CHAPTER EIGHT: Thank You

"It's okay to cry, Darling."

Lilie

I hate myself. I feel that no matter what I do to bathe or rub my body, his hands are still here.

His hands I do not want to feel his hold. I don't like this anymore. With each passing day, I only become more and more self-loathing.

This is how I always feel about myself. Disgust, anger, all I can do is hate myself, even more

"I'm disgusting, I'm disgusting," I whispered repeatedly while punching myself. I hurt every part of my body. I just want to be numb.

"No one will accept you, no one will love you, Lilie. No one will accept my whole being because I am dirty," I sobbed and I strengthened my punch even harder.

"Hey," someone called me but I didn't look at him because I already knew who he was. The man never tires of me.

"Don't call yourself worthless, don't hurt yourself, please," he pleaded. I stepped away and wrapped myself in a blanket as he leaned over me.

"Who will accept me?" I whispered. I just stared at him for a moment.

"I’m the one, I’m the one Lilie. I’m the one who will accept you," he replied to me causing me to suddenly look at him. I saw that his hand was outstretched to me. I just kept an eye on it.

"I'm the one who will save and accept you, Lilie. Let me save you, let me heal you."

After 3 months ...

It has been three months since I was able to recover from that incident.

During the three months I was recovering, I went through a lot of hardships. Sometimes I hurt myself, sometimes I dream of what he did to me. Sometimes I just stared at my darkroom.

I remember what happened three months ago. Until now I still can not forget the warmth of his hug.

"No, please! I'm begging, don't! Let me go!" I shouted but he seemed deaf. I recognized the shout but I was just surprised when he suddenly pointed a gun at me in the head.

I was able to get up while shouting, I felt like he was just around and ready to do what he did to me again. I can also feel the cold sweat dripping down my face.

"That's enough! That's enough!" I screamed over and over while covering my ears. I was just shocked when someone hugged me causing me to push him away. My fears only increased.

But he did not let go of me, but he hugged me even more. He let go of my hug and went in front of me.

He touched my cheek and wiped away my tears. "Lilie, this is Lucas." When I saw him, I just realized that I was hugging him.

"I'm scared Lucas, I'm scared."

My anxiety disappeared with a hand waving in front of my face. When I looked at who it was, it was Lucas, he had a wide smile and stood in front of me.

"Deep down you thought, in the depths you did not notice my presence," he said so I just laughed.

"I'm sorry," I replied and I noticed he was just in his casual clothes. Sometimes when it was about seven in the morning he got dressed formally and entered his office.

"Aren't you in? It's not Saturday yet." Every Saturday is their rest day. I already know his schedule. In the three months, I have been here, I may not have memorized it.

"You know me, don't you? Even you know my rest day," his voice showed joy when I said that. So I just smiled at him and nodded in response.

No one spoke to the two of us, we just felt around. I enjoy watching the flowers because they are different colors so they are comfortable in watching. Relieves sadness.

"Lucas Nixon Montiero," I looked at the person next to me when he suddenly spoke. "That's my full name, in case you don't know my full name yet or you forgot."

"I have a younger sister named Julie Ann Montiero and she is in another country now. My parent's name is Nixon Montiero, that's my father's name while my mother is Alicia Montiero. They died in a car accident intentionally," he explained so I looked at him when he said he intentionally the accident of his parents.

"I mean, they intend to kill your parent?" I asked so he nodded at me. "Has the maker found them? Has he been imprisoned?"

"They have been found and I will make sure they can no longer get out of jail." And when I looked at Lucas I could see the anger in his eyes. So I did not realize I was holding his hand and gently squeezing it.

He looked at me because of what I did. I just smiled at him. "You know, honestly. We should get rid of the anger in our hearts. Me, I hate the things they did but when I get angry I lose it immediately. Because when our hearts are full of anger, we will not be happy, "I assured with a smile as I stared into his eyes.

He smiled at me and he said, "You? Where is your family? If you are ready to tell me but it isn't, it's okay."

I laughed at what he said. I took a deep breath before talking to him. Maybe there is nothing wrong, right?

"My Mom died three months ago, while my Dad ... went with another woman. After all that happened, I never thought that would happen in my life."

I looked up to stop the tears from dripping from my eyes, I felt Lucas's grip on me tighten.

"It's okay to stop Lilie, especially when you're not ready for your story," he said so I shook my head and continued.

"Then, you know, at my Mom's funeral ... I waited for him but he didn't even come. I was very upset with him then. Because I need someone to lean on and then he is gone."

I took a deep breath first and he wiped away my tears. I turned my face away because I was ashamed of Lucas.

