Before, he thought, maybe it was just a coincidence that the doctor had the same appearance as his deceased husband, that the boy in his dreams and the doctor had the same name. Everything could be just a coincidence but... "We have never talked about what I want and what I like," he wanted to brush it off, the feeling of being toyed with, lied to, and constantly being kept in the dark. The doctor had helped him, and Kole did so much with patience. Maybe, Kole was a friend from before. Maybe, Kai's face was just so ordinary that there will be a perfect copy of him, maybe... maybe... "Tell me, who are you?" he couldn't hide his emotion anymore, his blood boiling from confusion, his mind was too muddled he cannot fathom the situation. "Please, tell me, are you that boy in my dream?" He knew it was crazy to ask Kole about this, he could be jumping to conclusions and he might not be that boy but what can he do? Clues and shreds of evidence were already laid in front of him. It might n
[TW: Kidnapping.] Taking a deep breath, Kole started to speak, "It was seventeen years ago when we first met..." After he and Sky became lovers that rainy night, Kole started to pick up Sky at his school. Kole was in an All-Boys School while Sky was in a mixed-gender Private School. Every day, after school, Kole will quickly leave to wait for Sky outside the school gate. He will always wait for his baby to come out from that gold, high towering gate of the luxurious school. And every day he will bring Sky a gift, yesterday it was an apple, then a sandwich, dumplings, sometimes gardenia flowers, a plumeria, and a blue rose. Whatever he could think of that looks pretty or will suit Sky he will undoubtedly bring. A cute and pure love between them who were in the prime of their youth. "Sky! Here." A surge of students wearing gold yellow skirts and pants with white upper long-sleeved and yellow gold neckties walked outside of the school gate. Even if it's a hundred or a thousand stude
[TW: Kidnapping. Self-blame.]If money was involved, they could still be saved. Transactions between their parents and these people will take time but it will also give them time to plan out an escape. If there was no money involved then... what does it mean? Who was the master they were talking about? There was no time to think deeper about that sentence, they have to escape. Sky looked at Kole and as if they were talking through telepathy, they both grabbed the hair of the two kidnappers and bite their ears without hesitation. When the car zigzag, Sky then let go of the driver and open the door, both of them jump and landed on the road, rolling. When they bounced on the cliff barrier, they stood up and while holding each other's hand, run as fast as they could without looking back. It was the adrenaline that gave them instant speed, it was the desire to save each other that gave their legs extra strength and it was fear that kept them going.They have hidden in the bushes, crouc
It was a miscalculation on their part. A well-thought plan but not well-implemented and delivered. A plan that caused more injury than cure, how can they right their mistakes? They don't even know and they don't have time to think.They had a heavy feeling in their stomach as if they have indigestion, they knew that at that very moment, they both ruined and save a life. Sky had started living a new life, free from guilt and pain. He was transferred to a new school and met new people. Kole was still recovering and maybe... maybe he won't be the same as before, maybe he will be crippled or maybe he will... no matter what justification they could think of, their guilty conscience still creeps inside them like a pest. "Son?" His mother cried with happiness. Despite the guilt of their decision, they were still happy that Kole woke up."I want...to..see...Sky."The room fell silent, nobody knew what to say until the doctor saved them from the situation. Every day, Kole will ask about Sky
Sky was listening intently to Kole's story pursing his lips once in a while. Every word that comes out from Kole was another memory remembered. The flow of memories was not clear and not everything can be remembered at once but thanks to Kole some of it came back. Something he thought was important.Learning that Kole was his past lover, he finally understood why he felt familiar, why he listens to him and opens his heart to Kole quickly, turns out they have a deeper connection than he could have imagined."I'm sorry," Sky spoke in a weak voice.Kole looked at him, lashes trembling, his tears flowing to his cheeks, "Don't be. It's not your fault. It's never your fault."He will never blame Sky because he knew he had a fair share of the incident. Everything could have been avoided if that incident did not happen. If only he did not dare to tell his parents about his sexuality. Some things were better kept hidden, at least that was what he learned from this experience. "You are precio
All the pent-up emotion, the words unsaid and the longing was all let loose in that kiss. It wasn't easy for Kole to just leave Sky there, if he could he would hold on to him but he was his forgotten past and it would be taking advantage of a wounded heart.If he will start with Sky again it must be when he was better, guilt-free, and moved on from Kai. In the end, his protection, his care, and his goal to cure Sky cost him to lose him again.Kole drove to his clinic, it was already past the afternoon, with only one patient left for consultation. He was wearing black sunglasses to cover his eyes with visible traces of sobbing.Entering the clinic, he went straight to his office and sat at his table looking at the photo. Gazed fixed on it, his eyes sting again, "All I wanted was for you to be well instead I caused you much more pain."In the photo was the young Sky wearing an ocean blue sweater paired with denim shorts. The young Sky smiles brightly while holding a bouquet of gardenia
How many untold secrets will be revealed if Kole pursues Sky? How many tears will Sky shed if he knows all those secrets? Was this love worth it at the expense of Sky's pain? No. It would be better to have a separate path and bury the secrets than be with him and be continuously tormented. "I should not have appeared in front of him again..." Kole hugs the photo frame and burst out crying. This was the first time that Yara saw him this heartbroken, this helpless. Kole was always trying to make everyone happy. Always tried to make everyone feel comfortable yet deep down in his heart he hid so much pain. "... I'm an idiot. I'm truly an idiot!" Yara can't bear to see her friend in such a state. She rises from her chair and went to hug Kole. "Kole, don't be so selfless. You have the right to be happy too." Yara's tears can't be controlled anymore. "Please, you sacrificed enough. Don't let him control you!" He wished it was that easy. He really does. "He isn't fully recovered yet. Can
The first step towards change was awareness. The second step was acceptance. Sky had long been aware of his illusion of Kai. It was a big leap for him to step out of his comfort zone.He still had fear of leaving and walking outside but greater was his desire to give his remaining lifetime to someone who gave all his devotion to him and to do this he needed to brave himself and face reality.Was he going after Kole because of pity, gratitude, or conscience?It could be said that these three reasons were true but Sky knew deep down in his heart, there was still a small space that Kole occupied. A small space that now emerges and was understood after hearing the truth.After visiting Kai's grave, Sky went to the foot of the mountain, there was a small rundown hut beside the koi pond. The place was surrounded by rice paddy with yellow-colored rice husks, screaming for harvest.A man in his fifties sits in a shabby chair under the tall maidenhair tree. Its leaves are like a shape of a fan