Chapter 01
"Victor, dude, you're in the newspaper again! Congrats! Mukhang malapit mo na din makuha ang best actor award. I heard you're on the list," said Kiel Norman, Victor Difabio's best friend, a well-known band leader at kababata ni Victor. "Thanks! I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get it this time. Our last drama with Peregrine has reached other countries and it's been a huge hit," Victor replied, swirling the glass in his hand. It was filled with expensive liquor, and he was grinning at his friends. "Who would’ve thought I’d get it before I turn 26?" Victor said, taking a sip of his drink. Victor Diafabio was everything the world adored—a celebrated actor with a face that graced magazine covers and a charm that left everyone spellbound. Handsome, charming, and endlessly admired, he moved through life like a man used to being the center of attention. His perfect smile and polished demeanor won over fans and friends alike, making him a golden figure in the public eye. "But is it okay that you’re not talking about your real relationship with Peregrine? Madami sa fans na naniniwalang may something sa inyo ni Peregrine. The whole world knows that Peregrine is the one you married, and to make it worse, you guys are now being invited to a Hollywood drama in another country. Ayos lang ba iyon sa asawa mo?" tanong ni Kiel. Victor waved his hand, saying he was sure Phinea didn’t care. "Arrange lang naman ang meron sa amin ni Phinea. I still support her and as for me and Peregrine, there’s nothing special between us, and my conscience is clear on that," Victor replied, bored na sagot ni Victor at umirap. When his family arranged his marriage, it felt like just another meticulously crafted moment in his glamorous life—a match meant to complete the perfect image he portrayed to the world. But beneath the surface, Victor’s heart was elsewhere, tangled in the demands of fame, with little regard for the woman quietly standing in his shadow. "Hindi siya umuwi ulit," Phinea whispered as she sat by the window of their apartment, gazing at the massive billboard kung saan nakikita niya ang mukha ng asawa, Victor Difabio, sa tabi niya ang twin sister ni Phinea, Peregrine Lawson. Phinea Lawson had always lived on the fringes, overlooked and unheard. A gentle spirit with a kind heart, she was the girl who faded into the background, overshadowed by the more vibrant personalities surrounding her. Her family, never recognizing her true strength, married her off to Victor, thrusting her into a life filled with bright lights and glittering façades. Yet, Phinea didn’t belong in Victor’s world of glamour and attention. Shy, uncertain, and lacking the poise of those around him, she struggled to find her place in his life. As Victor’s fame soared, so did the chasm between them, leaving Phinea isolated in a marriage where love was buried beneath the weight of public adoration. "Maybe your conscience is clear, and you don’t see Peregrine in that light, but— sigurado ka ba na iyon din ang iniisip ng asawa mo? The whole world admires the relationship you have with Peregrine. What about your wife’s feelings?" Robin Lazaro chimed in. Frustrated, Victor shot them a look, wondering what their point was. "Why is Phinea suddenly part of our conversation?" Victor asked, turning irritably toward the bar counter. "Nakakainis kayo kausap." Victor downed the drink in his glass and hindi na ulit tiningnan ang kaibigan, who exchanged glances. "As your friend, Victor, when you get home—look at your wife and talk to her," Kiel said, putting an arm around Victor's shoulder at nagsalin ng alak sa baso ni Victor ng walang laman. "Before it’s too late." Victor didn’t realize it, but a chill ran down his spine at his friend’s words, though he quickly brushed it off, jokingly nudging Kiel. "What do you guys know about relationships? You’re all single!" Victor laughed, natawa na lang din ang mga kaibigan ni Victor at hindi sumagot. He soon forgot the strange feeling and his friends' advice as the next day he got busy with work—commercials, taping, and a world tour with Peregrine. Two months later, after the world tour and having won the best actor award, his friends picked him up from the airport. "Bakit hindi ka 'man lang sumagot sa mga tawag namin?!" That was how his friends greeted him, clearly anxious, with all their bodyguards present to keep