Chapter 4

“Ja..Jack,” Khlea called the man in a pleading voice. Pl..ease” she continued begging.

Again, Jack forced her and now he looked so desperate to take her.

She couldn’t do anything because her strength was nothing compared to his strength. Jack was under the influence of alcohol. And now she is taking her virginity.

Though everything that was happening was not a rape. Jack is her boyfriend and he love him that much. Even if she know that Jack is not sure about his feeling to her. But she accepted it. Maybe, it was her fate.

It was the first and the last. She couldn’t forget it because it caused her a lot of pain. She felt like she was being torn into two.

Khlea was hurt beyond words.

She wasn’t just hurt physically because of the fact that it was her first time. That time, she felt that her heart was also bleeding inside. She felt the pain in her heart.

It was a pain that she would never forget in her entire life.

It was still all clear to her. All the memories of that night were so vivid to her.

September twenty two, it’s Jack birthday. She was preparing for her dinner when Jack arrived at her boarding house. He was under the influence of alcohol. As soon as she opened the door and Jack came in. He held her waist and kissed her.

“ You are waiting for this, isn’t it Khlea” he whispered as he kissed her lips. Khlea’s eyes widened from that kiss. It was rough and painful. Her lips almost swelled as he kissed her rudely. When he got bored, he carelessly threw her in the bed and without thinking twice ran into her. He grabbed her polo she was wearing and forced to open it. The hole in her clothes fell apart and the man put his hands on her head so she couldn’t fight back. Her healthy and white breasts appeared in the eyes of Jack, which he looked at for a moment. Jack is the only man who saw that part of her body.

“ Jack stop it please” she pleaded but some part of her mind want to surrender everything to Jack.

But because Jack was under alcohol he didn’t listen. She could only see desire in his eyes. She didn’t know how he managed to take off her panties and his pants. What she felt was his hard masculinity at the opening of her feminity. She tried to pushed him so hard and kicked in all force!

“Noo! Stop it please” she begged. Yes she love her boyfriend that much but this is not how Khlea thought of giving him her virginity. Not in this kind of situation that she is being forced and hurt.

Jack suddenly pushed his hard shaft inside her without a warning. Khlea’s lips opened wide and her eyes widened in intense pain. She felt something tore inside her, and she couldn’t stop her tears, because she feels mixed emotions fear, fatigue, weakness and sort of happiness.

Jack stopped for a while but later on he move again and she felt pain again. While he was thrusting with all his might and moved faster as he could. When he was about to reach his climax, Jack mentioned the name of his ex-girlfriend Joan Lacoste.

Khlea felt like she was stabbed by a hundred knives as she felt the pain inside her heart. In an instant, she felt like her world had crashed.

Well, who wouldn’t feel that way? Who wouldn’t feel the world shattered if her boyfriend who is making sex to her girlfriend especially it was their first time would be calling out another woman’s name in the middle of their love making? Or, should she call it just sex between her and Jack?

She was hurt. She was in pain not just because of what she heard from Jack but also because of the physical hurt brought by the sudden shattering of her feminity.

She was hurt back then but she ignored all what happened that night. She was truly in loved to Jack and she has no regrets about giving up her virginity to him. She was hoping that Jack would realized that he made a mistake and asked for her forgiveness. But that will never happen. Why did she raise her hopes so high and now she felt her whole world crashed because of what they had done to her.

She would never forget what Jack did to her. Her heart was deeply wounded and she was sure that it left a scar inside her heart for the rest of her life.

She closed her eyes and let the tears flow from the corner of her eyes until she could feel the liquid reached her cheeks.

It was all she could do for now, Cry.