Chapter- 5

Alder’s POV

I am stunned to hear everything that Sirena said, still I am confused what to believe. I looked at Grace. Her eyes didn’t reflect the honesty that Sirena’s eyes did. I never thought Grace would lie to me.

“You have once again failed to see the truth,” Benau mocked me. I felt guilty and wanted to chase after Sirena to apologize for what I have said this morning.

As I stepped to leave, Grace stopped me and held my hand.

“Don’t go after her,” she said.

Now I see what’s Grace’s actual feelings are. As a friendly gesture I met her yesterday as she’s been away for the past three years. But Grace’s intention is appalling.

“Why I shouldn’t go after Sirena?” I ask. She blinked and I can see that she’s embarrassed.

“Looks like what Sirena said was true,” Grace stared at me, she couldn’t say anything for quite some time.

She couldn’t hide the truth anymore and I demanded the truth from her.

“I am sorry for what I did,” she said.

“So, you drugged me last night,” he shouted in anger, “How dare you?”

“I am sorry, Alder,” Grace panicked and held my hand.

“Why did you do that?”

Grace refused to tell me the truth.

“Answer me,” I shook her shoulders.

“I was afraid that you have fallen in love with Sirena in these three years. When I came here, I got to know that you’re not happy with her and you both aren’t living as husband and wife,” Grace said, “I thought of using this chance,”

“Why?” I asked.

“Because I still love you and I want you, Alder,” she confessed.

“Grace, that’s all in the past. Don’t you know that I am married now?”

“You’re divorced now, Alder. I was your past, then why you couldn’t love Sirena in the present,” she questions.

“There are a lot of reason for that,”

“Am I not one of the reasons?”

“No,”

“Answer me honestly, Alder,”

I stared at her beautiful eyes, “Yes, you are,’ I accepted. “But I have no desire to leave her and be with you,”

Grace looked disappointed.

“I didn’t mean to put the blame on her or on you. I wanted to make you mine, it’s something I desperately wished in my life,”

Her reasons again tricked me, it got my compassion yet I couldn’t accept it as it has hurt Sirena.

“Please don’t hate me, Alder. I love you so much,” he came close to hug me but I dodged her.

This isn’t the first time that she has done something like this. I told her that Sirena is my mate, she pursued me and I couldn’t say no to her. I gave her too much space in my life and ruined our friendship.

“I am innocent, believe me,” she requested.

I stared at her. “If you’re innocent, you would have chosen the right way. Not this stupid trick,”

Grace tried to convince me but it only elevated my headache. I never thought there’s so many other things have happened after Grace has arrives.

Like Sirena said, I am a fool. I didn’t properly look into this.

“Look at what you have done. Aren’t you remorseful?” my wolf snarled at me.

I stood there silently; I deserve to hear this accusation. I failed to see the truth, I failed to trust my mate and I have punished the innocent. All those hurtful words I said stung me back.

“You have let Lulu to leave, I told you many times to be patient but you never listened to me. You have lost something really important and you’re going to regret this forever,” Benau said. I just remained silent hearing all those banters. I am used to this, I have been hearing these for the past three years. My wolf and I had conflict over this and it’s always right. It’s wiser than me. I have never treated Sirena kindly; I was terrible to her and made her cry. She’s innocent and I have hurt her for no reason.

I realized the mistake that I have committed.

Benau absolutely hates me for what I have done. If I was in Sirena’s place and heard all those mean things from his mate, it would have hurt me more than anything. No wonder why she chose to leave me. She has gone through a lot because of my stupid ego. I don’t know how many times, I have hurt her feelings like this, I wanted to apologize for all those times.

“Alder, please talk to me,” she said, holding my hand.

I feel sorry for Grace too. She’s my first love, but after I married Sirena, I didn’t think about a life with Grace. I was committed to Sirena but not as others expected. He stayed away from her because something has stopped me all the time. I don’t know whether it’s my mom, Grace or Sirena or something else.

Now if I look back at these three years, I feel so guilty.

“Grace, leave this place and give me the keys,” I said. I knew Frank must have given the keys to her.

I didn’t invite Grace here; I will never do it as Benau would completely hate me.

“Don’t ask me to leave. I want to stay here with you,”

“Grace, give my keys and go back to the hotel,” I said. I don’t want to talk anymore. The rejection hurts me and I can’t listen to Grace’s pleas. I called the driver to take her to the hotel.

Grace isn’t willing, she kept on insisting to stay here as if I am going to marry here next. My brain aches for what I have done. The pain of rejection pounds inside me.

“Just leave, I can’t talk to you now,” I said to Grace and closed the door.

All this drama wouldn’t have happened if Frank didn’t allow her in this place. I mind linked with him and summoned him here.

I sat down on the sofa and looked at our marriage portrait. That day I never thought this marriage would end this way. Sirena looks so happy she, she’s the only person looks genuinely happy in this picture. She loved me and I never tried to see it. Frank came over, his face showed that he’s anxious. He must have realized his mistake.

“Why did you give her the keys without asking my permission?” he asks, “Don’t you know what’s happening here, why did you let her inside, even knowing Sirena would be here,” I asked.

Frank stood there silently.

“I thought you both are back together since you divorced Sirena all of a sudden,” he reasoned.

“Bullshit,” I yelled.

“I swear I won’t do this again,” Frank said.

“Yes, you shouldn’t or else you will face my other side,” I warned.

“I won’t,” Frank agreed right away.

He doesn’t want to get on my nerves. Frank is a good person; he would have fallen easily for Grace’s words like I did.

I stared at the empty house. Without Sirena, this house feels empty to me. She would run to me as soon as I enter the house, she used to ask me how was my day and what I want for dinner and so on. Even when I don’t talk to her, she put her effort to talk to me. I never gave her a proper answer and treated her critically. From now on, I don’t get to hear those things anymore. It feels weird and I muss her.

Benau miss his mate and I miss Sirena. Before I wanted her to leave my life, I have to be happy as I came out of this forced marriage but I don’t feel like that. I felt more uncomfortable to stay here. I wasn’t a good husband but Sirena never failed to act as a good wife. She never expected anything other than my presence.

She just left, leaving everything behind. I wonder what she’s going to do?

“Frank, now listen to me carefully,” I grabbed his attention, “Find Sirena and put this villa in her name. She has no place to go and she has to stay here,”

“Why? Are you feeling bad now?” Frank asks.

“Yes,” I agreed.

“You should have waited, why did you took this decision suddenly. Rejecting your mate isn’t a simple thing,” he said.

“It’s not me, Frank. Sirena wanted to divorce me,”

“But you pushed her, didn’t you,” he asks and I refrained from answering.

“I will find and let you know. She must be with her friend Louisiana,” Frank assumed.

“Sirena won’t stay in this pack, she must be outside,” I said. I knew her, not entirely but to some level. She’s the kind of person who stays far away from people who doesn’t value her. The only reason she stayed here is because of our mate bonding.

“Fine, I will find her,” Frank left and I looked at our wedding picture, regretting everything.