Save Me (Montiero Series #1)

When life brings you down. What will you do? You will blame yourself and take all the responsibility that has been given to you? Or You will blame God for all the pain that you have encountered in your life?  But for Lilie De Vega, she blames herself, because she knew to herself that she deserved it. She deserves the pain, the misery, she deserves everything that happened to her.  After all the self-doubt, pain, the misery that she had encountered, she became senseless. For her, no one will save her. No one wants to be in her life because she was a worthless human that lost her virginity by the nightmare that she suffered. For her, no one will love her, no one will accept her. But every time she was wondering if someone would save her and be with her until

Lilie One week is all you have. I haven't seen Dad with a woman in a week. That day, I was in excruciating discomfort. I wanted to chase them both down, but I'm a coward, so Dria and I took a picture of them together instead. Throughout that week, I followed Papa at all times, but each time I did, I was hurting furthermore, not just for myself but also for Mama. And I kept it hidden from her for a week. I don't want to cause Mom any pain. "Lie. Are you okay?" I was taken aback when I heard Mama calling me and realized that she was standing beside me, her face concerned. "I've called you before, and you're not even moving or looking at me; do you have a problem? Or are you having difficulties synchronizing your work and study?" he said, as I tried to smile and shake. "Nothing, Mama. I'm just having trouble with what I'm reviewing," I explained, pointing to my notebook, which was now empty and unwritten. I silently frowned since I had received the incor

TRIGGER WARNING! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! "Everything happens for a reason." Lilie I enjoy the environment and the air that blows into my body causing my hair to swell as well. I held the flowers I could see and passed them on my palms. I just smiled because this feeling is soothing. There was a woman behind me and even behind her, I knew who she was. I walked closer to her until my pace turned quickly and when I got close to her, she unexpectedly disappeared like a bubble. I wakened because of my dream. I was alarmed and looked around the four corners of my room and wondered if she was there. I just shut down my eyes and let my tears flow at the same time I smiled painfully. It's just a dream. With each passing day, I feel like I don't want to wake up. Because in my dream, I was with my Mom but when I woke up she was gone, back to normal again. Each day I feel more and more alone in life. Dreaming is better than reality. Every day that ope

TRIGGER WARNING! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!"There's hope after the pain." Third Person Lilie woke up to the darkness that opened her up causing her to be even more nervous and her hand to tremble. She did not realize that there were tears in her eyes, she just let them go and did not wipe them. She was even more scared because she did not know where she was now. Whether she is safe here or trustworthy who is the one who took her. She wants to run away, she wants to hide and not just live here on earth. She did not know what she had done wrong to make the world do this to her. She dreamed again of what had happened to her a few weeks ago. She felt that the man was just around here and ready to do what was done to her again. The girl just pulled her hair and grip it tightly, she did not know what to do. She is scared. She wants to forget everything, but how? She just screamed when someone held her hand causing him to tremble even more and her fear preva

"It's okay to cry, Darling."Lilie I hate myself. I feel that no matter what I do to bathe or rub my body, his hands are still here. His hands I do not want to feel his hold. I don't like this anymore. With each passing day, I only become more and more self-loathing. This is how I always feel about myself. Disgust, anger, all I can do is hate myself, even more "I'm disgusting, I'm disgusting," I whispered repeatedly while punching myself. I hurt every part of my body. I just want to be numb. "No one will accept you, no one will love you, Lilie. No one will accept my whole being because I am dirty," I sobbed and I strengthened my punch even harder. "Hey," someone called me but I didn't look at him because I already knew who he was. The man never tires of me. "Don't call yourself worthless, don't hurt yourself, please," he pleaded. I stepped away and wrapped myself in a blanket as he leaned over me. "Who will accept me?" I whispered. I just stare