SIX
CATHERINA
I reached my room and bolted the door securely behind, my ears roaring and my heart thumping painfully in my chest. It was the way he had said my name Catherina in the most inappropriate way I had ever heard it said. My face still burned from the places his fingers have trailed and my lip remained seared by the feel of his thumb on them. I wasn’t supposed to feel that type of way for my own sister’s future husband; maybe my father was right and I was some kind of self- righteous whore.
I collapsed on my bed and folded myself, hugging my knees. I was drained both physically and mentally but I still could not stop thinking about him, his eyes as he watched me and how I had felt stripped underneath his gaze. I did not think anyone could make me feel the way Andres Cruz had but then again there was no one like him.
I closed my eyes to dispel the thought him and only succeeded when I finally succumbed to sleep but even then, he came in my dreams, watching me with eyes that could drown a person’s soul.
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The next day came in a flash, and I had already almost forgotten the events of the previous day. I got up and into my jogging pants as I prepared for my rounds around the block. My papa had been against my morning exercise because according to him, I could be kidnapped by a rival who was seeking his downfall. He only allowed me when I agreed to the presence of Pedro by my side every day.
“Buenos dias, Pedro.” I greeted cheerily.
“Buenos dias, Lady Catherina” he smiled, already waiting for me.
We got out as usual he made sure to follow behind me so I wasn’t overly aware of his presence.
I made more rounds than usual and was drenched by the time I was done. We walked back to the house and I thanked him for his company like I did every day.
Our eyes met across the hall and I resisted the urge to turn around and go back from where I had come from. He was sitting from across my papa who had his back to me, I brought up a hand across my lips to signal his silence as I did not want my papa to see me dressed in tights and sweating.
His eyes twinkled in mischief and I should have known that he would not keep his mouth shut. I turned and tiptoed, trying to make my way across without being heard only for my name to ring out from his damned mouth.
“Catherina” he called.
I stopped in my tracks and turned almost immediately my papa turned, our eyes met and his forehead burrowed in a frown as he took in my appearance.
“Where are you coming from?” he said, his eyes holding its normal emotion; hatred.
“I jog every morning, papa. You know this.” I said, twirling my fingers.
“Say hello to our guest, you met him yesterday; Mr Cruz.” My papa said, ignoring my earlier statement.
“Good morning, Mr Cruz.” I said, my eyes drifting to his face.
He smiled, returned my greeting and they immediately went back to discussing whatever it was they were discussing before I came in.
“Asshole” I said through gritted teeth.
He was infuriating and I was tempted to go back and smack him over the head just for the sheer fun of it.
I got into the bathroom and took a much needed bath, soaking myself in the tub for longer than necessary to make sure he was gone by the time I finished and went back down.
So much for hopes and dreams, he was being served by my mamma when I got back down. She called it snacks for them to discuss business but I was sure she just wanted to show off her amazing culinary skills.
“Catherina, thank God you are here, follow me and get water for our gentleman.” She said.
Gentleman my ass, I thought as the events of the previous day flooded my mind.
I followed her anyway, not looking in his direction although I could imagine he was staring at me at that moment.
“Where is your sister? That girl is going to be the death of me.” My mamma said as I took water from the fridge.
“I can only imagine that she is still asleep, mamma. You know Audrey doesn’t wake up till it is afternoon.”
“Basura, she is going to have to change that habit of hers now that she is about to get married.” My mother intoned, muttering more words in Spanish.
“It is not like she wants to get married, she is being forced and to that rude man.” I fired.
“Catherina! Do not say such words again. Now get that glass to him immediately.”
I frowned but did as she ordered as I heard her let out unintelligible words in Spanish.
I knelt to drop the glass of water gently on the tray with both men watching me, my fingers shook and I mistakenly spilt some.
“For God’s sake; Catherina, do you ever do anything right?” my papa bellowed.
I muttered an apology at my mistake, biting my lips to keep the retort about if he was doing the right thing marrying his daughter off in check.
“It’s alright” I heard Andres say.
I walked away, turning to get a peek of him.
He was wearing a shirt today with its sleeved rolled up and I could see the long trail of ink up his muscled arm.
I wanted desperately to make out the drawing and wondered where it ended.
He must have noticed my presence because his eyes came up to meet mine and then he smiled
That smile, I thought as I turned abruptly.
It did not help that just one smile from him and my blood pressure was skyrocketing. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes, my mind eye envisioning his inked and well- muscled arm and the sudden itch to trail my fingers across it, came.
