LOGINMy mom ended up signing me up for the Navy’s softball camp. They train really hard, so she thought it would be good for me if I wanted to be an LSU prospect. I was excited to see how it would go.
I tossed my hair up into a ponytail so that I could braid it out of my face. I threw on my Huffington visor and my LSU t-shirt with my black shorts. Keegan loves these shorts. He says I fill them out nicely. My boy was always complimenting me. Mom had bagels set out for us. So I grabbed an Everything bagel and my softball bag and ran out of the door. I threw everything into my car and then hopped into the driver’s seat. It was kind of weird driving myself places. I was so used to riding with Bay, my mom or Keegan places. When I got to the camp, I could see girls already warming up. Crap! I’m fifteen minutes early and I’m still late. I hurried over to the field, trotting along as fast as I could with my giant bag and mask . My dad made me start wearing a pitcher’s mask after I got hit by a line drive in 7th grade. I told him I was fine and my reflexes are way faster now, but he wasn’t hearing it at all. As I stretched I noticed a girl looking at me every once in a while. I tried to smile at her, but she didn’t show any emotion, so I just kept warming up. The coach started to call us over to the dugout, so we all started to gather our things and head over. “Hey there ladies! Welcome back for those that have been on this ride with us before and welcome to our new faces, Brees, Hailey, Lisa, Maddie and Jagger,” she said, gesturing in my direction as she said our names. Jagger was the girl that kept looking at me. I wonder where she is from and what her position is? Hope I can make one friend here. I didn’t know anyone and I wasn’t a very social person. Coach gave us partners to play catch with and I ended up with Jagger. We went by first base line and set our distance and began to throw the ball. She had a pretty solid toss. “So Jagger, where are you from?” I asked, throwing the ball back to her as I caught it. “I’m from Texas actually. It’s my dad’s summer so I am here visiting him. Are you from here?” she asked fixing her glove with her teeth. “Yeah, born and raised. What’s your position?” I inquired noticing her form. “Catcher! And I assume you are a pitcher by your stance and prep,” she guessed. I nodded. That was an astute observation. This girl had really been studying me. “So, weird question. But why were you staring at me earlier?” I asked, feeling myself blush. “Umm, you’re stunning. No secret or hidden agenda. I saw you walk in and I was like oh damn, she is gorgeous,” she said tossing her hair back. “Oh, umm, thanks. I didn’t expect that answer but I’m flattered,” I said giggling at the thought. We practiced for about two hours and then coach let us know our full schedule for the season. When I looked at it, it was pretty intense. How was I supposed to spend my entire summer with Keegan if I had practice four times a week. Jagger came over to me after she grabbed her things. “Hey can we exchange numbers? I don’t know anyone here and would love to have a friend while I’m here in Louisiana,” she offered. “Oh for sure. I will introduce you to my friends also. We have a really good time together,” I said. “Sweet. I’ll text you later and maybe we can plan a hang?” she asked. “Of course. I can’t wait,” I said running off to my car. I loved the idea of having a new friend. Casey would like Jagger too. I needed to get Case a new boy so maybe Jagger could help me out with that little project. I got home and showered. I couldn’t wait to call Keegan after being away from him all day. Baylen and my mom were out to dinner for their once a month “date night,” so I was home alone and didn’t like that idea. As I dried my hair, I heard my phone pinging, so I knew my boy was missing me as well. I put my hair up into a scrunchie so it could finish drying and grabbed my phone to call Keegan. I saw that I had three text messages from a number I didn’t recognize. “Hey Brees, it was so nice meeting you today. Can’t wait to play ball with you all summer and get to know you better,” said one text. “Oh this is Jagger by the way,” said another. The final text was an emoji with the winkie face. Not the text I was expecting but I’m glad she felt a connection with me and I’m sure we will be great friends. I jumped on my bed and called up my boy. I couldn’t wait to tell him about my day. As the phone rang, my heart began to race. He made me so giddy even after a year of being his girlfriend. After a few rings, the call went to voicemail. What the heck? I don’t think that has ever happened. He must still have some team stuff going on. I know he had his initial call today with the team. I decided to text Jagger back. We ended up texting half the night. She was an easy person to talk to. And having divorced parents, she totally understood my life. She was an only child though, so no annoying brother getting in the way of her love life.The morning came in brutally. I rolled over begrudgingly and stopped my alarm. My head was hurting and my mind was racing. I had stayed up all night thinking about Keegan. His game was televised last night and I mindlessly watched. Seeing him actually enter the game in the 4th quarter was breathtaking. Keegan was a freshman so he didn’t get a lot of playing time. But on this day he did. I held my breath every time he was near the ball. Recalling the time from Homecoming when he had been knocked on conscious. My heart went back to that time. When he had seen me in my dress. The way his eyes had went over my body and face. Soaking in every inch. The way he gulped when I came closer. That made me smile. No Brees. Stop it. You aren’t his anymore. Today, I was going to the petting zoo with my softball team. They were doing team bonding. There were mazes, games, food and more at the petting zoo. She thought about the fun she would have with Harper and Quinn. She