"I told myself, of all the bad luck I guess I'm the most unlucky, are you kidding. I lost my Mom, my Dad lost and then something bad happened to me," I crouched down and I continued to cry the last thing I said.

Lucas hugged me and comforted me, I just sobbed and wiped away my tears. I was still shaking because I was crying.

"It's okay, I'm here. Don't cry Lilie," he whispered to me and caressed my back.

I let go of his hug and wiped my tears again, I looked at the hand we both held. I was about to remove my hand when suddenly someone sang.

"We hold hands unconsciously ..." we looked at the singer and it was Elise. I grabbed my hand from Lucas and I felt my cheek turn red.

"What are you doing here?" Lucas asked so Elise overtook him from the seat and she took his place.

"Of course, I'm visiting my patient," she looked at me at once, "Right, Lilie?" so I just nodded and laughed because she annoys Lucas again.

"Oh my gosh! One of the most millionaire people in the world is annoyed because I interrupt their moments."

...

I stood up because there was a knock on the door. When I opened it, it was Lucas who still seemed embarrassed. "Why? Do you need anything?" I asked so he stared at me and scratched his head.

"I just want to invite you, if you will. The two of us will go for a ride," he said not being able to look at me directly so I smiled.

So I thought carefully first. There is nothing wrong with me agreeing, right? Maybe it's also a response to what he does to me.

"Okay," I just answered and closed the door. I just smiled and went straight to the bathroom to take a bath and it would not be embarrassing for Lucas if I was the one to catch him and wait for him.

When I came down I saw Lucas sitting on the sofa. He was wearing a red polo and white khaki shorts so his whiteness and good looks appeared even more. I try to get my words out of my mind. It would be embarrassing if Lucas heard me when I could say it.

"Stop staring, I know I'm handsome," he boasted to me so I frowned. I will admit he is handsome but sometimes he has much confidence in himself. So he just laughed and we got in the car.

After 1 hour.

When I came down I was glad because we went to the Enchanted Kingdom. It was two years ago when I came here. Many worries entered me but I immediately removed them because they would only hurt me. So I quickly pulled Lucas over.

"Let's go!" I shouted and we finally got inside. Others are already looking at us but we don't care. I enjoy what I see now. While my companion was in the back and holding the cellphone. I don't know if he is taking a picture or not.

"Woah!" we both screamed when we finished on the rollercoaster. I was just surprised when Lucas suddenly ran to the trash can and vomited there. So I gave him water and caressed his back.

"Are you alright?" so he laughed and just nodded. "Your weak!" I shouted so he looked at me and approached me so I ran.

But we just stopped because five women approached him and took a picture. I just remembered that Lucas was famous. So I slowly moved away to sit on a bench because I was tired. But I was surprised when he suddenly grabbed my hand and folded it.

"I'm sorry, we have to go," he said goodbye and pulled me away. The women were amazed at what they saw.

"O my gosh! Who is she ?!"

"Maybe, his girlfriend."

"Girl's luck, hopefully all!"

That was the last I heard because they disappeared from my sight. I noticed others taking pictures of us so I tightened my grip on his hand. I was surprised when Lucas hugged me as we walked.

"Stop taking pictures," he threatened in a cold voice. Others followed but some of them still took everything, we did nothing but move on.

...

"Aren't we going home yet? "I asked as we sat here on the bench. It was already night so I wondered why we had not come home yet. And it was embarrassing because he had been giving me too long.

"No, we'll wait for the fireworks," Lucas said so I looked at him. "Really ?!" so he just nodded.

"But you still have a lot to do, there is still time here ... if there is more," I whispered in the last word that came out of my mouth causing him to stare at me.

"It's alright, Lilie. I have a lot of time when it comes to you," he promised with a smile so I was stunned and my heart beat faster. I quickly averted myself and tried to calm myself down.

"Ladies Gentlemen, we will start our fireworks display in 10 seconds! So lets all count!" the emcee shouted so the others shouted and I stood up.

Ten!

Nine!

Eight!

Seven!

Six!

Five!

Four!

Three!

Two!

One!

The sky was filled with different colors of fireworks so I smiled. I looked at the person next to me watching so I did not realize I was holding his hand.

Maybe this is the time to thank him.

"Lucas, I just wanted to say ... Thank you for everything, thank you for saving me, and thank you for coming into my life," I said and give him my genuine smile.

Lucas

I was amazed at how the fireworks colored the sky tonight. But, I was stunned for a moment when Lilie hold my hand and look at me directly.

All I can see is her right now in these crowded people and magical places. She smiled at me and says something that's the reason why my heart melted and my lips formed a smile. I didn't know what will gonna say to her, all I can do is to stare at her face and memorized it.

"Thank you for coming into my life, too."