people from approaching Victor. "What’s going on? Why are you all here?" None of Victor’s friends spoke; they suddenly pulled him away from the airport, along with some staff, preventing Kiel from taking him, as he had a meeting with directors scheduled for that day. "Kiel, alam mo na busy ako. I’ll make it up to you guys after the meeting," Victor said, at inalis ang braso niya sa pagkakahawak ni Kiel bago pa siya maisakay sa van. Lahat nagulat ng suntukin siya ni Kiel sa mukha. Victor fell to the floor, and cameras began flashing. "Victor!" Peregrine shouted when she saw this and rushed to Victor, her face showing shock. "Didn’t I tell you? Talk to Phinea!" Victor froze when Kiel mentioned his wife’s name. He looked up to see disappointment in his friends' eyes. "I told you you’d regret it, pero hindi ka nakinig," Kiel said, turning away and getting into the van. "While you’re on the way, think about what’s important to you—your contract or your wife," Robin added, bago sumakay sa van with some of his other friends. Victor could only curse under his breath as he stood there, confused about what just happened and why his friends reacted that way. He would talk to her when he got home. As usual, he brushed off his friends' words and headed straight to the company to accept the next drama contract with Peregrine. Sa mga sumunod na araw umuwi na si Victor sa apartment nila ni Phinea. Napatigil siya noong makita na lock iyon. He rang the doorbell pero walang sumasagot. Nagtataka si Victor because if Phinea was inside, she would have opened the door after just one ring. He realized he had lost his belongings while in Italy, including the duplicate key to their apartment. Scratching his head, Victor took out his phone. He planned to call Phinea but remembered that it was a new phone and he didn’t have her number memorized. "Oh right, she might be at the mansion with Mom. Maybe they picked her up while I was gone," Victor thought and called the Difabio mansion. "Sir? Sino kayo at ano ginagawa niyo dito?" Napatigil si Victor at napalingon. He saw an eight-year-old girl. He smiled and knelt down to her level. She think Phinea seemed to have fallen asleep, not opening the door. The little girl froze, tears streaming down her face as she started to cry. Victor panicked and knelt beside her at tinanong bakit ito umiiyak. "Kate!" A woman who looked like the girl’s mother approached and scooped her up. "Sorry, she just started crying," Victor said, standing up, hiding his face in his hood. "Ate Phine! Huhu.." Napatigil si Victor noong narinig ang pangalan ng asawa niya. He asked the girl if she knew his wife. Napatigil ang babae at napalingon, asking if this was Phinea’s husband. "Don’t tell me hindi mo alam ang nangyari sa kaniya?" Victor felt a cold wave wash over him, his knees buckling as he gripped the door, pleading with the woman not to joke like that. Sinabi ng babae na wala na magbubukas ng pinto kay Victor dahil wala doon si Phinea. Wala na ito. "Why would I joke about something like that?!" the woman shouted, holding her daughter tightly. "We saw Phinea’s body in that room five days ago—she was lifeless! My daughter saw it too!" Victor was terrified, remaining outside their apartment door, umaasa na bubuksan iyon ni Phinea at pinagtitripan lang siya ng mag-ina. Despite what he heard, Victor’s mind stayed closed as he couldn’t accept that information. Noong kumagat na ang dilim, he called the Difabio mansion again. "Who is this?" a woman’s voice answered, sounding hoarse as if she had just been crying. "Ma-mom." The woman on the other end paused. She screamed in anger. "Come home, Victor, and see Phinea! Look at what happened to her!" Victor gripped the phone tightly, trembling as he asked where Phinea was. That day, while on the road, he prayed it was just a prank and not true until the driver took him to a funeral home. The driver opened the door for Victor. Shaking, he stepped out and walked in with heavy feet. He saw his parents and Phinea’s parents there. Peregrine was also there, umiiyak habang katabi ang parents niya. Before Victor could reach the coffin at the end of the hallway, bigla lumapit ang ama niya at sinuntok si Victor. "Vincent!" Victor’s mother screamed. The old man tackled him, punching Victor in the face. Peregrine quickly stood up to stop him. The old man shoved her, causing the Lawson couple to stand and