Mag-log inSIENNA'S POV
I stood still, lost in the middle of the class with no clue how to cut out of my thoughts. The topic the professor asked about wasn't new to me, in fact, it was like my favourite nursery rhyme, “Old Macdonald”— too familiar. Yet, I couldn't say a word, not when Soren was there, seated like a king in his throne, his ocean eyes boring into my soul. My knuckles were red from too much fisting and fidgeting. My head spun, my senses escaped me. His lips— they curled up just like every other time he had scorned me, and when he flashed me that smile, I saw hell in his eyes. Not ‘hell, hell’. Just me in his bed, my wrists handcuffed to the headboard, him between my thighs never promising to be gentle. “Sienna Cruz.” Mr Rogers called. I blinked, my body jerking. My head snapped back at him. “Y—yes, Prof.” My voice sounded too low. Almost silent. I gripped the edge of the desk tightly. I felt it. That warm thick liquid. I clamped my legs together, stealing yet another glance at him. Fuck you, Soren. A curse slurred through my lips in an inaudible voice. He was always putting me at a tight end, getting me wet all the time, but never doing anything to help my crazy cravings. “Distinguish tort law from criminal law—” “I have no idea, sir.” I cut in, catching my breath as I splayed a hand across my chest. I just came again. Oh Lord, I'm gonna die. Mr Rogers squinted his brow, moving closer to me in slow steps. “Sienna Cruz?” I forced a smile. The stern look he gave made me fidget. “Isn't that so simple? Why can't you answer it? How are you going to win the defense competition this way?” “Mr Rogers—” “—I must say I'm so disappointed, Sienna. I think you're spending more time playing around rather than studying.” He spat, pointing at me, “Why don't you take a break? I think you're losing it. You've been slacking behind a lot.” “Anyone else to help her out?” Soren brushed his fingers through his hair as he stood. Everything around me took a pause as I watched his mouth move slowly, like he was chanting a spell. My eyes were deaf to his words, all I had my eyes glued on was his lips. I wanted to feel them on mine as he claimed him as his own. I rubbed my sweaty palms against my skirt. I shouldn't be going crazy over a hottie who doesn't give a damn about my feelings. I should study. I should keep the excellent remarks on my report sheet. I gulped as I came to a conclusion. I would fall for Soren no more, this was the last time I'd be ogling at his sexy body. This was— My whole body went numb the moment he winked at me. My heart stopped beating— not a pang, not a fucking beat. Jesus. The noise of applause from the class drew me out of my thoughts. I had been so carried away that I didn't even notice or hear a thing earlier. “I know I made the right choice by making you head of your team, Soren.” Mr Rogers patted him on the back. “Kudos.” He turned to me, a pitiful look on his face. “Sienna Cruz.” He took a pause before speaking again, “I think you should create more time for study. You can only prove my thoughts about your nonchalance wrong by doing well at the competition.” I shifted awkwardly, stealing a nervous glance in Soren’s way. A smug smile spread across his face as our eyes met. He raised his middle finger, letting out a sinister smile like he had already won. He certainly had, and I was the loser again. “Fuck you.” I read his lips as he mouthed. My throat tightened as I panicked, quickly looking away. That monster! I kept glancing around, anywhere away from Soren then I caught the gaze of Simon, sitting across the other end of the hall. My heart pounded when he threw that reassuring smile at me. I didn't know what to do. I didn't move, not a smile did I flash back at him. I just stood there, my fingers twitching as I tugged at the hem of my shirt. My face was all rigid, yet he kept the grin on his lips still printed. My hand moved to touch my chest and I swear it just skipped a beat. His brother made my heartbeat stop earlier and Simon was making it skip a beat now. Why were they both tugging at my heart? One was bent on renting it and the other….. advancing on fixing the broken pieces. Did Simon really care or was I the one imagining it to be