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Chapter 105

Author: Sannelle
last update Last Updated: 2025-12-22 07:22:24

Quiet sobs left my lips, my chest heaving as I tried to catch my breath, but it was to no avail, not when the memories that I had vowed to keep buried had resurfaced.

I was transported back to Lucan’s pack on the day I found out he had decided to leave me on this earth, the day that my entire worldview had shattered.

The numbness that I used to love, one that had encased all of my emotions and protected me at that time, had shattered, and now I felt everything.

All of the pain, the hurt, and the guilt churned inside me like ingredients in a pot, and I curled in a ball on the cold tile, unable to do anything but cry.

Why always me?

Why couldn’t it be different?

I knew I wasn’t exactly a good person, and I have done my own share of ‘bad’ things, but isn’t all this repayment enough?

Why did the moon goddess have to bring this obstacle my way?

I was ready to part with the werewolf life, probably forever, but Rowan just had to be one of them, us, and there was nothing I could do.

This had
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