ask why he had to push Peregrine. "Why do you ask why? Are we the only ones who care about the child in that box being mourned?!" the old man shouted, glaring at the Lawson couple. "Mr. Difabio, that’s our child. Why are you speaking like that?" tanong ng ginang habang umiiyak. "I don’t know where you get the nerve to claim Phinea is your child after you set aside what happened to her for Peregrine’s career," the old man said darkly. "We’re not just thinking about our child! We’re also thinking about Victor! Phinea wouldn’t want to ruin anyone’s life because of her mistakes; she’s a good person—" Victor’s mother slapped the woman. The old Mrs. Lawson was taken aback by Victor's mother’s action. "How dare you! How dare you! How can you say that was a mistake, and even in this situation, you’re still thinking of others? What about Phinea?!" Victor couldn’t focus on the chaos happening in his family because his attention remained on the white box at the end of the hallway. It was surrounded by flowers and candles. There was also a photo of Phinea, which he hadn’t seen in months. Victor held his head in his hands as tears began to fall. "No, what happened? Why did this happen? This can’t be true." "Arggh! This can’t be true! Phinea!" Victor knelt and approached the coffin, trying to open it. His friends quickly stopped him, telling him to stop. "She shouldn’t be lying there! Let me go! Uuwi na kami ni Phinea!" Victor was thrashing around, desperately trying to break free from his friends. When he finally lost all strength, he collapsed on the floor, staring at his hands. He was in shock, questioning what had happened while he was away. Victor learned that Phinea had committed suicide, confirmed by the police. She had taken many pills, found in their room. "Bakit iyon gagawin ni Phinea?" Victor stood up and grabbed Kiel. "She wouldn’t do that! There’s no reason for Phinea to do that! Binibigay ko sa kanya lahat, and I never fought with her! We never fought—" Kiel bitterly asked Victor if their conversation had lasted even three minutes since they got married. "Victor, umuuwi ka ba at tinatanong if she's okay?" Kiel pushed Victor’s hand away. Victor staggered back, holding his head. He couldn’t remember anything at hindi niya alam. All he could think about was his work. He couldn’t even recall what Phinea looked like during their years of marriage. "I told you to talk to her and check on her pero hindi ka nakinig," Kiel whispered. That’s when Victor realized Phinea had been struggling with depression, which Kiel mentioned after nila makita si Phinea sa convenience store. She hadn’t looked well and seemed out of it. To make matters worse, nalaman ni Victor buntis si Phinea. "No, what have I done?" Victor trembled, clutching the wedding ring he wore around his neck. "This can’t be happening!"Chapter 20"Class reunion?" ulit ko. Naikwento ni dad na gusto ng mom niya mag attend ng class reunion. Hindi daw pumayag si dad. "Next week iyon at wala ako. Isang linggo ang trip nila siyempre hindi ako pumayag at nagagalit mom mo sa akin," kwento ni dad. Tinanong ko si dad siyempre kung bakit, napakaunreasonable naman kung hindi papayag si dad dahil hindi siya kasama. Pagkakaalala ko classmate sila ng mom ko noong college. "Half sa class namin may gusto sa mom mo at invited doon ang long time ex ng mom mo. May tiwala ako sa mom mo pero dahil lalaki ako alam ko nature ng kapwa ko lalaki. Nalaman ko pa na divorce siya at kinokontak na naman niya mom mo," ani ni dad. Nagsuggest ako na isama ni mom si ate at Phinea. Napatigil si dad tapos nilingon ako. Pinaliwanag ko na hindi tatanggi si mom at mawawalan din ng chance mga aaligid sa mom ko. Sumandal ako sa hood ng sasakyan. Naalala ko bigla noong past ko may nabalitaan ako na nagkaroon ng time na nagkaroon ng malalang away parents
Chapter 19"Vic… Victor?"Pakiramdam ko lumalayo ang boses ni Phinea. Hindi ako makahinga— may nag alis ng facemask ko at tinakpan ang bibig ko. "He... Hey look at my eyes. Breath," ani ni Phinea na nakatayo sa harapan ko at nakadikit ang noo niya sa noo ko. Kalma... Kumalma ka Victor. Natatakot si Phinea. Nagpromise ka hindi mo siya papaiyakin ulit. Pull yourself together. Napaubo ako at doon nagawa ko huminga sa ilong. Napansin ko na may mga tao sa paligid ko at tinatanong kung tatawag ba sila ng ambulansya. May nagpapaypay sa akin at inaabutan si Phinea ng inhaler. "Lumayo kayo ng kaunti mas lalo siya hindi makakahinga kung lahat kayo nakapalibot dito.""Ayos lang ba kasama mo?"Napatigil ako noong makita ko ang familiar na guy. Hindi ako pwede magkamali— bakit—Napatingin ako kay Phinea noong hawakan niya ang pisngi ko at nagtama ang mata namin na dalawa. "Ano nangyari sa iyo? A... Ayos ka lang ba?"Nahawakan ko ang kamay ni Phinea na nasa pisngi ko at ngumiti ng fade. Nagso
