CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
I went back to my station. Inirapan ko siya nang makabalik ako sa ginagawa ko. Binudburan ko ng konting flour ang dough. Isinalang ko iyon sa pasta maker. I just waited for its magic to be done.
“Sioux, will you please cut the onions into small pieces? As in very small. Hurry!” muling tawag ko sa kanya. Nilagay ko ang butter sa mainit na pan, I let it melt for a minute. Hinihintay ko lang na matunaw iyon, ilalagay ko na ang garlic.
Sioux was beside me, he was cutting the onions into small pieces. Napasulyap ako sa ginagawa niya. Nakagat ko ang labi ko. The onions looked like they were massacred. I felt bad for them. Imbes na cube iyong cut noong onions, irregular shape ang kinalabasan noon.
“Oh my God, unbelievable!” I was unable to hide my amused smirk. Mukhang wala talaga siyang ideya sa ginagawa niya. Probably, all his life, he never experienced this. Ma
CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE Six months later… Paris, France “Congratulations, mademoiselle. That was a blast.” Ms. Archambeau followed me to the doorway and handed me my coat. She was referring to my international fashion show held in Carrousel du Louvre, Paris last month. It was certainly a blast. Hanggang ngayon talk of the town pa rin ang fashion show. Dumalo ang ilang malalaking pangalan sa industriya. People can’t take their eyes off my creations. They were totally blown away. I am quite impressed. Sa dami ng naging fashion shows ko, ngayon lang nag-sink in ang satisfaction. I wore the coat when I stepped outside the hotel. The weather is good today, and I am planning to walk around the city and visit the tourist attractions for the last time. Babalik na ako ng Pilipinas kinabukasan
CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX I want to throw myself in the bed when I get inside the room. Naglakad ako kanina, and it was tiring but really fun. I inserted my keycard. The door opened. Nagulantang ako ng tuluyan akong makapasok ng hotel room. My two luggage is on the bed. Someone was definitely here. I checked the closet first. There are couple of dresses there, but most of them were gone. Bumaling ako sa dalawang luggage ko sa kama. On top of one of them, I found a bouquet of purple tulips. I knew who the culprit is. Nawala iyong kaba ko sa dibdib. Kinuha ko ang bouquet, there was a note. Have a safe flight tomorrow, babe. I miss you terribly. Kept my promise of distancing myself for SIX FUCKING MONTHS. I packed your things while you were out. You’d be in trouble packing all your stuffs, they are too many. I took the o
CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN He dropped the bomb like it was nothing. Anong ginagawa niya roon? I don’t know what to think. Ayokong magpanic but that’s exactly what I am feeling. Bakit nasa morgue si Sioux? He’s giving me an anxiety. I want to think positively, but what’s even positive in the morgue? I felt my body became numb. It can’t be. It can’t happen. “What is he doing there?” I asked wearily. “What do you think he’s doing there? Why does a person stay in the morgue?” he asked back. “He was targeted by unknown entity when he came back here.” My heart sank. It stopped beating for a second. Hindi ako makapaniwalang napatingin sa kawalan. Natulala ako. Parang nag-shut down ang utak ko. It doesn’t want to entertain any information anymore. I can’t accept it just like that! Sunod - sunod ang patak ng luha ko. It is not happening. Kahapon lang, he left me crooke
CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT (SPG) Again. I woke up in an empty bed. There is no Sioux Kyros Centauri beside me. He’s always been MIA early in the morning. Most of the time, he would be so up early trying to learn how to cook which is very hopeless. He almost burned the whole kitchen twice. He’s a fast learner but not with cooking. Talagang napapa-face palm ako. I had acquired a new habit while I was with him, I throw the kaldero, its takip and the pan to him whenever he irritates me and it is very often. I know for sure, one day, mauubos ang kasangkapan namin sa pinaggagawa niya. It wasn’t healthy for most couples, but well, it became normal to us. Tuwang - tuwa pa siya kapag asar na asar ako. Some mornings, kaharap niya ang video games niya umagang - umaga. It’s starting to annoy me as well. Hinahayaan ko na lang minsan. Hindi ako natuloy sa pag-uwi ng mansyon ni Daddy. Natagpuan ko
CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE Patakbo akong nagtungo sa comfort room. The banyo in our cabin has a connected hot spring jacuzzi. Binuksan ko ang shower. I let the water pour in my body to rinse the malagkit feeling. I cleaned my face with a towel after. Nag-toothbrush na rin ako. Ngayon ko lang naramdamang ang sakit sa panga nang ginawa kong pagpapaligaya sa kanya. Tapos sa mukha ko nag-burst iyong seeds niya when it should be inside. Where inside? On my mouth or my inside to make a new life? Napailing ako sa naisip ko. But the thing is, sayang iyong sperm. On the other hand, semen is good for someone who aims to have clear skin. Hinawi ko ang curtains na tumatahob sa parte ng hot spring jacuzzi. Outside, I could see the clear sky and the ocean. It has a bit of nature vibe with green plants everywhere. It occupied a lot of space. The water is very warm and it was calming my inside. Conn
CHAPTER SEVENTY He started the engine and drove me home. Mabagal lang ang takbo noon. Panaka - naka kaming nag-uusap habang nasa Chevrolet Corvette, he would ask me about my Paris life like he didn’t know anything about it. Sigurado naman akong nakasunod siya sa akin most of the time. Nakaramdam ako ng antok kaya binuhay ko ang stereo habang nasa daan kami. Animal of The Cab is currently playing in the background. I really think that the lyrics suit them well the Alphas or whatever they call themselves. My heart may be missing But my hands will make up for it Don’t think this is innocent I’ll sink my teeth right into it My eyes and my mouth agree You’ll be coming home with me ‘Cause girl you know, ‘cause girl you know
CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE “Ay, nako, Sioux! Dapat matuto ka niyan. Paborito niya iyang spaghetti. Kahit anong oras man iyan, pwede niyang kainin. Tapos ang ube jam, dapat sa french brid lang. Alam mo bang mangga at ube jam ang pinaglihian niya noon sa bebe namin. Ay, hindi ganyan! Maliliit dapat ang gayat at saka dice dapat!” Rinig na rinig ko ang boses ni Manang na minamanduhan si Sioux sa hagdan pa lang. Damn, I know she’s trying to teach Sioux the basic cooking and my comfort food, but well, it’s Sioux. Kunot na naman ang kanyang noo nang maabutan ko sa counter kasama si Manang. He was cutting some ingredients. “Good morning, babe. How’s your sleep?” Nakita ko ang pagngisi niya kahit hindi siya diretsong nakatingin sa akin. Napailing ako. Ngising - aso na naman ang gago. Sa mansyon kami natulog and Manang insisted that we must take different rooms. I stayed in my room, sa guest
CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO The next day, the happiness I felt was drained away. There’s no Sioux in the bed. Hinanap ko siya sa kabuuan ng mansyon. He isn’t here. Ilang ulit kong tinawagan ang phone niya pero cannot be reached na ito. I was worried, at the same time, naiisip kong baka natauhan na siya at napagod na siya dahil sa paghindi ko sa proposal niya. But I trust him. I trust his love for me. “Aba, kumalma ka nga munang bata ka! Baka naman and’yan lang iyon sa tabi - tabi. Isa lang ang nasisiguro ko, mahal ka noon.” Inabot sa akin ni Manang ang tubig. I accepted it. “Why did he leave without saying goodbye or something?” I was frustrated at Sioux. Wala man lang pasabi ang lalaking iyon. Umalis siya without saying anything to me. Nagsalin pa si Manang sa glass ko. “Babalik iyon. Naniniwala ako. Kaya maniwala ka rin, anak. Magtiwala ka.” pahayag ni Manang bago niya ako iwan sa