LOGINThe shrieks of my sisters greeted me as I neared home, and I took a deep breath, preparing myself for the dungeon I had come to know as home.
My thighs were sticky and clammy, my movement funny, an aftermath of Theo’s ruthless passion. I wanted nothing more than to wash myself thoroughly, in hopes that I would be clean enough before I meet my mate, and after that I hop into bed. Another excited scream greeted me as I reached the door, my hands closing on the cold knob, and I inhaled a large whiff of air. They were family after all; I only had to endure them for a moment. The wooden door, now a rusty bronze from age, creaked as I opened it, and my eyes zoned in on my parents cuddling together on the loveseat and peeping over a phone. My sisters were at the other end of the room, several white shopping bags lying at their feet, and their hands dipped into them every now and then, screaming from their new buys. I stared at my sibling, their actions so in sync that they could be triplets if it weren’t for their contrasting looks. Rebecca, an exact duplicate of my mother, with full lips, long straight hair, and a well-rounded figure. Mother would always brag that she stole all of her fine features, and it should explain why she was always biased towards her. Rachel was my father, towering over us all at 6’1. She had his smile and his kindness, a trait that had earned her a spot as my favorite sibling. Not that I liked any of them. Raina was a perfect mixture of both, only it had earned her favoritism from everyone, and she was spoiled to a fault. I was sure the goddess had made a mistake in making me the last born. Raina had a haughty mouth and an attitude to match with it; it was even worse because she was older than me, and I often got the brunt of her mischief. Meanwhile, there I was. Plain old Jane with hand-me-downs that have seen more than 3 generations and a name that didn’t even belong to me. “Ryan.” My father perked up as he noticed my presence, the crinkles on his eyes forming as his smile widened. His nose flared as he perceived the pungent stench of cum surrounding me, and his lips pulled tight in a thin line. “Have you been frolicking with the beta’s son?” “His name is Theo!” I snapped, annoyed he had been reduced to just his connection with his father. However, the scene from before flashed in my mind, the wide smile he had been sporting, and my mood turned sour. “He found his mate.” I announced to no one in particular. A sound of disappointment echoed from my siblings’ lips, Rachel’s more pronounced as she somehow held hopes he would come for her, and I would have laughed in her face if I wasn’t so gutted. My eyes scanned the living room, landing on the shopping box from earlier. “Where is mine?” I asked, walking towards a bag and yanking one up. “What did you get for me?” A pregnant silence filled the air, and suddenly everyone found something else more interesting. The guilt was practically written on their face, and I wished I could say I was disappointed. “Ryan,” my mother began, her voice now a soft, patronizing timbre. “We really couldn’t find anything you would like. I know you love the color blue, and…” “No!” I snapped, unable to listen to her pathetic excuse anymore. “No, I don't. In fact, I hate the color blue so much that I would rather go naked than put that disgusting shit on.” “Ryan!” My father barked, his eyes flashing gold for a moment, ever ready to support his mate, but I turned my glare at him. “The name is Raya. R A Y A. It is always amusing how it is that you keep forgetting things about a particular sibling, but your brain manages to work when it involves the other three.” “Ryan, that is no way to talk to our parents.” Raina cut in, trying to be the voice of reasoning. I turned my glare to her, my eyes almost ablaze in fury. “You don’t have the right to school me on anything. I will talk to them however I want. How can you even understand when you have always been the favored child?” My gaze moved from her to my family, but their eyes darted elsewhere, unable to hold my gaze. I shook my head slowly, a bitter smile slowly forming on my lips. “You know what, fuck you all!” I stormed out of the house, not waiting for their reaction. Not while the rage was still bubbling inside, threatening to spill. This time my feet led me to the pack house, just in time to see the entourage of the new park filing inside. My eyes merely glanced over them, too absorbed in my own anger to care for their presence when the only thing I wanted was to see Thalia and rant. She had once suggested I move in with her, understanding my plight, but I had placed hopes in my parents whilst refusing to take up space that others would need. It was too late now to consider it anyways. I passed the living area, all the way to the indoor kitchen where the stairs were located, and I climbed onto them. However, a hand shot up from the dark corner of the stair, pulling me towards him. I gasped, my mouth parting to let out a scream when it hit me. Electricity sizzled where he touched me, the sparks going crazy just being in close proximity with him. My pulse raced, my mouth already watering as the scent continued to fill my nose and my head even. I raised my head to look at him, my eyes dilating as I took him in, and then he opened his mouth, sealing our fates. “Hello mate, I have been waiting for you.”“I said I look forward to a day we can all run as wolves,” I repeated, smiling, my eyes darting to all three of them. It was comical to watch them lose their shit while I just stood, enjoying it.“W-wait?” Pete basically guffawed, his eyes widened to a point I was sure they would pop out. “You say w-wolves?” He asked, looking between Rowan and me, trying to determine if he had accidentally entered an alternate universe, and I nodded slowly.“Yes, I mean it is tiring to run in our human form all the time.” I shrugged, my lips widening in a smile, and Rowan shook with laughter beside me, completely enjoying it.“Someone pinch me, but I think I am in another universe where Addison just admitted she is one of us.” Harry piped from where he stood, but Morgan gave him the elbow.“She didn’t say it expressly.” Morgan chided him, rolling his eyes. “Now you have exposed us with your loud mouth.”“Hey!” Harry protested, and they both burst into laughter.“Focus, guys,” Pete barked, calling thei
