Yes I Did

Alexander's POV

I did not want my wife to find out about my previous lifestyle and what used to happen between me and my ex's. I know that if it was up to me she wouldn't have found out at all but she wanted to know and I told her. I told her what was happening and I thought that she would ask me for details which would have been the worst because I don't think I could have been able to utter the words to her. The more I thought of it, the more I hated myself for it.

All this time I thought that I was using Lacey as a coping mechanism but that is not true. The truth I that I was taking it all out on her because I was not dealing with things. I also realise that my wife was right when she said that I could not cut off that part of me like it didn't exist. I didn't want to hear that especially coming from her but that still doesn't change the fact that she was right but I also know that I can never do to her what I did to all those other women.

I told her and left because I didn't wa