LOGINElisaI stood, helpless and frustrated.I looked around me at the empty garden, ignoring the bright flowers which seemed to be awakening even in the cold night.Nothing impressed me anymore. Instead, worry clouded my mind.About everything that was happening to me and how it might affect my life.Rowan was the first big change that was going to happen to me before I got abducted.We were going to get married, and I was going to be his wife.I was going to have kids and be like Mother - a dutiful farmer with a rich garden that not only fed my family but also put some money in my purse.My mother had told me not to worry at all about money, since Rowan’s family was capable of taking care of my needs and our future children as well.But all that was taken away from me like a suckling child from its nursing mother.All that was gone.My eyes stopped at the space between the thick bush of vines coating the wall, at the spot where Rowan had told me he had come in from, and I wondered why he
Elisa…I didn’t feel so happy to see him again…Standing there like a normal country boy with another bouquet of wild roses in one hand and a lighted torch in the other, like he had been doing for the past few days before he disappeared.When I had heard the knock, I had rushed to it because I had been thinking about Lucien even when my whole body adjusted to the new changes.And it was him I had sensed coming towards my room.But then there was Rowan.I managed a smile and took the flower he offered me.My body grew calm and cold for a moment, and I shrugged away the eerie feeling that bubbled up to my throat.“You left without a word,” I asked, still clasping the thorny flower to my bosom.“I apologize for that, Lisa. It was too late, and in the days that followed, I had to travel with my father to King's Landing to make supplies for the King’s court,” he said with a proud smile of a young lad who could boast about being in the land of gold and beauty.I smiled back at him and went
...Lord Edric paced the small sanctuary like a crazed bull.The room - utterly dark but for the single ray of light that escaped in through a small window high up in the wall - was filled with the noise from beating drums, jiggling timbrels, and loud music from outside.It was the Christ the King celebration, and he was to chair the fair trade and the commissioning of the grotto that followed the procession, until Fabian appeared with news he had assumed he had dealt with temporarily.“What still holds her death? Why does she still roam the manor?” He stopped in front of Fabian to ask, even when he had been told the reason a thousand times.Fabian just stood in the darkness of the room, staring back at Edric and wishing he could control himself.“I am so close to being the next duke, so close to sitting on that seat of power and dining with the king,” he said aloud as he resumed pacing the room again, not caring if anyone overheard him.His fat body made the room look even smaller as
Lucien…It had been three days since I returned, and no one even seemed to notice.I had buried myself in the charm of the books that lay forgotten and abandoned in the study.Not even when Kieran groaned with hunger and a plea for a little rest did I give up.It was amazing, and confusing, and just…It felt like seeing the whole world in a different light; I had not dared to see through.More than just being the beast of Blackthorn, I was still a man.A man who could be something more than a caged beast.But then I needed to understand why Father, before his death, shipped in a lot of books on witchcraft and curses, and why, when I went through the records, most of them were not on the shelves.Not even torn pieces remained of them that I could say were eaten by rats.Father kept a good record of everything in his study, like a pirate buries his treasures.And it felt so good to plunder all that knowledge, but off that, a couple of the books remained unaccounted for.Will Yennefer kn
Elisa…Three days had passed since Rowan left, after the noise in the hallway.There was no way I could even ask Yennefer about him - I was still not sure who she really was or if I was to trust her rare smiles.Sometimes she was sweet and spoke to me like a mother, other times her tone and eyes were distant and mysterious.She had even begun to keep a clear distance from me after the last time I touched her and felt that…But Rowan, what happened to him after last time?I definitely didn’t do anything wrong.If anything, he had to explain to me why he kept behaving oddly.Not like I missed him - or maybe not so much.It took that brief moment when I beheld the world with new eyes to realize what I really wanted all along.Rowan reminded me of home and everything I used to hold dear, but that dark shadow behind the door was everything I wanted to know and unravel.I was still torn between both worlds, and I wasn’t even sure how long I had with either of them.Lucien is back.I know it
Lucien…What is she doing? I watched her look around the room like she was seeing everything for the first time - even when she was looking at nothing in particular.I watched her every move, wondering why she was looking at her hands and body like they didn’t belong to her.Then her eyes immediately shot in my direction, and I watched as she approached.I froze and retreated into the dark room, not ready for her to see me yet, especially not when I was still in my beastly form.I had tried to return to my normal body since the forest incident, but it was impossible. Even Kieran didn’t have any idea how to return, and I knew he was enjoying the new dominion.‘Why are you so scared of her? Wait and see what she wants to do’ Kieran admonished and tried to make me stay put, but as she neared the door, I backed away deeper into the darkness.I could not bear making her scared of me.I didn’t mind terrifying anyone around me, but not her.And not right after I had seen her laughing so free