so? Quickly, I looked away, swallowing so hard that my hand was still on my chest. What the hell is wrong with me? Why is my heart so weak? I snuck a quick glance at Soren, hoping he didn't notice, but the moment I peeked at him, I immediately regretted it. I couldn't look away. It was hard. There was that scary glint—one that sent goosebumps rippling across my skin. So cocky. But— Why was that angry curl hanging at the corner of his lips? I looked down at his hands and found them fisted, his veins flexing. “Sienna!” I jumped. My lips tightened. Shit! Mr Rogers placed a hand on my shoulder, staring at me with that pitiful look like I had my head stuck in thorns. He looked sorry, why? “You blacked out. Again.” He added, now moving away. Jesus. I thought I was seated. I looked over my shoulder and caught Soren grimacing. Bastard. He did it again—making me distracted, making a fool out of me. The class erupted with laughter as they jeered at my stupidity. Turning away, I looked down, wiping the tear that slipped from my eye. “This is getting out of hand, Sienna.” Mr Rogers' strict voice sliced in, “and if you don't handle it, you might lose control.” His words wouldn't leave my head as I exited the school building. I heaved a sigh, running a finger through my hair. I'm running insane. He was right. I stopped at the bus stop waiting for the campus bus, and when it eventually approached, halting right in front of me, I didn't even make an attempt to move. His school bag hung lazily around his shoulder as he hopped in, hands dipped in his pockets, pulling that majestic walk like he owned the universe. There was no way I was getting into that bus if Soren was there too. If I was so sure I wanted to stop falling for him then I had to run away from him too, keeping myself out of sight completely. Erasing him from my head wouldn't be easy. I had been lost in love with him for more than 3 years now. It'd be hard, yes and I was ready to take the risk, if that would prevent me from losing myself to him any longer. I heaved a sigh after the bus left. Now, I can breathe. I looked up, and the sun was still out and hot against my skin. Sigh…. I needed a cold soda. I stopped at a nearby shop, ordering two cans and gulping them down in two shots. A hum escaped my lips as the bottom hit the table. Nice. It worked. This was exactly what I needed. Now, how do I make it home under this scorching sun? It's so hard to find a cab at this time. Not here in the University area, only a few buses stopped by. Maybe I should keep myself busy with reading then I could find my way home when the sun goes down. A small note slipped from my book as I flipped it open. I gasped when my eyes read its content. It was the schedule Simon scribbled that day. Fuck. I bit my lip, pulling my hair. Why did I forget such an important event? ‘At my place.’ My heart sank when his words replayed in my head. No way. I can't go to Simon's house. I would surely bump into Soren then I might squirt again and get myself embarrassed. I jerked when my phone beeped and checking it, a message from Simon popped up. ~I'll be expecting you. Please make it here.~ Cussing under my breath, I scrambled my books back into my bag and left the shop, taking hurried steps towards the entrance. I have to return home. Plugging in my headphones and staring up at the ceiling would help. I should study on my own. Clasping my palms together, I hissed. I'm sorry, Simon but I changed my mind already. I didn't text him back to give an explanation as to why I had suddenly decided not to show up anymore. I just held the strap of my bag in a tight grip, marching away. Something bubbled in me. I didn't know if it was eagerness or anger. Maybe I really wanted to see him, maybe I missed him already. Maybe I missed the way he made me drop. ‘Return home, Sienna!’ That tiny voice in my head rang but I ignored it. Soon, I found myself going west, which was obviously not the way to Maryland, where I lived. It wasn't until I knocked on the door that my sanity returned. “Where the fuck am I?” I gasped, looking around in shock like a lone wolf in the woods. Shit, it wasn't even 5pm yet. But it was too late. I had walked right into the den and the lions would surely prey on me. I remained at the doorstep, my palms clasped together, chills running down my spine. No answer came. No one answered the freaking door. I moved closer, my hand on the doorknob. Squeaking it open, I walked in. My legs carried me on. The hallway was dark, only a streak of sun rays flickered through the slightly shoved curtains. I wrapped my arms around myself. Anxiety—I felt it. Yet, I never turned back. I kept my steps on, until I saw that black wooden door. I wasn't sure whose room it was but something about it pulled me in. One step. Two. Three. Fucking four and I was standing in front of the door already. ‘Sienna Cruz, what the hell are you doing?!’ The same tiny voice in my head screamed— it always did, it warned but I never listened—not for once, even when I knew I wasn't right. I shouldn't be doing this. This isn't my house! Ain't I trespassing? Tsk. My hands ran faster than my brain did. I gripped the door handle already, even before I thought it was wrong. Why did I want to go in? No clue. B—but, isn't there something special behind this wooden door? I wanted to know, wanted to explore even though it was none of my business. Just this once. Just this once, I'd walk in then I'd turn around and slam the door behind me and run away if I find nothing interesting. Every breath flew from my lungs when I saw him. He was naked. Cladded in nothing. Only covered in sweat that clung to his body like sin. My chest thudded, my heart almost renting in pieces. Why did I walk in? Only if I had listened to my damn instincts I wouldn't be here, witnessing a scene like this. “Y—you! What are you doing?” The words escaped my lips low, almost like a whisper. He looked up, a lopsided grin tugging at his lips. Then, he put his phone aside and walked closer to me, each step making me hiss in regret. “What does it look like I'm doing, Sienna?” He stopped in front of me, inches apart, his hands gripping my waist firm and pinning me against the wall. “S—Soren.” He placed a finger on my lips, leaving my words hanging in my throat. “I'm happy you came.” He said, leaning in. “Welcome, Senorita.” He whispered in my ear, sending a jolt through me and with that he locked his lips with mine, claiming all of me.Chapter Fifteen — Threat SOREN’S POVMia's scream shook the place, and for one frozen second the entire room held its breath.“You think you can steal my boyfriend and play the victim?” She jabbed a finger toward Sienna, the phone still raised like evidence in a trial none of us had asked for. “The whole world’s about to see what kind of homewrecker you really are.”I felt Sienna flinch against me. My hand was already on the small of her back under Simon’s jacket, possessive and protective, that was the only thing I could offer without the cops dragging me away. Her body was still warm from the car, still carrying the ghost of what we’d done, and the guilt in her eyes nearly broke me. She looked up at me, then at Simon, tears spilling over like she was drowning right there between us.‘God, Senorita. I did this to you.’ I lamented inwardly.The detective stood slowly, the chair scraping loudly, making everyone tense. “Everyone sit down. Now put your phones on the table. I want no mor
Chapter Fourteen — Torment SOREN’S POVI drove the Mustang with so much energy as anger burned within me. I kept moving behind,staying glued to the police cruiser’s bumper, red and blue lights painting my windshield in streaks that blurred with the tears I refused to let fall. My knuckles turned white as I gripped the wheel and every shift of the seat reminded me she had been mine, completely and desperately mine, only minutes ago in the car parked by the lake.But now she was in the back of that cruiser with ‘him’.Simon.My twin. The one who always played the good guy and the one whose jacket was probably wrapped around her shoulders right now, whispering words of safety and promises I could never make. I could see his silhouette through the rear window, his head bent close to hers, and his hand probably stroking her knuckles the way he did when he thought no one was watching. It was gentle and caring. He was the brother she was supposed to want.It fucking killed me.I loved her.