The journey back home—though the meaning of ‘home’ had somehow shifted for me—was smooth. I had completely leaned on Rowan, trying to get as much sleep as I could before we got home.Home.The words still felt so foreign, that somewhere so far, where they were likely only a small percentage of people like me, was a place my heart had claimed as home.However, there was no fear this time; the Florida sun shone down on me with a vengeance. I welcomed it in, my heart merry that I was back to where I belonged and just fit right.The car had brought us to his building, and Rowan had helped with my things, bringing them up the stairs, and now I stood in front of the brown door unsure.My rent had been for a year upfront; it was the only condition Adam was willing to give me, fearing that I would bail. I still had months to stay in the apartment, yet I had reluctance to even do so.To go back to that moldy house would be torture itself, and anything was better than that place; even my place
The walk back home was quiet, a comfortable one, although I was lost in my head, going through what the alpha had already said.Thankfully, darkness covered the area, except for the street light that lit the path, but he couldn’t see my face or the worry that lined it.“Are you alright?” Rowan asked, squeezing my hand, and I nodded. “You are a bit quiet.”“I’m fine. I just… have a lot on my mind. After everything.” I replied in a small voice, and he nodded.“I am still me, Raya. Still the Rowan that you know.” He reassured me, and I swallowed, accepting the truth. It was still hard to believe that Rowan was an alpha, albeit an estranged one that was cut out of his family.Yet, I couldn’t ignore the fear that gripped my heart as the implication of the statement came to mind. I had had my share of Alphas; even the word sent shivers down my spine, and it was not the pleasurable one.I had vowed never to be in contact with them, the pain still fresh in my mind, yet here he was, and I was
I paced around the tiny room of the pack clinic every now and then before my gaze drifted to Rowan, who lay on the bed, stiff as a board. Only the steady rhythm of his heart convinced me that he hadn’t left me for the afterworld, but that didn’t calm my mind either, and not even the fact that the alpha was also here. The first minute he had collapsed, I screamed my lungs out, confused, and I hated the way the fear had paralyzed me. It was like Micah all over, and I had completely shut down. But the people immediately surrounding him, with the directions of the alpha, had helped me get him to the clinic. So here we are. I glanced at him again, at how he looked so small in the hospital bed, despite his legs reaching the end of the bed. As if aware of my presence, Rowan blinked, and I was rushing to his side, eager to spend the first waking moment. “Rowan.” I sighed relief flooding me as I dragged the chair and sat beside him. “Thank goddess.” “Raya.” He spoke, his voice
No sooner had I given him the go-ahead than he joined our lips together, kissing me so hard my head spun, and I reciprocated, kissing him just as he was.Our hands were tangled in each other, his caressing and fondling, while mine was on his shoulders, holding him so tight against the onslaught of pleasure coursing rapidly through me.Rowan was pulling me up, helping me get rid of my shirt and pants, and before long, I stood naked before him. I shifted from foot to foot, not used to being exposed like this.Most times I had sex, it was hurried, just straight to fucking, but there was never a time that they got to admire my body, yet Rowan was doing it.His eyes raked seductively through me, taking in every curve, every deep and red stained my cheeks; my first instinct was to hide.I have never been conscious about my body. I mean, I may not be the most curvy or busy, but I was confident in what I got, but seeing him looking at me with such hunger in his eyes had a way of stirring emot
“Rowan?” My breath hitched, my ears rang, and I was very sure I was hallucinating it or my ears were not working because he couldn’t have said that.Rowan didn’t just say he loved me after he discovered I lied about basically everything, even my fucking name.“Rowan?” I whispered again, blinking slowly, anything to convince myself I wasn’t living in an alternate world where the man that I wasn’t even supposed to like is telling me he loves me, but he nodded his head, his lips revealing a wide smile.“Yes, I do love you, Addison, Raya. Whatever you are called.” He said with so much confidence that every doubt in my mind fled.“But you can’t.” I argued, trying to give reasons why this wasn’t possible yet, but he squeezed my hands, reassuring me over and over. “I am…” ruined, cursed, alone, shattered… “me.”Rowan laughed, as if he could read the words I had uttered in my mind, and he shook his head again, firmly. “And I love every version of you. What is there not to love?” He asked, but







