54~ War I

Emilio.

This week has been the worst and longest of my life. Being away from Renata made me miss her like crazy.

Until now, I never knew how deeply she had embedded herself into my life. A mate is not someone you can easily toss away and move on. Once you're fully mated, you share each other's soul. That's why it hurts like hell when a rejection occurs.

It's like forcibly ripping out a heart from the chest. Every nerve ending in the body feels excruciating pain and you just can't put it back to mend it. It can never be the same again.

My wolf was still silent. He was not even stirring in my mind and I discovered I couldn't shift when I tried to. It's like he's withdrawn from me because our mate rejected us. That or maybe he's trying to take most of the pain and endure it himself.

Perhaps I was so out of it that I needed my wolf to block off his emotions so that I don't end up dying from heartbreak. I was still hurting though... that's because I genuinely loved Renata. It had