LOGINCAMILA
Everything started three years ago—though sometimes it feels like my life began long before that, the moment the world decided I was disposable. I don’t remember being born. I don’t remember warm arms or lullabies or a name whispered with love. What I remember—what I’ve been told—is that I was found in a trashcan behind an underground club, wrapped in rags soaked with rain and rot, crying so weakly that most people must have thought I was already dying. The woman who found me wasn’t my mother. Not really. She was human, like me, but that was the only thing we shared. She worked in underground clubs owned by wolves—dark places hidden beneath cities and forests, where smoke curled thick in the air and power was bought with bodies and silence. She was a drug addict. Alcohol clung to her skin like a second scent, sharp and sour, mixed with cheap perfume and desperation. Wolves laughed around her. Men and women who were stronger, faster, born sacred looked at her like entertainment at best, filth at worst. She looked down at me that night and smiled. I sometimes wonder if that smile was real—or if it was just another performance she’d learned to survive. She took me home. At first, I think she imagined she was saving me. That she could be better. That she could pull us both out of the mess we were in. But hope doesn’t last long when hunger, addiction, and debt are constant companions. I became a burden quickly. Raising a child meant food she couldn’t afford. Time she didn’t have. Responsibility she didn’t want. And I learned, very early on, that love was conditional—fragile—and that survival meant obedience. So I grew up as less of a daughter and more of a servant. I cooked meals that were never good enough. I cleaned floors that never stayed clean. I learned how to move quietly, how to disappear into corners, how to read moods before they turned dangerous. If I was too slow, too clumsy, too tired, punishment followed. Sometimes it was a sharp hand against my back. Sometimes fingers twisted into my hair until my scalp burned. Most often, it was words. *Useless.* *Worthless.* *Nothing.* Words sink deeper than bruises. They stay longer. They become part of you if you’re not careful. The house always smelled wrong—stale smoke, mildew, sweat, spilled alcohol that seeped into the floorboards and never left. When wolves came by to collect debts or favors, the air grew heavier. Their presence pressed down on me like a weight, their voices too loud, their laughter too sharp. They never touched me—not like that—but their eyes followed me, assessing, measuring. I learned how to keep my head down. I learned how to survive. And yet, even in that suffocating world, something stubborn inside me refused to die. Books became my escape. Torn pages, old manuals, anything I could get my hands on. I read in corners, under dim lights, scribbling notes on scraps of paper I hid beneath loose floorboards. I studied when the house was loud and when it was silent. I studied when my hands shook from exhaustion and when my stomach growled from hunger. Because I knew one thing with absolute certainty: I was not meant to stay there. Every day, I whispered promises to myself. *You will be better.* *You will escape.* *You will be more than this.* My body was human—weak, fragile compared to sacred races—but my will was not. I memorized everything. I practiced speaking clearly, standing straight, refusing to let fear fold me in on myself. Education became my rebellion. Knowledge became my shield. And then—against every odd, every rule of this world—it worked. My grades were exceptional. Outstanding. Impossible, some said. And one morning, when the sun slipped weakly through a cracked window, a letter arrived. A scholarship. To Lunaris Academy. My hands shook so badly I almost dropped it. Lunaris wasn’t just a school—it was legend. A place for sacred races. Wolves, witches, fairies, vampires. Humans didn’t belong there. Humans weren’t chosen. I reread the letter again and again, my heart hammering, my breath shallow. Housing. Education. Protection. They would *accommodate* a human student. I pressed the letter to my chest and laughed—quietly, breathlessly—afraid the sound might shatter the moment. For the first time in my life, I wasn’t just surviving. I was being offered a future. I didn’t know then that stepping into Lunaris Academy would also be the first time I learned how cruel hope could be. --- Lunaris felt unreal. The moment I crossed its borders, the air changed—cooler, cleaner, scented with pine and fresh stone. Sunlight filtered through towering trees, catching on crystal windows and ancient carvings etched into the academy walls. Magic hummed softly beneath everything, like a living heartbeat. I stood there, gripping my bag, suddenly very aware of how small I was. Students moved around me effortlessly. Fairies darted through the air, wings shimmering. Wolves walked with quiet dominance, every step confident, powerful. Witches radiated controlled magic. Vampires watched from shadows, eyes sharp and knowing. And me? A human girl with secondhand clothes and too many dreams. Eyes turned toward me. Curious. Indifferent. Disdainful. I felt it immediately—that subtle pressure, that unspoken judgment. *She doesn’t belong here.* Maybe they were right. But for once, I didn’t let it crush me. I lifted my chin and stepped forward. I had earned this place. I moved carefully through the halls, memorizing routes, listening, observing. Lunaris was beautiful—but it was also dangerous. Sacred races didn’t need to bare their teeth to assert dominance. Sometimes a look was enough. Lost in my thoughts, I turned a corner too quickly— And slammed straight into someone solid. The impact knocked the breath from my lungs. I staggered back, heart leaping into my throat. “I— I’m sorry,” I blurted, already bracing for anger. Strong hands caught my arms before I could fall. Warm. Steady. I looked up. Golden eyes met mine—sharp, surprised, assessing. Wolf. Tall. Powerful. His presence alone made the air feel heavier, charged. For a moment, neither of us spoke. Then his brow furrowed slightly. “Are you alright?” His voice wasn’t harsh. It wasn’t mocking. It was… neutral. Curious. “I—yes. Yes,” I said quickly, stepping back. “I wasn’t looking where I was going.” He studied me for another second, gaze flicking to my bag, my uniform, the human identification charm at my wrist. Something