Chapter 13: Both of them.

Chapter 13: Both of them. 

It's already a semester break after the midterms exam. Also, It's undas break. I don't have any plans to go somewhere. Plus the fact that Ali is going home in her home town in Laguna. Jen is gonna be busy with her movie, she's now receiving a lot of good comments after the full trailer of her movie aired. 

I am cleaning our salas right now, when my phone suddenly popped out a notification. I stop mopping the floor and look at my phone. 

It's a text message from Kevin. 

From Kevin:

Hello. Ganda, arat gala. Hehe! 

Kevin really did everything just to be with me. I notice that, I just go with the flow since I don't want to hurt him. 

To Kevin:

Nope, I'm busy. Sorry. 

I replied I know It sounds so obvious that I distance myself from him. 

From Kevin:

Aww--okay lang Ganda. Hehe sorry ha. Nangungulit ako. 

I feel bad reading his reply. I bit my lower lip because of guilt. 

To Kevin:

Ahm. Nako,---

I am thinking what to reply to him when Rage texts all of a sudden. 

From Rage:

Movie? 

To Rage:

I'll try. 

Then Kevin texts again. 

From Kevin: 

Buti naman pumayag ka din Ganda. 

When I see his text that's where I realized that he is the one I sent my reply, not to Rage. 

"Oh my-" I mumble. 

From Rage:

So, what time? 

I make sure that I tap his name on the screen before I type my reply. 

To Rage:

I'll try, after lunch na lang. 

I'll try daw, pero after lunch. Sana okay ka pa Lexia. 

From Kevin:

After lunch kita sunduin ha. 

Shucks! Bakit ba ganito sila sa akin. 

I tap Kevin's name on the screen and type my reply for him. 

To Kevin:

Ahm. I'll try nga diba, I am not sure yet. 

Sana naman pumayag siya. 

From Kevin:

Basta puntahan kita mamaya jan, Ganda. 

My jaw dropped after reading his text, Rage us gonna come here and Kevin too. Urgh! I don't know anymore. 

From Rage: 

I'll fetch you up later. 

To Rage:

Ahm. Sure. 

Rage has already done a lot of good things for me. Not just because we are study buddies but we're now close. I kinda feel like I am attracted to him, but I don't want to admit that by myself. 

Since it's still morning, I have to finish cleaning the house. Mama is not here. She's with Tito Ed house. I'm glad my Mama is welcome to his family. 

Since I am cleaning I always play a song to keep me entertained while cleaning. 

I don't know if Mama is going to come home for lunch. I still prepared food just in case they were going home. 

I cooked adobo, which is my specialty. 

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I am waiting for Rage right now, he said he will be there in a minute. I comb my hair just to pass the time and when I finish that's where I heard a Rage car in front of our gate. 

I immediately took all my things and ran to him. He is wearing a simple plain black t-shirt partnered with black pants also. Konti na lang iisipin ko na nagluluksa siya. 

"San lamay?" I joked, just teasing him. 

"Sayo." My brows get furrowed to what he said. 

"At bakit?" I asked. 

"Patay na patay kasi ako sayo! Owshi." He laughed. Corny amputa. 

"Corny ka sis!" I slap his left arm. His expression changed. 

"Uy, gusto hawakan ang braso ko. Huwag ka na mahiya. Baka gusto mo makita abs ko?" He was about to lift up his shirt while saying that. We both stopped when a motorcycle came by. It was Kevin. 

"What is he doing here?" Rage asked. Pointing to Kevin na kararating lang. 

"Bakit may gala kami ni Ganda diba, Ganda!" Siniko naman ako ni Kevin pagka sabi niya. 

"What? You're just imagining things Kevin Lexia and I have a date today." Bigla naman akong inakbayan ni Rage. I saw Kevin change his expression and he looked sad. Urgh! Why is everything so complicated? 

"Grabe ka Ganda, two timer ka." Kevin threw a joke at us. I find it sarcasm. I was surprised ayokong ganon ang tingin sa akin ng ibang tao. Pinagtitinginan na nga kami dito kasi isipin ng mga chismakers, dalawa shota ko. 

"Okay, pwede namang tayong tatlo diba ang mamasyal." I suggest para tumigil na rin sila. Haba ng hair ko ha. Abot sa dulo ng Pilipinas. 

"What?"

"What?"

They both said in chorus. I swallow hard just looking at them. Baka nga isipin ng dalawang 'to two timer akes. 

"That's nice." Kevin claps his hands. I look at him, waiting to add something but none. 

"Okay, I'm in." Rage agreed. I massage my temples, these two giving me a headache. Shuta sila…

"So, saan ka sasakay sa motor o sa de-kotse." Kevin asked. I look at him curious to hear what he said. 

"Ano?" Gusto ko lang makakasiguro. 

