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I never knew that I'll be in this situation. I never imagined myself to feel this kind of emotion. Never in my wildest dream that I could feel pain just because I refused someone important to me.

I am not yet ready to face pain but here I am feeling it anyway. Dahil lang sa iritasyon humantong na kami sa ganito. Dahil nga lang ba sa iritasyon? o may mas malalim pang dahilan?

Storm didn't reached out to me after our last talked. Now, Ii am being confused and doubtful. Bakit ganoon? Wala man lang siyang planong kulitin ako to fix whatever it is that we're going through? I know sinabi ko naman talaga na hindi ko siya gustong kausap nun pero hindi ko naman sinabi na hindi na talaga kami mag-uusap! Ayaw ko lang sa oras na iyon dahil pareho kaming iritable. Pareho kaming irrational and emotional. Ayaw kong may masabi kaming pagsisisihan lang namin pareho.

Pero.. ayon nga hindi na siya nagtangkang kausapin ako. Nag-expect pa naman ako na kukulitin niya akong mag-us