unreadable passed through his expression. “Happens,” he said at last, releasing me. And just like that, he stepped aside, allowing me to pass. No insult. No sneer. Just… acknowledgment. I walked away with my heart racing, unsure why that brief moment lingered longer than it should have. I didn’t know his name. I didn’t know then how deeply our paths would intertwine. All I knew was that Lunaris Academy had already begun to change me—and that somewhere between hope and fear, my story had truly begun. ---CAMILA No one mentioned what happened yesterday. Not in whispers loud enough for me to hear. Not in pointed accusations. Not even in pitying looks meant to cut deeper than cruelty. It was as if the academy had collectively decided to erase it—to fold the incident neatly away and pretend it had never happened. That, somehow, was worse. The morning air was cool when I stepped into the main hall, my shoes echoing softly against the stone floor. Students clustered in their usual groups—wolves laughing too loudly, fairies flitting past in bursts of color, witches murmuring over spellwork. Everything looked the same. Too normal. I kept my head down, fingers tightening around the strap of my bag. My body still ached in places I couldn’t explain, a dull soreness lingering beneath my skin like a bruise I couldn’t see. Every time I inhaled too deeply, my chest tightened faintly, as if remembering something my mind refused to touch. Eyes followed me. They always did. Some stares were cu
CAMILA I woke up to the scent of antiseptic and dried herbs. For a moment, I didn’t know where I was. My body felt heavy, every limb slow and sore, as if I’d been dragged back from somewhere far away. The ceiling above me was white stone etched with faint healing runes, glowing softly. The school clinic. My fingers twitched against the sheets, and the memories rushed in all at once—the laughter, the diary, the running, the woods. The wolf. My breath hitched as I pushed myself upright too fast. “Camila.” A familiar voice stopped me. I turned my head. Sebastian was sitting beside the bed. Not standing tall like he usually did in the halls. Not surrounded by people. Just… there. His elbows rested on his knees, hands clasped tightly together, his expression drawn and tired, dark circles shadowing his eyes. “You’re awake,” he said quietly. My heart stuttered. For a split second, relief washed over me. Then shame followed right behind it, sharp and burning. I looked away, grip
CAMILA I don’t remember when my feet stopped following the path. One moment I was running—branches clawing at my sleeves, stones cutting into the soles of my shoes, my lungs burning as if they might collapse—and the next, the academy lights were gone behind me, swallowed by the dark stretch of forest ahead. I didn’t stop. I couldn’t. The woods opened around me like a mouth, deep and endless, trees towering so high they blocked the moonlight. The air smelled damp and sharp, filled with moss and pine and something wild that made my skin prickle. My legs finally gave out near a fallen log. I stumbled forward and collapsed to my knees, hands sinking into cold earth. My chest hitched as sobs tore out of me, ugly and broken, nothing like the quiet tears I’d learned to swallow at the academy. I cried like I had nowhere left to run. My head throbbed with voices. Dirty human girl. Delusional. As if he’d ever look at her. I pressed my palms over my ears, but it didn’t help. The lau
CAMILA I noticed my diary was missing when my fingers closed around air. At first, I thought I had misreached. I searched my bag again, slower this time, pushing aside books and folded notes, checking every pocket as if it might somehow appear if I looked hard enough. It didn’t. A thin thread of unease wrapped itself around my chest. I swallowed and told myself I must have left it in my room. I was always careful with it—too careful, maybe. It was the only place where I allowed myself to be unguarded, where my thoughts weren’t shaped by fear or survival. No one would want it. That was the lie I clung to. The courtyard was crowded between classes, filled with noise and movement. Sunlight reflected off pale stone and water, laughter drifting freely through the open space. Wolves lounged against columns, fairies hovered lazily above, witches clustered in tight circles. I moved through it quietly, eyes lowered, trying not to draw attention. Then someone said my name. Loudly. “C
CAMILA I learned very quickly that rumors do not fade. They grow. By the next morning, the academy felt different again. Not louder—quieter. The kind of quiet that followed me, pressed close to my back, leaned into my ears. Conversations stopped when I approached. Laughter softened into coughs and murmurs. Eyes slid away too fast or lingered too long. I kept my head down and walked. In history class, my seat felt farther from the others than it had the day before. The desk beside me remained empty, even when the room filled. When the professor called my name to answer a question, the silence afterward stretched too long, thick with something unspoken. I answered anyway. My voice didn’t shake. I made sure of that. A few students exchanged looks. Someone snorted quietly. The professor nodded once and moved on without comment, as though nothing unusual had happened. As though I hadn’t felt stripped bare under every gaze. By midday, the weight in my chest made it hard to breathe
CAMILA The rumors didn’t arrive all at once. They crept in quietly, like rot beneath polished floors—soft whispers that stopped when I passed, glances that lingered a second too long, laughter that didn’t quite hide itself fast enough. At first, I told myself I was imagining it. By the second week, I couldn’t anymore. I heard my name murmured behind me as I walked through the halls. I felt eyes trace my back, my legs, my hair. The looks were different now—not just disdain or curiosity, but something uglier. Something knowing. I was reaching for a book in the library when I heard it clearly for the first time. “Did you hear about the human girl?” I froze, my fingers brushing the spine of an old tome. “They say her mother worked underground. Clubs. You know the kind.” A soft laugh followed. “Guess it runs in the blood.” My chest tightened. I didn’t turn around. I didn’t need to. I knew the tone. I knew the cruelty woven into casual words meant to destroy. I checked the boo