"Diba nga tayong tatlo ang mamasyal sabi mo. Ngayon saan ka sasakay?" Kevin smiles, Rage is just quiet beside me waiting for my answers. Actually I'm in the middle of both of them. I bit my lower lip thinking if I am going to follow what Kevin said. If I choose between them, para ko na rin sinabi na isa sa kanila ang gusto kong kasama. 

I sighed. 

The two of them are waiting patiently for my choices. I just don't feel like I need to choose. Did I create my own bait? Cause it looks like yes! 

"Actually, may dadaan pa ako kay Mama sa kaniya muna ako pupunta bago ko kayo tagpuin sa mall. Movie right, balita ko maganda daw ang movie ng Kathniels ngayon. Okay see ya!" I wave and walk away from them while saying that. Eksakto may napara agad akong taxi. Doon ako sumakay. 

"Muntik na ako dun. Urgh!" Napasabunot ako sa sarili kong buhok, due to frustrations. 

Iniwan ko silang dalawa dun. Bahala na sila kung anong gagawin nila. Urgh!!! 

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Hindi talaga ako pumunta kay Mama, dumiretsyo ako ng mall at doon ako nag stay ng ilang minutes. Tsaka ko sila naisipan na itext para sumunod sa akin. 

Unang dumating si Rage. Ilang segundo pa ay dumating na rin si Kevin. 

Pumunta na kami sa movie theatre at doon pumili ng movie, tulad nga ng sabi ko movie ng Kathniels ang pinanood namin. 

Tahimik lang kaming tatlo sa upuan, though puno itong loob ng sinehan dahil Kathniels ang bida. Sa side naming tatlo walang nagsasalita tanging pag nguya ko lang ng pop corn ang maririnig mo. Kahit nga ata ultimong pag hinga namin yun lang din ang maririnig. 

Natapos ang tatlong oras na walang umiimik sa aming tatlo. Siguro sobrang awkward talaga nito para sa min. Naglalakad na kami palabas ngayon, nasa gitna parin nila ako. Ako naman nagkukunwari na tumitingin sa mga nadadaanang stall ng damit. 

"Rage bilhan mo naman si Ganda ng drinks tapos ako sa foods niya." Finally Kevin said. 

"Inuutusan mo ba ako?" Rage said in a deep voice, medyo na-takot lang ako. 

"Tanggalin ko kaya, shades at cap mo para makilala ka ng mga tao rito." Kevin shot back. 

"Gago." Rage said and walked away. Kevin didn't move and just watched Rage walking away from us. Akala ko ba ibibili niya ako ng foods. 

"Makinig ang lahat. Nandito si Rage Suarez ayun oh, nakaitim." I was shocked when Kevin said that yelling. A lot of people got his attention and immediately looked in Rage's direction. 

Kevin grabbed my wrist and we ran away. My gosh! 

Nakatakbo kami ng malayo sa pwesto namin kanina. Nang tanawin ko si Rage dinudumog na siya ng mga tao ngayon. Nakita ko pang nahubad na ang shades na soot. 

"Bakit ko ginawa yun?" I asked Kevin, nang makabawi ako sa hingal. He just looks at me and smiles. 

"Gusto lang naman kita makasama ei." He said, smiling at me. Bakit ba niya ako dinadala sa pag ngiti niya? 

"Hindi mo dapat ginawa yun, alam mo naman sitwasyon ng tao diba." I feel like I am scolding him. We look like a couple here fighting. 

"Ganon ba talaga ka gusto mo siyang kasama?" Kevin asked. 

"Ano?" I asked. 

"Gusto lang kitang makasama Lexia, kasi gusto kita kahit halata ko na ayaw mo sa akin. Wala ba talaga akong chance?" He said. Natahimik ako sa narinig ko. 

"Hindi naman sa ganon. Wala akong balak pumasok sa relasyon bata pa ako." I told him the truth, at least he didn't feel that I didn't like him at all. 

"Ganon ba? Ei si Rage ano mo siya?" He asked. Rage and I are just--I don't know what to say. 

"Ahm. Classmates!" I said. I look at my hands thinking about what I said. Rage and I are not even mutual to one another. I feel like that sometimes but I don't know anymore. 

"Lexia. Allow me to prove to you that I like you." Kevin trying to convince me. 

"Like? Like can fade away, hindi tayo 16yrs old para makasama ang isa't isa dahil lang gusto mo ako. Come on, stop that mind set. Sooner or later you will find yourself better than me." I said. Like, is he serious? Those terms are for teenagers. I am not a teenager anymore. 

"Galit ka ba?" Kevin said. 

"Paanong hindi! You ruin and make fun of Rage just because of your immature infatuation with me. Stop it Kevin. Grow up." I said and walked away. How could I accept his feeling if he only knew he liked me and that's it. No more explanations why? 

Shucks, I waste my time on both of them.