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BEFORE
Lily
Jacob called me at 6.00am. I wasn't fully awake, floating between consciousness and unconsciousness. He sounded warm on the phone, like we had known each other for ages rather than met about two months ago. I knew I sounded groggy, if he noticed, he didn't say a word.
"I want to see you today."
The words drifted into my ear through the speakers of my phone. I had to consider each word and ascribe meaning to them. He didn't say good morning like normal people did first thing in the morning. It unsettled me.
"Huh?" My breath made me wrinkle my nose. I was glad he couldn't smell it.
"It's been two weeks," he said with somber laced in his words like it was two decades. "Will you have time today?"
"My parents are home today. They don't let me go out," I
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