Chapter 18Iyong idea na may susundo sa kaniya sa labas is sapat na para buong araw makaramdam ng excitement si Victor na agad tapusin ang trabaho niya at umuwi. "Iyong asawa mo nasa labas?" ulit ng manager habang kaharap si Victor na naghahumming abang inaayos ang buhok sa salamin at may hawak na cap. "Yes kaya hindi ako makakasabay ngayon. Ikaw na bahala kina director gumawa ng palusot," ani ni Victor at natutuwa lumabas ng tent. Paglabas ni Victor sakto dumating si Rin na nagtataka sinundan ng tingin si Victor na naglalakad paalis. "Hindi ulit sasama si Victor?" tanong ni Rin. Sumagot ng no ang manager. "You see mukhang may sariling way si Victor para ienjoy ang sarili niya," natatawa na sambit ng manager. Kalaunan sa labas ng site. Nasa loob ng isang restaurant si Phinea kasama si Catherine. "Ang pait," reklamo ni Catherine out of the blue habang nakangiwi at may hawak na cup ng coffee. Pumasok sa isip ni Phinea si Victor dahil ganoon din ang expression ni Victor noong na
Chapter 17Tamang tama dahil halos walang tao noong pumunta sina Phinea at Victor sa bagong bukas na restaurant. "Good evening sir and ma'am ano ang order niyo?"Nagbubuklat si Victor ng menu habang si Phinea is tumingin tingin sa paligid. Gusto ni Phinea ang ambiance sa restaurant. Salamin din ang rooftop kaya naman nakikita ni Phinea ang kalangitan doon kapag tumingala siya. Siyempre sa umaga sarado iyon at kapag gabi lang iyon is binubuksan. "Phinea, may gusto ka ba kainin?" tanong ni Victor after mahinang katukin ang table sa side ni Phinea para agawin ang atensyon ng babae. Napatingin si Phinea. May ilang waitress ang napatingin sa table ng dalawa. Ilan sa mga ito kinikilig. Why? Dahil sa mga sweet gesture ni Victor— iyong boses nito at mga tingin kay Phinea. "Sir girlfriend niyo ba si miss? May event po kasi kami dito at special dish sila para sa mga couples," ani ng waiter. Napatingin si Victor at natatawa sinabi na asawa niya si Phinea. Tinanong kung ano iyong dish ng mga
Chapter 16"Mother in law... Bakit... bakit mo gusto mabasa novel ko? Hindi... Hindi ka mahilig sa books," bulong ko. Naalala ko narinig ko siya kausap si father in law sa living room. Binabasa ni mom iyong collection ko ng novel na project ngayon ni Victor at gagawin na drama. "Its not mean na hindi ako mahilig. Hindi ako nagbabasa," sagot niya tapos tinuro ang sarili. "Its normal."Napakurap ako. Tinanong ni mother in law kung gusto ko ba ang pagsusulat. "Hi... Hindi ko alam. Its just... Nagkataon na ito lang ang alam ko gawin."Sa pagsusulat nailalabas ko ang frustration ko at mas nakakaramdam ako ng freedom. Sa pagsusulat walang nagda-judge sa akin at nagsasabi ng tama at mali. Nagsimula lang ako post online dahil bukod sa hindi makikita iyon ng parents ko nakikita ko din convenient iyon for me. Maya-maya lang umalis na si mother in law. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. Hindi ko pa din maiwasan makaramdam ng kaba at uncomfortable pa din talaga kapag may ibang tao sa same space
Chapter 15Bumaba ng sasakyan si Victor at nakita niya ang mga staff na nasa kabilang side. Sa gitna nag-uusap usap ang may ari ng location, producer, assistant producer ilang manager si Everen at Quen. "Miss Quen, kumalma ka nga muna," ani ng producer. Naiinis si Quen at tinanong bakit siya kakalma? "Iyong drama na iyon is parehong time din magi-air at nakita mo mga issue kumakalat sa social media. Ano mangyayari kung—" Napatingin si Rin Quen sa matanada. "Ano nakakatawa?" tanong ni Quen. Nakita niya tumatawa may ari ng location. "Balita ko bago lang production niyo, new drama din ito. Mostly sa mga artist niyo mga baguhan lang din. Compare sa production na nauna sa inyo makakakuha ako ng profit na mas malaki. Even doblehin niyo ang rent pasensya na pero hindi ako papayag," ani ng may ari ng location. Dumilim ang mukha ni Everen noong marinig iyon at iniyukom ang kamao. "Ikaw—""Tama na. Ireschedule na lang natin ang scene na iyon at magpareserve tayo next week," ani ng producer