aking utak at hindi na matatanggal pa. He caused so much scene for God's sake! I almost fainted when I saw how the other people look at us. Some look at us in a very insulting way, because who wouldn't? Sa ginawa niya kanina sino kaya ang hindi mandidiri? Doon pa tala
CHAPTER 25When the team finally wrapped up for the morning, agad akong pumasok sa dressing room upang magbihis. Niclaus and Luke is already waiting outside at kanina pa nagrereklamo si Luke na nagugutom na daw siya. I told him kanina na kainin na muna ang pagkaing nilagay niya sa kaniyang lunch box but he just pouted and said no. Hihintayin nalang daw ako nitong matapos kaya ngayon ay nagmamadali ako sa pagbibihis. Nang makapagbihis ay agad ko nang kinuha ang aking shoulder bag at inilagay sa balikat bago tuluyang lumabas. When I was out, I saw Niclaus talking to my son like he was comforting him or something. Mukhang gutom na gutom na yata talaga ang maliit na ito. "Let's go," Tumayo kaagad si Niclaus habang karga si Luke. "Luke come here. Dad might be already tired. Let me carry you," "No, Mommy." ani nito bago ibinaon ang mukha sa leeg ni Niclaus. Sasawayin ko na sana nang pigilan ako ni Niclaus sa pamamagitan ng paghapit sa aking baywang. Hinaplos niya ito bago ako nginitian.
CHAPTER 24"Pagkatapos mo kaming ihatid, umalis ka na. You don't have to stay." Ani ko habang nakatingin sa labas ng bintana. Napilitan nalang akong sumakay sa kotse niya nang tumawag sa akin si Clar at sinabing hindi niya daw ako masusundo dahil may importante siyang ginagawa. I told her na ang service van nalang mismo ang pumunta dito, pero sabi niya ay nasiraan daw. Naisip ko tuloy, hindi kaya magka-kontsaba ang dalawang 'to? Tch. Narinig ko ang malakas na buntong-hininga niya."Son? Do you want Daddy to go home after sending both of you to Mommy's work?" Napakunot ang noo ko habang nakatitig pa rin sa labas ng bintana. I refuse to look at him dahil ayaw kong dalhin na naman ako ng pantasya ko kung saan saan. These past few days, hindi ko na talaga nagugustuhan ang nagiging takbo ng utak ko, maging ang sarili kong mga aksyon sa tuwing nandiyan siya. "What? Why? You should come with us Daddy. We'll both protect Mommy from boys," Napangiwi ako sa tinuran ng aking anak. Really, Luka
CHAPTER 23The next day ay maaga akong nagising dahil maaga din ang flight na binook ni Claire sa amin. If you could remember her, she's my Personal Assistant and my stylists too. Since Mom and Dad already know that I am going back to US for some matters, and that's because of my job, they didn't have a say on it. But I know that they were silently happy about it, because that's what they want me to do from the start. Hinatid pa kaming mag-ina ni Mommy at Daddy sa airport. I was glad that hindi pa masyadong crowded ang airport. Mas inagahan talaga namin ang magpunta dahil baka makatunog ang media, mahirap na. "Mommy? Why are we leaving?" Nakakunot ang noong tanong ni Luke. I smiled at him before kissing his forehead. "I have work, babe. Did you forgot about that?" "Oh...I thought we are leaving because Dad is pissing you off," I lost my smile. "Dad?""Daddy Niclaus. He told me to call him that, and I should only call him that. He said, I shouldn't call anyone else Dad because he