I drink hard, knowing that my mother is not someone easy to handle. Because, she is a woman who, although she is not always at home or has much of a say in things that happen, when she does, she is firm, so firm that if it is something against my father, he should back off a little, before everything explodes.So, if I wanted to survive, I must fake dementia and stick to my perfect excuse, using my mother's little experience with a potion that she does not approve of and that therefore, she does not know all the side effects it causes.“Mother, I know that the smells may possibly resemble each other, but, it doesn't mean that they have any connection.” I say and my mother smiles.“Oh, so the characteristic smell of the she-wolf gestating is so common to the point that an idiot of ancient times made a medicine that not only offends the race of werewolves but the process of gestation. This is amazing, Rain.“Well, Mother…“Don't think I'm an idiot, Rain! You're pregnant!” shouts my moth
There were few words they had said, but they had marked me significantly. Even my craziest moment I hadn't thought about aborting my baby. But, she in just a few minutes of anger, had already given me what, according to her, was the answer to my problems.Something that logically I am not willing to accept blindly. Because his order, since it was not even a proposal, but an order without the right to refuse me, is logical for me and therefore, I do not intend to accept it.“Mother, I completely understand that you are too upset with me for what I did. But that doesn't give you any right to decide about my body, much less choose the fate of my son.“Do you think I don't have the right?” My mother asks in a mocking voice.She really looks too stressed to the point that she looks like the personification of hysteria trying to be controlled. But, it is evident that he is getting quite big about it and that is why, he is thinking about solutions that I do not plan to take.“You are my moth
I swallow hard, I know that she can take drastic measures and being honest, the last thing I want is to have a confrontation with the woman who brought me to life, but, I can't let her decide for me either.“I love you, Mother. Only God has any idea how much my love for you is, but, even for that love and respect, I will not dare to harm my son. I understand that you are disappointed...” I whisper and she interrupts me.“I'm beyond disappointed, Rain.” says my mother and I swallow hard nodding.“I understand, but, I'm not going to stop fighting, because just as I'm important to you, my baby is important to me.With sadness, I take my hand to my belly and close my eyes feeling bad because my son must go through so much just because of my irresponsibility.'If I had done things right, my baby would have been welcome among all. But how can he be welcomed if neither if“Do not compare us, you are my dear husband's d
In my right ear, a long beeping sound is heard that is annoying, but, I dare not move even a little let alone touch my affected part. Because the woman who gave me life, has left me without the possibility of moving.My mother, she is not one of the women who uses violence to teach a lesson. My family usually talks things out or at worst threatens, but, it doesn't hit. The times my mother hit me it was as a joke.That is, to walk close to her and spank me or to hit me on the arm because she is laughing too much, or to hit me on the side of my body, with her elbow so that I react because they are talking to me and I am lost in my thoughts.There are many ways where physical contact was present, but none compares to this. I was not the perfect child, but, having grown up in a house with a forest and having a nanny as my shadow, there was no reason to be beaten.But, since recently, my mother has used the blows to make me notice that she does not agree with
The hours pass and I do not move from my place, so, the snow falling from the sky almost completely covers my entire body. As I am a white color, I camouflage perfectly with this one, therefore, I seriously think about staying here to sleep.The good thing about winter is that most of the predators are wintering, so, I have the forest to myself. Here I don't have to hide my pregnancy, much less take care that someone doesn't see me crying or see my expressions worried about everything I'm going through.But, the pain of my mother's stroke doesn't go away, nor does the worry of what may be happening at the Evaniff Mansion. Because if my mother has already told my secret, most likely my father is looking for me everywhere, while my brothers are barely notified or maybe they are already with their respective partners looking for me everywhere.‘They must be very worried about me. I think it will be best to face the situation.’ I tell myself mentally getting up from the ground and then sh
Worried about not knowing what to do, I walk from one side to the other with my towel still on. I know that a pregnancy cannot be done alone and that like me, he must take his responsibility, but, I don't feel comfortable calling him, after everything that happened or what didn't happen, I don't know.“Anyway, no matter how much I do something, it can't be worse than it already is.” I say taking the phone I bought days ago, to call the phone I know by heart.With trembling hands, I type the keys that emit a sound that causes me pain, swallowing hard, I bring my finger closer to the part where when pressing I call, but, as much as I know where I should direct my finger, I am not able to do it.I have a lot of things repressed in my chest, so many truths to shout at him, that I'm afraid of breaking down when I hear that voice that I've tried hard to forget and all I've managed to do is miss him.“Don't think about it, ignore your own feelings that he causes at the possibility of hearing
The next dayMy eyes look too swollen from crying so much, so, I put cold spoons around me and ice when I place to cool the spoons. However, my swelling does not decrease, nor does the worry I feel that everything will get more complicated.My parents are not there, neither are my brothers, but, the calm I am living now, is only the possible calm before the chaos, after all, the daughter and heir of the Russian mafia boss, has been humiliated.“Just calm down a little, if you don't stress so much, the baby will suffer and you won't solve any problems.” I tell myself trying to calm down.In the confinement to which I have submitted myself, I watch television, not knowing where to move and what is worse, what to do. In order not to feel lonely, I turn on the TV, wishing to raise my mood.But, nothing gives me the calm that I implore and although I do my academic works, I do not enjoy them as before. Annia's words come to my mind and that's why, I'm not able to think about anything other
I remain silent, I have not the slightest intention of talking about what clearly hurts me. So, I try to fall asleep, although with everything I've slept, it's not possible for me.“Rain, I need us to do this together, because I can't do it alone.” says my mother and I stay silent.I don't want to look like a capricious girl, but, I have no interest in talking about what all these days, has been tormenting me. I am tired and the truth is, talking about it I will feel more exhausted.“The best thing is that we talk about what happened yesterday.” says my mother, then taking a deep sigh “Leave us alone for two hours. When they come back, she'll be ready.”The women leave and everything is left in an overwhelming silence, where I can't rest even a little. So, I stay motionless wishing that my mother believes that I am asleep.“You've been through a lot and I ruined it a lot more yesterday.” says my mothe