Chapter 45 First, it was the sobbing and the anger that followed afterward. I was so flushed with anger, I punched the door. Aaron rushed out of his room staring at me concerned. I was glad that he still held those for me "What's going on?" "Nothing." "Come on, are you really going to do this?" He asked. I paused in my tracks and sighed. "Okay, since you are so eager to know. Imagine that you are the main character of a stupid girlish cartoon, and she has no reason to keep malice with you." "Huh?" I knew he was confused but I didn't stick around to find out about the details of his confusion. I dashed into my room and banged the door. I was breathing heavily this time, I needed to calm down. I carefully sat on the floor as I remembered everything again. Did I say too much? Was I too rude? Was I harsh to him? How is he feeling? All of these questions continued to disturb me. "It wasn't a nice thing to do." I thought Then, why should I put him in consideration when he had no
Chapter 46I was filled with so much happiness. For the first time in a long while I slept without thinking too much about anything. My mind was free and I'm glad that we resolved everything. The morning was a peaceful one and we had breakfast as usual, this time it wasn't in silence. We had fun and Aaron was back to treating us like vegetarians.I got to work and I was still to hear the news of the new workers. The one that Bella talked about recently. Deep down I was scared because I didn't know how I was going to get another job, that was paying this much. I wasn't the type to rely on someone just because they were being generous with their money. I prayed that it turned out well in the end. I carried a tray to serve these young couples who looked like siblings. They were having these different views and it was obvious that one cared but the other didn't care as much. It started when they were choosing their meals, the guy seemed adamant about it. He kept saying things like,"You
Chapter 47 "I feel the world is so busy today." I tried to make sense of what Bella was saying. It was ringing as I expected it to. I shook my head as she laughed. We were walking home together after a long day at work, when we got to the bus station we diverted to our different lanes. I carefully counted every step as I sank into the brief silence the environment had. Not too many cars passed through years lanes it was mostly from those who lived here. It was towards the evening, the sky was filled with the hue of subtle orange blending in with pink. The sun was going to sleep as the sky drowned it burning flames, it was producing more beauty by the second. The wind was lush against my skin, I close my eyes and breathed through every gentle kiss. I quietly walked home as Foot In Front Of The Other by Griff, echoed unto my ears through my earphones. As I slow-walked, I swayed my body slowly to the beat, my hair carried away by the air leaving it untamed. The memories I held clos
Chapter 48I found myself bringing up several scenes of how the dinner would go. Like I haven't done that already. I knew it all boiled down to one thing, it could either end on a good note or a bad note. Nothing more. I didn't notice when the car stopped. We had already reached our destination. Elliot released his seat belt and came down from the car to get to my door. He has a passive look on his face but I pretended not to have seen it."Thank you," I whispered. I could feel my hand twitch as nervousness kept grinding inside me. I came down from the car, losing my footing. Before my body hit the ground, Elliot held me by the waist to stabilize me. I thanked him again, fiddling my hands together before smoothing my dress.I looked up at the golden plate at the top of the building. I tried to pronounce the name that was boldly written in French. Elliot backed me up."La Monet." I nodded. I wondered about French and Italian places. I've noticed that he always had the right connection
Chapter 49The night wasn't the most pleasant but the little act of kindness he showed made it worthwhile. The sweet feeling of his lips on mine and the after feeling of his cologne on my breath. I couldn't get over the feeling because I feel I had the same effect on him as he had on me. He was doing a really good job at hiding it. I didn't want to blur this feeling and memory that seemed to have a lasting effect. I hope he comes out of his head and accepts whatever his heart is telling him.It was a long shot but whatever the outcome is, I was willing to bear through it all. I touched my lips with one hand, and used the other, to ring the doorbell. I breathed into the cold air as goosebumps rose on my skin. I was beginning to feel an immense amount of cold. Seconds later, Kathy opened the door for me and I walked in. Several times, they have left this door unlocked, other times it is ajar as they were inside. They paid less attention to being vigilant. "You are not very security co
Chapter 50It is just windy but somehow my body temperature seems to go below, which made me cold. I was always cold and it was something I really calmly dealt with. Aaron seemed to always have it different, he hardly ever gets cold except the weather is below its normal temperature. I tried to breathe because my chest was beginning to tighten, leaving little space for air to stay in my body."I don't know why I have to deal with this. I might as well have an inhaler because this is becoming like asthma." Bella laughed. Although I was being serious, my sarcasm got in the way of that. I saw Bella on my way to work and we just walked down together. When I got in, the smell of coffee filled my breath, it was pleasant. Even with the difficulty to breathe, I could still smell the streams of coffee mixed with milk. I saw the freshly baked fried, I inhaled the smell and it felt like I was already eating it. It gave me the homely feeling, those lazy afternoons where you do nothing but bak
Chapter 51 My phone beeped, not just once but several times. I stretched in the bed, not wanting to check my phone but the sound couldn't just stop. I groaned, sitting up and itching my eyes. It was time to get ready for work as usual, so I checked my phone. The lock screen met my eyes. I checked that date, it was a Saturday. "I thought it is a weekday." I placed my head on my palms, breathing slowly. I was a gazy head, confusion was always the first thing I felt during these times, especially early mornings. I was happy I didn't have to work today because it was bad enough that I had a stressful week. I had worked through all week even on my off days. I opened the window and I let the morning air come in. I could sit and do nothing, I really wanted to relax through the day. All my emotions came rushing to me at once, it felt like little details were missing in the gap in my memories. Trying to think too much was causing a strain on my head. I got down from the bed, crawled my
Chapter 51I locked the door, stood by it, and rested my head backward. I breathed out deeply, a bit too excited although I wasn't sure why. It made me think why anybody does drugs when you can just overdose with so much joy and excitement. It was still a cool Saturday, but the reality that Aaron was going to be leaving for school soon, hit me. We decided to see Dad one more time before he goes. Ever since we agreed on it, he has been quiet. It felt awkward but then I really didn't know what to say. Where should I start comforting him? Knowing Dad's critical condition, it pained him that he was going to be far away from him. I'm here with Dad, which means that Aaron was going to be breathing on my neck with several phone calls. That was beside the point, he wouldn't get to just see him like he used to and always be constantly worried. I guess I have too many people to worry about. We stepped out of the house and got to the bus station. Because we were still very hungry, we got a