HAILEY POV
I brush my hair and for once I leave it down. I put on one of my nicer shirts and spray on a dash of perfume before heading to the leaving room.
"Dad you ready," I call out knowing today might take him a little longer then usual.
Today is my parents anniversary and one of the hardest days for my dad. He always puts on a brave face for me but I know he is hurting. Luckily this year it is falling on a Sunday and he can vent a little in grief class. Since mom passed before I could make any memories with her, it is hard to connect to dad's feelings sometimes.
For me I am sad that I don't know or remember the woman who brought me into this world. But for dad it is more about missing someone he knew and loved with all his heart. The loss is greater for him. The class really helps us. It helps dad cope and it helps me understand what my dad is going through.
"Coming kiddo," dad says as he exits his bedroom with a sad smi
DYLAN POV. TWO MONTHS. LATER PG 13 "What do you two want to see," Curt asks while looking at Leena and Hailey while smiling. I squeeze Hailey's hand as she shivers slightly. Winter is definitely making it's presence known tonight. "Let's see the new minion movie," Leena squeals while bouncing on the balls of her feet. Curt looks at us for confirmation and we shrug. "Sure. Plus I don't think Leena is gonna take no for an answer," Hailey says while laughing at her friend. "Just choose so we can get inside," I say moving to stand behind Hailey. I wrap my big arms around her so she can be sheltered from the wind. "Minions, it is," Curt says taking out our combined allowance card. He pays quickly while I place kisses all over my little beauty's head. She snuggles more into my embrace and I smile. God I love this girl. Tonight is our second double date with Curt and Leena, plus my first night driving BB again. I am literally floating with untethered ha
DYLAN POV I park my truck the best I can in one of the open parking spots. There is no way I am driving home currently. I can't even see my hands on the steering wheel. I sob as tears streak down my face. Hailey's beautiful broken eyes are burned in my mind. Rage at my own idiocy bubbles to the surface and I yell. I punch my steering wheel repeatedly causing the horn to go off several times. I bang my head against the unyielding wheel while cuss words scream from my mouth. The sounds of her heart breaking are replaying over and over in my ears. Repulsion with myself consumes my heart. How could I do that to her? Why did I keep them? This morning her joking jab had stung my heart and I had really considered deleting all the disgusting images off my phone. But I didn't. Once again I was weak and decided I needed them. I had even smiled at Trish after dropping Hailey off at first period, because of the shot she had sent me.
HAILEY POV It's kind of funny when a couple breaks up it is like the friend group has to divorce. Dylan and I have been over for a week. The first day at lunch was the weirdest. Graham, Jasmine, and Luke had all been at our usual table until they saw Dylan go sit by himself. Luke had given me one look and I guess my appearance told him everything he needed to know. As soon as he left the other two followed. Which was sad because I really like them. But Dylan needs good friends. Everyday has been a struggle. My only peaceful day was Saturday. Even though Dylan messages me goodmorning and goodnight everyday, it was the only day I didn't have to see him. Leena, Curt, Colt, and Shawn have been wonderful. They all completely agree with my decision of moving on, even though my heart is still battling. Everytime he messages me it takes all the strength I have not to message him back. It's so hard to force myself to not think of al
DYLAN POV Three weeks. Three weeks of torture but it is about to get so much worse Christmas break starts Friday and I won't be seeing her except for Sundays. I finally stopped texting her. I need to leave her alone. Curt, Colt, and I haven't really spoken to each other either. Football is over and I drive myself to and from school. So I really don't see them. Graham and Jasmine broke up. Graham found out she was messaging Eric. He has been just as mopey as me. Luke the poor guy tries to keep our spirits up.......but it's not use. I no longer attend meetings but I still talk to Benjamin. (mentor) Dad and I both agreed that I was doing great. And that the class was more awkward then beneficial. I still miss the high of watching porn or sleeping with girls, but if it isn't Hailey, I don't want it. I get home and throw my keys on the kitchen counter. I shut t
ONE YEAR AND SIX MONTHS LATERHAILEY POV I skip down the hall happily before wrapping my arms around dad's neck. Dad chuckles and puts down his newspaper. He is off today so he can come to the ceremony. "Are you ready kiddo," Dad asks with twinkling eyes. "Beyond ready dad. I can't believe I finally made it," I say grabbing my coffee mug. "Well just so you know, I am yelling for two parents so don't expect me to be dignified," Dad says getting up and walking to the couch. Dad reaches down behind the couch and pulls out a huge sign. I burst out laughing. Dad has made himself a neon sign with black letters, that says, "I am Hailey Evan's Dad!!!!!!!!!" "Your mom knew she wasn't going to make it. She told me at all your big life events I was to go as overboard as possible. To make up for her not being there," Dad says with slightly misty eyes. But his smile say
DYLAN POVI follow dad's SUV with butterflies in my stomach. After watching Hailey and Curt walk the stage we had all met outside to take pictures. Hailey and I hadn't spoken but everytime I looked at her she was looking at me and vice versa.Curiosity about what she was thinking is still eating me alive. Is she happy? Upset about seeing me? Does she miss me like I miss her? I wish I was Shawn. I wish I got to hold her hand or listen to her rambling about right from wrong. To hear her laugh at my jokes or to send me the "be nice" look.I sigh as I pull BB into the drive. I haven't had a single girl in my truck since the night Hailey broke up with me. I wish I knew what her perfume was. I would have it as a permanent air freshener.I head to the backyard. Mom has everything decorated to the nines. Balloons and banners are everywhere, just like they had been at my party. I open the iron gate and let my eyes scan the already growing crowd.
HAILEY POV 8:47 a.m Dylan- Picking you up at 2 for our date. Curt and Leena will be joining us. Wear a swimsuit. P.S Goodmorning BeautifulHailey- Okay see you soon. Goodmorning. :) I smile and press my phone to my chest. I missed his goodmornings so much. Shawn rarely sent me texts and most of them were venting about annoying things in his life. I still can't believe I acted so boldly yesterday. I had kissed Dylan and loved every second of it. The look of joy on his face will be imprinted onto my brain for the rest of my life. He had literally cried he was so happy. I sigh, I can't believe we have been apart for so long. We seem to falling right back into place. I get up when I hear dad's whistle from the kitchen. Dad and I sleep in on the weekends. 8:30-9 is late for us. Luckily I took the weekend off for graduation so I wouldn't have to be cutting my time
DYLAN POV Swimming was amazing. Hailey was so carefree. She laughed and swam like she didn't have a worry in the world. Everytime she grazed me, I had to seperate myself though. She was activating a part of me that I have put into hibernation and to be honest, it scared me. Last time we were together I controlled those urges by using porn. This time I have nothing to take that edge off. I never want to become sexually frustrated with Hailey. She deserves romance and courtship. She deserves a ring and commitment, which I want to give to her, but I can't right away. We have to rebuild and thats the part I fear. My desires being unmanageable while we get to know each other again. My only relief was during our rounds of chicken. Curt and Leena kept challenging us to the the game even though we won every round. But with Hailey out of sight and my focus on competition I was able to put lust in the back of my mind. Her thighs and privat