Chapter 5: No Way Out

The second I heard that knock on my door during the team break I knew I was done fighting this thing with Kade.

The apartment felt way too quiet after that tough stretch of games. No practice. No bus rides. Just me and my thoughts spinning about him. I cracked open a beer halfway through it when the sound came sharp and sudden. I set the bottle down and opened the door.

Kade stood there in the hallway hoodie pulled up eyes restless like he had not slept. He looked at me for a long second.

"I should not be here," he said voice low and rough.

I stepped aside anyway. "Then why did you come?"

He walked in and I closed the door behind him. The click sounded too loud in the quiet space. Kade pushed his hood back running a hand through his dark hair. "Because I cannot stop thinking about the weight room. About Montreal. About you. This is stupid Ryder. Tell me to leave."

I crossed my arms leaning against the wall. "You want me to tell you to leave? After you show up at my place? Make up your mind Volkov."

He moved closer eyes locked on mine. "I want you to be smart. Stay away like I said. But here I am anyway. You going to kick me out Captain?"

I shook my head and grabbed his hoodie pulling him toward the bedroom. "Not tonight. We both know why you came."

Inside the room the lights stayed low. This time we did not rush. Kade pushed me gently onto the bed and climbed over me kissing slower than before. His hands explored my chest my sides like he wanted to remember every inch.

"You feel good," he murmured against my neck kissing down. "Too good. I keep telling myself this ends bad but I still want it."

I pulled his shirt off running my hands over his scarred back. "Then stop talking and show me. Why did you really come here tonight?"

Kade kissed my collarbone working lower. "Because fighting you on the ice is not enough anymore. I need this. Need to feel you. Tell me you do not want the same."

"I do," I admitted breath catching as his mouth moved over my stomach. "Even though it is messing with my head. Coach has us paired up all the time. Every look from you during practice gets me going. What are we doing Kade?"

He looked up from between my legs eyes dark. "Making a mistake probably. But a good one right now." He took me into his mouth slow and deep tongue swirling careful. One hand stroked the base while the other gripped my thigh.

"Fuck that feels amazing," I groaned fingers in his hair. "Slower just like that. Do not rush it tonight."

Kade hummed around me taking his time sucking and licking until I was rock hard and leaking. He pulled off with a wet sound and grabbed lube from his pocket. "Turn over or stay like this? I want to see your face this time."

"Stay," I said pulling him up for a kiss. "I want to feel all of it."

He slicked himself and my hole then pushed my legs back. The head of his cock pressed against me slow and steady. When he slid inside it felt more intense than before. Almost careful. Like he was holding back something bigger.

"Shit you are so tight Evan," he breathed bottoming out. "Wrap your legs around me. Yeah like that."

I locked my ankles behind his back pulling him deeper. Our bodies pressed close breaths mixing hot against each other's mouths. He started thrusting deep and steady not the rough pounding from before. This felt different. More connected.

"Talk to me," I said between moans gripping his shoulders. "Why do you keep coming back if you say I should stay away?"

Kade thrust harder but kept the rhythm controlled kissing my jaw. "Because you get under my skin Captain. Those eyes. That attitude. I tell myself it is just sex but it is not. You feel this?"

He angled his hips hitting that spot inside me perfectly. I arched moaning loud. "Yes right there. Fuck Kade do not stop. It feels too good."

He reached between us stroking my cock in time with his thrusts. Sweat slicked our skin. Legs wrapped tight. We moved together like we had all the time in the world even though we knew it was risky.

"You moan my name so nice," he growled against my neck speeding up a little. "Say it again. I want to hear it when you come."

"Kade," I gasped hips bucking up to meet him. "I am close. Keep going just like that."

He stroked me faster thrusting deep. "Come on Evan. Let me feel you come around me."

I shattered first moaning his name loud as I spilled between us. My body clenched tight around his cock. Kade buried his face in my neck groaning low in Russian as he came hard pulsing deep inside me. We stayed locked together shaking through it.

After a minute he pulled out slow and we stayed tangled on the sheets breathing heavy. Kade traced a scar on my side with his finger gentle.

"You have no idea what you are getting into with me," he muttered.

I turned to look at him chest still rising fast. "Then tell me. What is the deal with your past? Those stories online about your brother. The rumors. Why are you really here on this team?"

Kade kissed me quiet instead of answering. Deep and slow like he wanted to distract me. "Not tonight. Just stay here with me."

We fell asleep like that bodies pressed close his arm over my waist. It felt too comfortable. Too real.

Morning light hit the room and I woke up alone. The sheets still smelled like him but Kade was gone. My phone buzzed on the nightstand. One text from him.

This was a mistake. It will not happen again.

I stared at the screen chest tight. My thumb hovered over the reply button. I knew it was a lie. The pull between us kept getting stronger. Every fight every touch every secret glance on the ice. Whatever Kade hid in his past it was starting to surface and I was already too far in to walk away.

This thing had me hooked and there was no way out now.