Chapter 88: I'M OK

—Lena—

I wake up and feel a little bit disoriented, it takes me a few minutes to get my bearings and when I finally do, everything starts crashing down on me again, the events of the last few days. Finding out about Lyanna, Jeremy's betrayal and Mari, Mari is dead.

I look to my side and Killian is completely passed out, he looks so peaceful, my husband, he's being my rock through all this. I thought he would be like the old Killian and tell me he told me so and he warned me about Jeremy, but he never said anything. Instead he's being there with me through it all, constantly telling me that none of this was my fault even though it is.

He's barely slept this past week and I don't want to wake him up, he needs his rest for what we have coming up. I try to go back to sleep, but my mind is so wired that I can't and plus the ambien has worn off. I try my best to get up from our makeshift bed carefully so as not to wake Killian up, I finally get up and he only stirs a little bu