ZADE
I am far ahead of all classes, a requirement I have been drilled into since I could walk and attend school.
That’s why I can afford to miss the normal classes and meet my grandfather.
I have always been close to him, but ever since I fell out with my father, we have been closer than before. I meet him in the country clubhouse outside Oakland.
“How is school?” the tall man whose strength I can feel even standing a few feet away asks me.
Our generation has always sired alphas and leaders. We have always been the king alphas, and I will continue the bloodline by making sure my children and the children of my children all follow in their footsteps.
“I have passed all the examinations. I am ahead of all classes by two lessons,” I respond as I hit the small ball with my stick feeling impressed.
“That is the bare minimum. How is your combat level? Are you keeping up with the training? Political classes that you are taking outside your normal school work?”
My smug smile fades as I nod. I was happy too soon.
“Yes sir. Everything is up to par. I know better than to slack off.”
“Good. All sons of our bloodline have gone to that school. You must uphold the legacy and our name. You are to be the future king alpha, just like I was, just like your father is.”
“I understand.”
“You still haven’t mended things with your father?” he turns around and looks at me.
I clench my jaw but fix my facial features. To show weakness or emotions in front of him is not allowed. “We still don’t see eye to eye on things. I would prefer to keep my distance.”
I still don’t know why he called me here today. We normally meet once a week, have lunch, and play golf before I have to go back to campus. But this time he called me two days earlier.
It can’t be that he wants to talk about my dad, could it? He knows I hate my father, I don’t hide that little fact even from him.
“He is still your father. I know you have your own beliefs and reasoning as to how he should have lived his life. But don’t you think it’s a childish move to not speak to him?”
“He betrayed my mother. It doesn’t have anything to do with my beliefs or my judgment of how things are supposed to be. He should have done the right thing.”
I try to keep my tone respectful even though I am burning inside.
My grandfather chuckles. “Aren't you doing the same thing to your girlfriend?”
Oh. That’s why I am here then.
“I rejected her.”
“And yet your bond is still alive and strong,” he looks at me like I amuse him.
“I hate her. I want nothing to do with her. The only person I want to be my mate is Olivia. You blessed our union, you know her family will be important to us. She is the right person to be mated to,” I insist stubbornly.
“You do sound childish. I am disappointed.”
I have nothing to say to that.
“To think all my teachings have all been discarded or you just didn’t listen,” he shakes his head looking away in distaste. “What a foolish young man.”
“I am sorry grandfather, but to be mated to someone I hate is beyond my abilities.”
“You two are so similar but I can see where you are coming from. At least you have the face to deny the truth with a thick skin,” he starts walking and I fall in step with him.
“He chose her. I don’t have quite the luxury.”
“Tell me what happened. Don’t leave out anything.”
And so I do. I hate how everything has been revolving around the one girl I can’t stand but here we are.
“If your wolf is disappearing when you reject her, then you have no other option but to stay mated. You cannot be a king if you lose a vital part of yourself that makes you worthy of the position. This is no longer about you.”
When has it ever been just about me?
“I don’t know anything about her. Her family is not a legacy,” I remind him. He is the one person who has always told me that partnerships are to be done with people of substance, not just anybody.
“Her mother is married and mated to your father.”
“I love Olivia. She is the one I want to be my Luna.”
“Do what you will. Just don’t compromise all that we have done up until now for the sake of love. Love fades, strength lives and reigns. Power talks and gets things done. I would be disappointed if you chose love over the throne.”
The rest of the morning flies as we play and talk. The little joy I had fades just as fast.
If there is one thing I have always promised myself is that I will be made to someone I love. Y parents were mated out of power and connections. They were both legacies. Sure, they kept up appearances when we were outside, but inside our home, it was cold.
They didn’t love each other, at least not the way I saw other kids' parents behave and act with each other.
Unless they too were pretending.
But then I started loving Olivia. I have loved her for a long time and I know that what we have is real. It’s not fiery or overly passionate. But it's real love, stable and safe.
I made a promise to mate the love of my life. To be in a union with someone I love and not do it for the sake of wealth, power, and a name.
My whole life, nothing has ever been mine. I do it all for the pack. I don’t hate my life, it’s how it is. You can’t hate something when it’s all you have ever known. But I know that nothing is ever mine.
But Olivia has been mine. She still is. Our love has been mine. Plus it made sense that way. It was safe and settled.
Now this too is being taken away from me and I have only one person to blame.
By the time I drive back to school, I am ready to relive all my stress and anger on her.
