"It's about that stupid kiss, right?"
"Shut the fuck up, I don't want to hear a word about it!" He's really trying to push the button. I've made it clear that I didn't want to talk about, but he still did. Toma really knows how to piss me off.
"I knew it. Yuji, that was nothing! Why are you so sensitive about it!?"
"I told you I don't want to talk about it!" Damn it, he's too pushy right now.
"We should really talk about it, I mean, you're not even gay to fuss over that kind of thing… right?" As he said that, I could feel my blood rushing to my face, so I decided to look the other way. "Just shut up."
"Yuji, are you… do you…" Somehow, his words made me feel confused and upset. I didn't like the thought of him talking about me that way.
I gathered myself and tried to cool down, "I need sleep, okay? It's not really about that. I'm not avoiding you or something and I'm not gay either f
It was a lie that Toma got a call from his mother. He went straight back to the city where his school is, though he doesn't plan to spend his days at the dorm.As he knocked at a door, it took a few moments before it opened and Noru was too surprised to find Toma infront of his door again. "Oh my, you look like a mess." Noru couldn't even greet Toma when he noticed that he looked horrible."Let me stay in for a few days." Toma walked in Noru's apartment without a second thought.Noru was still in shock seeing Toma near him, and what's more surprising is to find the confident Toma looking down on the floor. He tried to talk to Toma to know what exactly happened to the guy. "Hmm, let me guess, were you rejected?" Noru even chuckled."…worse, I… I kissed Yuji." Toma said as he sat on Noru's couch.His statement even made Noru more shocked than he already is."Aaaand then? Isn't t
He didn't came back even after the vacation was done. As I got back to school before the day class resumes, and he still wasn't there. Where in the world could he be right now?"Woah, you looked like you were working out." That's what I first heard from Hino when I got to my first class. And there was still no sight of Toma, he was no where to be found. "Of course, that's what I've been doing this vacation. And so that I wouldn't look like a girl, just like how you've always teased me." I told him.It's true that I just started working out these past few days, instead of being worried and anxious about Toma's absence, I started to work out as a distraction. "Hahaha, great to hear. I guess I'll be looking forward to what you'll look like after a few months.""Yeah. Just you wait and see." I grinned. I'm looking forward to this as well.After the whole day, I tried searching for Toma for atleast an hour but decided to
The two looked pale the moment they saw me."What are you doing here, Yuji?" Toma asked, slowly coming near me."I… I was just passing by-" I wasn't able to finish my sentence when Cami cut me off."This is it. We're over Toma." She said and walked away."Cami!!" Toma only yelled, and didn't even bothered chasing after her. After that, he looked at me with a very hopeless face. I was quite shocked to see something like this. Did they really just broke up infront of me?When tears were on verge of falling down on his cheeks, I walked up to him and gave him the hug he needed. He only hugged back and didn't say a word. "Let's go home, bud." I told him.I didn't know what was the reason why they broke up, but all that mattered right now is to get him back and make him rest first. "…no." He whispered."What? Is there something you're gonna do?" Don't tell me he's going t
When it was already the weekend, Toma and I planned to hang around at some place to make him feel better after his break up. Though I hate myself whenever I feel weird about Toma when the littlest things happen: like whenever we slightly touch, or whenever he stares at me, or even whenever he would call my name."…hmmm, is there something troubling you Yuji?" I didn't noticed that Toma was near me, so when I saw him beside me, I freaked out."What the hell dude! You're too close!" I immediately pushed his face far away from mine."I'm just worried, you know! You looked like you were deeply thinking about something.""It's nothing. None of your business.""Oh really?" He looked at me with doubtful eyes."Really! Geez, just leave me alone." Argh, I just can't stand this weird feeling. I tried hard avoiding his gaze so he couldn't see my face turning red."EH!? Didn't
When we were going back to our dorm, it was a coincidence that we suddenly ran to Yuu. I thought he'll just ignore us since he was walking with a group of friends, but he came to me as soon as he saw Toma and I."Hey! It's been a while!" He greeted."Yuu, nice to see you again." Toma said.Then Yuu shocked me as he completely ignored Toma and talked only to me. "How have you been Yuji? I was really looking forward to hang out with 'ya.""Oh uhh…" I suddenly felt uneasy with him around."Hmm." Toma frowned as he was ignored by Yuu. Anybody would be really upset if they were ignored like that after all. I just sighed and tried to talk properly with Yuu. "I'm fine. How about you?" Damn, it feels so awkward right now."Same, same. I'm hanging out with a few friends.""Cool.""Yeah, so I'll see you later.""Okay.""Bye Y
I'm not that stupid not to realize these recent feelings. And it's not like I haven't felt this way about Toma before. Ever since we were in highschool, sometimes I'll get this kind of feeling whenever he would get too touchy with me.Why do I feel like this about Toma? I hate it. It's just frustrating me very much, and it's not like Toma feels the same way. I should get over this. If I only can change myself..."Yuji." Ah, here it goes again."What is it this time?" I asked Toma.We're currently studying for the upcoming pre-examination and like usual, I help Toma study. He sat next to me and showed me his notebook."Here, I don't get this at all. What does it mean by that? And…" He keep pointing at all the things he couldn't understand from his notes, which is actually everything. But I couldn't focus my attention on what he's asking because I was stuck staring at his face.Was hi
Pre-examinations were already over. I survived the stressful week somehow, and it was a miracle for Toma to survive too. When we were already on our way back to our dorm to take a rest, Toma told me about his other friends that invited him to a party."They wanna celebrate that the exams were over, though there's still another examination coming again after two weeks.""That's cool. Have fun there.""Don't you want to come with me?" I'd like him being polite by asking me that, but I never really enjoyed parties. And I wasn't even invited there, so…"Nah, I'm good. I think I'll just sleep the whole night because exams drained me.""Aww I really wanted to go with you though." He said, looking really down."We always hang out. Don't you get tired of seeing my face all the time?" I know he really likes me to be with him, but I think he'll get tired of me eventually.But
"I'm back, Yuji." He muttered and laid down on me. Literally. He rested his head against my chest, and it made me feel nervous that he might actually hear my heartbeat… beating too fast."T-Toma.""Hmm?" He suddenly got his face close to mine and started to talk."You know what, Yuji? I want to confess something." It was uncomfortable…And yet, I didn't mind him leaning on me. "…I was really upset back then. Cami broke up with me just because she had to transfer to abroad." He began to talk and further lean closer on my neck that I can feel his long eyelashes on my skin."I thought she was everything I could ever hope for, and that my life is finally complete, but she… left me.""Y-Yeah, I-I'm sorry about that." I said, feeling uneasy when his arms suddenly wraps my waist."I was devastated. When Cami left, I feel like there's no sense in living in this world withou