Meanwhile, at LSU, Keegan sat on the edge of his dorm bed staring at his phone. Brees was still blocked from nothing on his end. She had blocked him. He had tried once. He’d stared at the message he’d typed for nearly twenty minutes before finally deleting it. I miss you. Too simple. I’m sorry. Not enough. I didn’t mean it. A lie. Because he had meant what he’d said in that moment. He had been scared. Scared of their families. Scared of what happened next. Scared of how serious everything had become. But he’d never been scared of Brees. That was the part he couldn’t explain. He could face thousands of people in a stadium. He could handle the pressure of LSU. He could handle everything his future demanded from him. But the thought of admitting how much he loved his best friend’s little sister terrified him. And now he’d lost her. He wanted to drive home and scoop her up in his arms and let her know that his love for her had not changed and that they needed to be
Brees thought blocking Keegan would make it easier.It didn’t.It just made everything quieter.His name no longer appeared on her phone.No late-night texts.No random pictures from his day.No stupid videos he knew would make her laugh when she was trying not to.No You awake? at midnight.Nothing.And somehow, nothing hurt worse than everything.She had stared at his contact for almost ten minutes before finally pressing Block Contact.Her thumb had hovered over the button.Once.Twice.Three times.Then she had done it.Because she couldn’t keep being the girl who waited for Keegan to decide what they were.Especially after what happened in front of their mothers.After her mom found out they’d been sleeping together, Keegan had promised her.“It won’t happen again.”Brees had wanted him to promise they would be safe. Not that it would never happen again.She had wanted that promise to mean he was choosing her.Instead, when their mothers asked what was happening between them, Kee
“Wow, okay. Yeah, we are focusing on our sports and I’m getting more serious about Jagger since she is moving here next semester,” I said. His head whipped around so quickly. He looked confused. After our moms excused themselves, he moved closer to me on the couch. “Brees, what did you mean about you and Jagger?” he asked. “Well you said we weren’t together, so I assumed that meant what you said this morning about being in love with me was complete bull crap. What was that Kee?” I asked. At this point I was holding tears inside so hard that I thought my heart might explode. He grabbed my hand and didn’t let me pull away. “I felt like that was the right thing to say for now. Your mom seemed upset that we have been having sex. I didn’t want to give her anything else to worry about. I’m really sorry I said that. You know I absolutely love you with all my heart Squirt,” he said, bumping my chin. I shook my head. “No Keegan, I don’t know that. You have had a weird way of
I looked at her with my mouth agape. Was she seriously having this conversation with Keegan in the next room? RAP! RAP! A knock on the door saved the day. Keegan poked his head inside and Ms. Kyren was right behind him. “You guys all good in here?” he asked. I nodded and tried to push him out of the room, but my mom made him sit down on the couch instead. “Join us for a moment you two. I was just discussing the protocol of safe sex with Brees,” my mom blurted. How embarrassing. She really didn’t need to do this right here just because Casey slipped up. Keegan fidgeted a bit and looked at his mom for reassurance. You could see how uncomfortable he was. “Oh they are safe Missy. I told Keegan they needed protection every time they were together and he promised me that they would,” Ms. Kyren said. My mom’s face turned a deep shade of red. I don’t think she was ready to hear that I had already been sleeping with Keegan. She turned to me specifically. Her eyes narrowing in on mi
We made our way to my mom’s house. When we arrived I saw Casey’s car in the driveway. I was happy that she came. I had invited her, but she had been missing in action all day. She got out of her car when she saw me and she ran to me. It looked like she had been crying. I reached out and hugged her tightly. “What’s wrong my Casey girl? Did Cyman do something?” I asked. She nodded her head aggressively. Keegan looked at me and smiled and excused himself after giving Casey a warm hug. He went into the house so that we could talk. “So remember during the back to school party you saw Cyman and I… well we were sleeping together up until Thanksgiving Break,” Casey said wiping tears on her jean jacket. “Okay. I knew this information Case. What’s the deal?” I badgered. I will admit, I was a little perplexed that she was even bringing up his name when she knows I can’t stand him after how he treated her. “James… I’m pregnant,” Casey sputtered out. I almost dropped my phone. Did she ju