EPILOGUE10 YEARS LATERARIHealing is never-ending. It’s not a straight line but sort of circular. You end a chapter, go to the next, and find yourself at the same steps you were before, and the thought has ended. And you start all over again. Again and again.That’s how my life has been. Zade rescued me on the day I had made peace to die, and from then on, he has proved to be my giant. He has helped me become a giant on my own, too, and to say it hasn’t been easy between us is an understatement.Reconnecting, building trust, and choosing each other instead of the things we chose before, coming together instead has taken effort, time, and lots of patience for the other. Our lives haven’t been easy. Tied to two ends of demanding responsibilities and all of that belongs to no one but us … yes, it has taken and it is still taking time to learn to live for ourselves.Forgiving him hasn’t been easy, but understanding that we were kids who didn’t know what else to do, living life for the fi
ARIGripping the paper in my palm, I raise my knuckles and knock on the red door.I look around me, keen on hearing if I will hear any movement. I should have come here earlier, perhaps morning or during the day, but after traveling the whole night and most of the day, I couldn't wait any other second.The numbers sent to me in form of an address led me to a cabin in the woods and I think it’s cleaver for such a shit of person to love away from people after all the horrible things he did. I knock again, the last of the daylight slowly fading away. Trying to peer inside the small stained windows, I see nothing and hear nothing.Perhaps I will find better luck if I go to the back.Just as I am walking at the back when I see him. He is coming uphill, and just as I notice him, he sees me too.“Well, well, well. What a nice surprise. I never thought you would bring yourself right to my doorstep.”…ZADEDad ends the call and looks at me with worry.“We have found her. But we might be too l
ZADEShe is gone.I have been running around the academy looking for her. Not a single person has seen her. No one knows where she went. All her things are still in the suite, and yet I can notice that she has taken all her important things. Her leather jacket, her backpack, her Doc Martens, she has left the academy just like she came, minus all her mother’s stuff.She has left without anyone noticing, leaving the room like she is going to be back, but I notice. Not one thing that represents eh girl I fell in love with remains, and that's enough to make me drop to my knees, despair tearing me anew.I was too late again. It took me long to have the damn video from Olivia. I came here to show it to her, tell her everything, but all I am left with is … emptiness.She is gone.Running outside again, I head to my car and drive like crazy to my family home.“Where is she?” I shout as I push the doors open. My father and my mother are having dinner.“Who son?”“Ari! Where is she? She is not
ARIToday is a good day.The skies are blue today, and the breeze is cool to the touch. A sigh escapes my lips as I lie on the bench, holding the white envelope up high.This is it.The final piece of the puzzle. Who would have thought that I could have received it today, on such a great day?But perhaps it’s almost like fate, for this journey to end on a high note, because it would feel depressing if I left and it was a gloomy, chilly day. No problem with gloomy days, they are my favourite, but the sunny days too are starting to grow on me.I am holding the final letter that has been sent to me to show where the person who killed my family is living. I started investigating this on my own after I realized that I needed to wrap this all up and then finally rest. Find peace, whatever that means in my case.Turns out money can truly help you out in so many ways, and finding private investigators to help me find out the rogues was the best decision I could make with the trust fund. I did
ARIHe can’t. I made sure to seal that completely. I don’t need him trying to manipulate my emotions by leaning on our bond to make himself feel better by his choice.He chose her over me. Just like he always does. Nothing has changed.Giant? Devotion? Loyalty?Zade Parker knows nothing of the sort. He isn't that kind of mate.At least not to me.Staying away from the cafeteria this time is easier, as I have made sure to sill my fridge and have everything I could po0sbly need in my suite. All I have to go out for is classes otherwise, I can sleep in all the time and exist, wait for my time.It’s all finally coming to an end.….ZADE“Can you at least pretend that you like me? It’s not like it’s hard for you to smile and look like I haven’t forced you to be by my side.”“I don’t like you, and you are blackmailing me; that’s why I am here next to you. Otherwise, I could snap your neck and step over your corpse,” I smile, feeling anything but joy inside me at the snake beside me.Olivia
ARIZade leaves in the middle of the night.Our summer, our escape, our haven, it breaks when he leaves while I am still hiding, locked away so that he will not get to see me breaking apart.I did know this is how it would end. Not exactly like this, where he leaves to go and see his ex-girlfriend, per se, but I knew it would end.I thought we had a few more weeks but no. all I had was hours before it all came crumbling down.There was nothing he could tell me or try to explain that would make me feel better about myself. Olivia wins again, and I wonder if I will ever get to see that girl on her knees in front of me.What did I do to her in a past life to deserve this?They belong together, even the world knows so that’s why zade is running to her across the world as I sit here, crying and feeling sorry for myself to reconnect, appease and fight the bloody war and win because they are strong together.I have had enough crying, enough motivating talk, but it's time I admitted that my l