LOGINNicolas’s POVI didn’t like thinking about Ryder.Which was inconvenient, considering Ryder was one of my friends.We weren’t inseparable or anything dramatic like that, but we’d known each other long enough, shared classes, shared practices, shared enough late nights and bad decision that there was a level of trust there. He was solid. Honest. Annoyingly perceptive when he wanted to be.And lately, he’d been looking at me like he knew something was off.I should’ve seen this coming.We were in the student gym, sprawled across the benches after a brutal morning workout. Sweat clung to my skin, my muscles aching in that dull, familiar way that usually helped clear my head.Today, it wasn’t working.Ryder tossed me a bottle of water. “You’ve been weird lately.”I caught it one-handed. “Weird how?”He snorted. “You’re asking questions. That’s how.”I rolled my eyes. “Real funny.”“I’m serious,” he said, leaning back against the locker, arms crossed. “You’re quieter. Grumpier. You’ve got
Imani’s POVI hadn’t expected Nicolas respecting my boundaries to feel like this.That was the part no one warned you about.I thought putting distance between me and Nicolas would make everything easier, cleaner, quieter, safer. I thought once he stopped pushing, once he stayed firmly on his side of the line, I’d feel relieved.Instead, I felt… unsettled.Our last tutoring session had been textbook perfect. He arrived early. He stayed focused. He didn’t tease me, didn’t provoke me, didn’t flirt. He didn’t linger when it was over.He followed every rule I set like they were sacred. And somehow, that hurt more than when he’d been reckless.I stared at my notes for the third time without actually reading them, my mind replaying the way he’d stood at the door that night, the look on is face deliberate, restrained. Like he was afraid one wrong move would shatter something fragile.Maybe it already had.I closed my notebook with a soft thud and leaned back against the couch just as June wa
Nicolas’s POVI arrived ten minutes early.That alone should’ve told me how badly I wanted this to go right.I stood outside Imani’s building with my hands shoved into my jacket pockets, watching students pass by like my presence there wasn’t loaded with consequence. Every instinct in my body screamed to pace, but I forced myself to stay still.I was early, calm, and prepared. Everything I hadn’t been the last time.Her terms replayed in my head like a broken record. I deserved all of it.When I knocked, it was two soft taps instead of my usual lazy knock. I listened to my own breathing while I waited.The door opened.Imani stood there with a notebook tucked under her arm, hair pulled back neatly, face composed in a way that made my chest tighten. She wasn’t nervous.She was in control.“Hi,” I said.“Come in,” she replied, stepping aside without meeting my eyes.That stung more than I expected.Her apartment looked the same, but it felt different. Brighter somehow. Less forgiving. T
Imani’s POVI didn’t answer Nicolas that night.Not because I hadn’t heard him. Not because I didn’t understand what he was asking.But because the moment I walked away from him, my chest felt like it had been split open, and I needed time to figure out what was actually bleeding.I walked across campus without a destination, my thoughts spiraling in uneven circles. The evening air was cool, brushing against my skin like a reminder to stay grounded. Students passed me in clusters, laughing, talking about assignments, weekend plans.I felt separate from all of it.Because somewhere between his apology and his quiet, desperate let me try again, something had shifted inside me.I wanted to say no, but I didn’t.That was the part that scared me most.I should have said no. Maybe even smacked him in the head and walked away.Every rational part of me knew that giving in to Nicolas was dangerous.He’d disappeared. He’d disrespected my time. He’d put my academic standing at risk.If this wer
Nicolas’s POVI knew two things for certain.First, Imani hadn’t emailed the Dean yet. Second, that meant I was on borrowed time.I found out the first one accidentally.Coach had sent me to the admin building to drop off eligibility paperwork, and as I passed the open door of the Dean’s office, I heard her name.“She’s still listed as active on the mentorship file,” the assistant said. “No withdrawal notice yet.”That sentence lodged itself in my chest and stayed there.She could’ve ended this already. Could’ve reported me. Could’ve walked away clean.She didn’t.Which meant one thing, I’d hurt her, but not enough for her to stop caring.And that made the guilt ten times worse.By the time I left the building, my hands were shaking.I couldn’t pretend anymore. Couldn’t hide behind silence. Couldn’t act like avoidance was some kind of strategy instead of cowardice. This needed to stop.I needed to fix this. Or at least try. I know I had fucked up royally with, Imani, but I neededI f
Imani’s POVThe café was already half full when I arrived, the late-afternoon rush just beginning to swell. The air smelled like burnt espresso, cinnamon pastries, and something faintly sweet I couldn’t place. It was warm inside, too warm for how tense my chest felt.Tyrique spotted me before I even reached the counter.“There she is,” he called, lifting a hand.I smiled automatically and walked over, my bag slipping down my shoulder as I slid into the chair across from him. He looked good, relaxed, hoodie slung low around his neck, basketball bag resting against the chair beside him.“You look tired,” he said immediately.“I’m fine,” I replied, just as quickly.He snorted. “That wasn’t convincing at all.”I laughed softly, hoping it would smooth things over. “I’ve just had a long week.”“Haven’t we all?” he said, but his eyes lingered on my face a little longer than necessary. “Still… feels like I barely see you anymore.”That landed harder than it should have.“We’re both busy,” I s