Chapter Thirteen — Secrets UnveiledSIENNA’S POVThe countdown hit zero in my chest before the video could even finish loading.“3… 2…” and the next second, the world exploded in red and blue.Police lights flooded the clearing like it was judgment day, painting Soren’s face in harsh stripes while he was still half-buried inside me, hot and real and terrifyingly right. My thighs trembled around his hips. Cum was already slipping down my skin, sticky and undeniable, and all I could think was “this is how they’ll find me, half-naked, ruined and caught between the two boys who were never supposed to touch me’.Simon’s hand was still outstretched, his jacket dangling from his fingers like a white flag no one would accept. His almond eyes were glassy and he didn't seem to be angry but with this quietness, I noticed hurt clinging around him. “Sienna,” he breathed, his voice so soft. “Let me cover you. Please, before they see.” He stepped forward, even as Soren’s grip tightened on my wa
Chapter Twelve — Shattered in the MiddleSIENNA’S POVEverything inside me cracked at once.Soren was still buried deep in me, thick and pulsing, his hands gripping my hips like I was the only thing keeping him from falling apart. His ocean eyes burned into mine and it was not just lust anymore, but something raw and almost desperate. Like he was silently begging me not to choose the safe road again. My body trembled around him, still fluttering from the orgasm that had ripped through me seconds ago, but my heart… my heart was bleeding now.Simon stood frozen at the open car door, the golden afternoon light catching the tears already gathering in his almond eyes. His wavy brown hair was messy from the wind, and his chest rose and fell like he had run the whole way down to this place. “Sienna…” The word came out of his mouth broken and softer than any touch he had ever given me. “I drove here to hold you and to be the brother who makes your nightmares stop and now I find you in Soren'
Chapter Eleven — Tangled FlamesSIENNA’S POV Soren’s black Mustang pulled out of the mansion like it was running away from a crime scene. I sat shotgun, my dress still wrinkled from last night, my heart hammering so hard I could feel it in my throat. ‘This is wrong. So wrong.’ I kept chanting in my head, repeating it like a prayer, but my body betrayed me. My thighs clenched at the memory of his hands, my skin still tingling where he’d touched me yesterday. He glanced over at me with one hand on the wheel and the other sliding onto my bare knee. “You’re thinking too loud, Senorita. Are you regretting this already?” His voice was low and rough, his ocean gaze dark with hunger. “I should be,” I whispered, but my fingers found his anyway, tracing the veins on his forearm. “I just ran from my mom, from Simon… from everything. And now I’m here with you. The one who’s supposed to be my stepbrother.” Soren’s laugh was dark. He pulled off the main road onto a hidden dirt path leadin
Chapter Ten — Complicated Morning SIENNA’S POV Sunlight streaked through the half-open curtains as I woke up tangled in Simon’s jacket, the faint smell of his soap clinging to my skin, but my mind was somewhere else, somewhere back on the balcony, caught between two brothers. I checked my phone, it was 6:17 a.m. and there were three missed calls from Mom: ‘Sweetie, come for breakfast in the garden at 8! Family bonding time! 💕’I almost laughed. Bonding. Little did she know we had spent the night ripping the family apart. I sat up on the big shared couch in the common area of the suite, my hair a mess and my dress wrinkled from too much tossing and turning. Simon’s door was slightly open and I could hear soft breathing. Soren’s door on the other hand was shut tight, but a thin strip of light underneath told me he did not sleep last night either. My bare feet walked across the cool floor. I should’ve gone to Simon, he was safe and kind, and he was the one who’d held me without d
Chapter Eight — The Echoes of BetrayalSIENNA’S POV My heart slammed against my ribs like it was going to tear apart any moment from now. Simon stood there, just a few feet away with his usual soft almond eyes now wide with disbelief. His wavy brown hair looked messy, like he’d been running his
Chapter Seven— Shattering ChaosSIENNA“Do you, Davis, take Julianne to be your lawful wedded wife, to have and to hold, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do you part?” The priest's voice echoed through the hall, loud and clear.Mom's face lit
Chapter Six—WantSIENNAThere was a knock at the door, and when I opened it, I was stunned to see the person standing there.Simon—he was right before me, his lips wide with a smile.I grinned awkwardly, rubbing my sweaty palms together. “What are you doing here?”“Well,” he sighed, “why don't you
Chapter Five — Steam And Grief SOREN’S POV The sun kept slipping in and out as the bus drove past the trees. My chest tightened. I was missing someone—Mom. Fuck Davis and every single lie he fed her until she couldn’t breathe anymore. Fuck the way he broke her with Julianne, sneaking around fo







