Ruthless Amnesia

POV: Matteo

"Repeat after me," the elder said, and I opened my mouth before my brain caught up with the words.

"I, Matteo Rocha, take this bond—"

My voice came out steadier than I felt. Good. Let it.

The great hall was packed shoulder to shoulder, every pack elder and council member and Callahan cousin twice removed crammed into seats that used to be my brother's to fill. Candlelight everywhere. Too much of it. I could feel the heat of it on my neck, could feel two hundred pairs of eyes doing the math on me — the spare, the understudy, the one who filed the correspondence while his brother learned to be Alpha-consort.

Rhys stood across from me, close enough that I had to tip my head back to hold his eyes.

I hated that I noticed him. Not the marriage. Not the hall, not the elder's droning voice. Him. The way he filled the space he stood in without needing to move. Broad through the shoulders in a way that made the ceremonial robes look like they belonged to him and not the other way around. Still, in the way a held breath is still.

He was devastating to look at, and I resented every second I spent confirming it.

"Rhys Callahan," the elder said, turning to him. "Do you accept this bond?"

"I accept," Rhys said.

Clean. Certain. The kind of voice that had never once had to ask permission for anything in its life.

Then he leaned in — close enough that his mouth was almost against my ear, close enough that anyone watching would call it tender.

"I will never see you as anything but a debt paid," he said. Quiet. Just for me. "Understand that now, so neither of us has to pretend later."

I didn't flinch. I want that on record. I didn't flinch, even though something in my chest folded in on itself like paper.

"Understood," I said back, just as quiet.

Two words. That was all I let myself give him.

The elder didn't hear it — she was already reaching for the ceremonial blade, murmuring the old words about blood and binding, and I watched Rhys's face do absolutely nothing while mine was doing everything.

I felt them then. The elders in the front row. Mira Thornwood, who'd never once in twenty-four years remembered my name at a council dinner, was watching me now like I was something rare.

"Such courage," she'd said to me an hour ago, hand pressed to her chest. "Stepping up like this. Saving both families."

Courage. That's what they were calling it. Nobody in that hall knew I hadn't been saving anyone. Nobody knew that somewhere underneath the grief for my brother, there'd been a second feeling I never said out loud — a hunger, ugly and immediate, for a room to finally look at me like I mattered.

I got my wish. I just hadn't read the fine print.

"Your hand," the elder said to Rhys, and held out the blade.

He took my wrist. His grip was careful — too careful, like he was handling something breakable he didn't particularly want to hold.

"This will only take a moment," he said, and for a second his voice wasn't performing for anyone. It was just talking to me, low, almost human.

"I know how it works," I said. "I've read the ceremony texts. I used to file them, remember?"

The corner of his mouth moved, just barely, before he caught it and flattened it back into nothing. "Right," he said. "Of course you have."

The blade was cold against my skin, and then it wasn't cold at all — it was fire, quick and clean, and I heard myself make a sound I hadn't given permission for.

Rhys's hand trembled.

I felt it before I understood it — a small, involuntary tremor running through the fingers wrapped around my wrist, right as the mark began to seal. I looked up at him fast, but his face had already smoothed back into nothing. Whatever that was, he'd buried it before I could name it.

The mark burned brighter than I expected. Brighter than what I remembered from the texts I used to file — a strange, sharp gold instead of the dull amber the old records described. It pulsed once against my skin like something alive, and I felt it settle somewhere under my sternum, somewhere I didn't have a word for.

Nobody commented on it. Not the elder, not the crowd, not Rhys. Maybe it was nothing. Maybe I was the only one who saw it flare that wrong, too-bright color before it faded into an ordinary mark like it was supposed to be.

I kept turning it over anyway, even as the elder lifted her hands and the whole hall rose to its feet around us.

"By blood and binding," she said, "I declare this bond sealed. Rhys Callahan. Matteo Rocha. Husbands, and Alpha and consort, before pack and council."

The hall erupted — applause, some cheering from the younger cousins, someone near the back letting out a sharp wolf-whistle that made a few elders tut in disapproval. All of it washed over me like noise from very far away.

Rhys's hand was still against mine. Still trembling, faint but there, a small betrayal his body hadn't gotten the memo to stop.

I looked up at him one more time before the elder could pull us apart for the next part of the ceremony — and for exactly one second, something moved behind his eyes that had no business being there.

He looked afraid.

Not annoyed. Not cold, not performing, not any of the careful nothing he'd worn since he first said I accept.

Afraid. Of me.

And then it was gone, tucked back behind that same unreadable stillness, like it had never happened at all.