SEVENCATHERINAWe all sat down at the table again, me to my mamma’s right and her to my papa’s. My sister sat beside her future husband whose sleeves were still rolled up; tempting me to look. I kept my eyes fastened to my plate, hoping there would be no drawing me into the conversation going on at the table… fat chance.My papa had extended an invite to Andres Cruz to dine with us after their little meeting that morning and again; just as last night, the presence of his uncle was required. My brother was absent for reasons best known to him and I was forced to sit beside his uncle who was doing all he could to look down the bodice of my gown and at my breasts.My papa glanced towards me and I could feel the disgust in his cold stare but I did not bother looking up, not because of him but because of the man sitting opposite me who was at that moment burning me with the intensity of his stare.“Your papa tells me you are a singer.” Franco Cruz and uncle to Andres said to me.“I am” I
EIGHTANDRESEverywhere was deathly silent after the gunshot. Mr Salvador stared at me with a look of alarm and also one of respect and admiration but I only had eyes for the fallen girl and her brother who had gone to rescue her from the weight of the dead meat that was my uncle.I dropped my gun to the table and let my arms rest beside my plate as I rolled my fork between my fingers. I was mad with rage and it burned brightly behind my eyes and in my blood. You could say that I saw red, the moment my uncle held a gun to Catherina and I snapped when he began calling her a whore.I turned to my uncle’s bodyguard who merely nodded in my direction indicating that he had no objection to his death. I still had to explain how he had died to the rest of my family but at this moment, I was in rage. My eyes darkened dangerously as Catherina was helped up by her brother, blood coating her face, her dress and hair. She had the look of someone who was shell shocked and who wouldn’t be? I had jus
NINEANDRESShe got up immediately, excusing herself from the table even as her dress dripped blood. My eyes followed her movement, waiting until her eyes met mine from behind her papa’s chair. I smiled in amusement at the wild look in her eyes but at the same I was concerned which was a feeling I found quite irritating.She turned and fled from my presence, her bloodied dress trailing behind her like in a horror movie. Mr Salvador cleared his throat beside me, drawing my attention back to him.“You shall take the body with you, I presume?” he asked“Yes, I shall” I answered distractedly as I glanced over to his wife who stayed silent beside him.“And you will definitely want something in return for the incident?” He asked.“You know the laws, Manuel.” I replied through gritted teeth, my eyes showing my anger.He nodded and then said nothing else; of course, he knew the laws. It was an eye for an eye but in this case, a life for a hand.I turned over to the sister who was sitting quie
TENCATHERINAI sat on my bed staring into space as I recalled the events of the past hour, the grip on my throat and the cold metal that had been pressed to my temple. I was still in the bloodied dress but I hardly paid much attention, the events stuck as a recurring nightmare in my head.The door to my room opened but I paid it no mind, I was in a world of throat gripping and metal pressing in my head.“Hermana…Catherina…are you okay?” my sister said, coming to my side.I nodded not glancing in her direction once; I was day dreaming but this time around, it was a fucking nightmare.“You need to get out of this dress, listen to me.” She said, shaking me.The sound of the gun ricocheted in my head as I jolted out of my day dream in shock.Tears streamed down my face then and the sobs escaped my throat“Hush now, come and take a bath.” My sister said, helping me to my feet.I passed the mirror on my way to the bathroom and bile rose up in my throat at the sight of my body drenched in b
ELEVENCATHERINAI might have just disliked how arrogant and so full of himself Andres Cruz was but right now after almost killing me by shooting so close to my head and his breaking my brother’s arm; I had every reason to dislike him with a passion that overwhelmed even me.After the doctor had treated my brother and he had had a good night rest, he went out and has not been back but I knew he was going to be fine and the hand was going to heal if he took good care of it as the doctor had said.My mamma was still in an argument with my papa over his non- challant attitude towards my brother’s pain and judging from my papa’s response to her, I just wished she would give up. There was no convincing somebody as bull headed as my papa that he was in the wrong.I sat on the couch with my sister Audrey beside me listening to the news about a drug bust and the death of one of the key witnesses to the crime.“That’s Andres’ warehouse, isn’t it?” my sister asked.“I suppose.” I answered as we
TWELVECATHERINA“My papa will be waiting for you in his den” I said, gulping as I faced the rogue who had an eyebrow quirked up and observing me with amusement again.“Will he?” he murmured coming around to where I stood.I held my ground, glaring at him… I wasn’t going to flee because of this dangerous man and I sure as hell was not going to give him the satisfaction of seeing that he affected me so.He stopped in front of me, watching my face.I kept my eyes on his, making sure to glare to show him I wasn’t scared and I did not like his presence in our house all the time.“You are blocking the television” he whispered.“Oh” I answered and moved so he could get a better view but his eyes followed me instead, his gaze intense on the side of my face.I did not spare him a glance as my gaze remained on the TV, they had interrupted the program to bring breaking news about the attack on a warehouse… his warehouse. I watched from the corner of my eyes as his jaw hardened and his eyes turn
THIRTEENCATHERINAWe weren’t expecting my abuela but there she stood at the door with a little packed suitcase and that grin that frightened me as a child. She was a tall woman for her age and that probably was the reason my papa was tall because I was sure he did not get the height from my midget of a grandfather who died before I was born.“Well, child… are you just going to stand there and gawk at me without letting me in?” she said, her mouth thinning.“Sorry abuela, we were not expecting you.” I answered, opening the door wider for her to come in“Do I need to phone ahead before visiting my son and grandchildren?” she sauntered in, stopping to take a deep breath.“Ofcourse not, abuela. I shall ask mamma to set out one more plate for lunch since you will be joining us.” I said, dragging the suitcase behind me; it was heavier than it looked and I wondered what she had packed in it.“I came over to see the man that will be marrying my granddaughter… where is he?”“He is with papa i
FOURTEENCATHERINAMy abuela insisted on us dining on the patio; according to her she needed the fresh air and also because she was scared that my mamma wasn’t getting enough sunlight on her skin because she looked white as hell.That was a lie of course but my mamma ignored her and began setting the food out on the patio with my abuela monitoring her every movement and dropping comments on how unattractive the food was looking. She always did that but then went ahead to finish and also ask for more food.I was trying to not look in the direction of Andres Cruz who sat on one of the sofas, drilling me with his eyes. I wished he would stop doing that… looking at me like I was some meal he could not wait to consume and I was sure my folks would notice his obvious interest in me which I did not want.“I shall call Audrey downstairs” I told my mamma, getting up to flee his gaze.“Do that; that girl will be the death of me with her attitude to everything.” My mamma complained.“She only wa