ADIRA
“Princess.”
I sighed at Roselyn’s plea. The water had turned cold. I would bear through sitting in cold water than what was to come after my bath.
My eyes ran to the guard that stood by the main door of the room, staring dead at me. As much as I went through this every single day I could not get used to it. A shiver took over my body and I clenched my teeth. The room had an open concept. Everything was open to view and everything was bolted or cemented down.
Roselyn came with the towel held wide open for me. She tried to stand with her body to cover my rise but what was the point? Nearly every warrior in the pack had already seen my body. I swallowed the lump stuck in my throat from that thought.
I pushed up, Roselyn quickly hiding my body away and I swear the guard hissed. Roselyn quickly wrapped the towel around me and it was the most decent thing I had worn in months. My stomach turned at the thought and I thought I would vomit.
The water was drained away as I waited for Roselyn to be done. As she cleaned the tub I oiled my skin as best as I could and put on deodorant. The towel was so warm. I clutched onto it, wishing I would not have to take it off. I followed Roselyn with my eyes as she picked up what I would wear. It was a two-piece red lingerie. My heart dropped to the darkest part of my belly.
“Roselyn.” It was more of a cry, my eyes swimming in warm tears before they disappeared back in.
Roselyn was as pale as me. The thing hid nothing at all. I wanted to scream and cry out loud, shrinking more into myself.
We went through this every single day. Instead of it getting better, it was getting worse to bear.
“Please.” I did not even know who I was begging at that point. Roselyn’s tears fell, pulling me from my own grief. I swallowed my emotions and just stared at the strings that could not even be called underwear.
I took a step forward, my hand shaking as I took it in hand. I pulled the underwear up until it sat where it was supposed to. Next was the bra. My hands shook so hard I thought they would fall off. The towel had to be dropped at that point. There was no going around it.
It flew down and kissed the floor. The cold air attacked as I shivered. I did not dare stare at the guard but I could feel his disgusting eyes devour every part of my body. I pulled the bra up as quickly as I could but what was the point because my nipples were the only thing barely hidden? My breast poked through the satin strips, threatening to spill out.
Roselyn held out a flimsy satin long gown that I pulled over, tying it at my center but it did not close.
The silence was heavy, sitting on both of our chests.
I was led to the table right by the small window. My lunch sat, the first meal I had for the day. Starving myself would never change my situation so I ate. The food was tasteless as everything else in my life. Everything was grey—no color before my eyes. I swallowed as much as I could before I pushed the plate forward and passed my thanks.
“Princess.” Roselyn bowed.
“Thank you, Roselyn. I will see you tomorrow.”
She sadly smiled and as always, the words she wanted to utter lay heavy on her tongue before she bowed again and walked to the door.
I watched as the guard opened the door and they followed each other out. The door was closed after them, the key turning as the guard locked me in. I took a deep breath, turning around to stare at the only view of the world I had.
I picked up my worn-out book, sitting on the window seal. I pulled my leg up, the large gold chain clanking against the wall. It hung heavy as I rested my leg on the soft cushion. My eyes went to stare at the kids playing on the green grass. I found myself trapped in their game, my eyes not able to tear away.
The other option was reading the words I had for the past sixteen years. The book was worn out as my soul yet still I clutched onto it. I finally forced myself to open the cover and run my eyes through the words. None stuck as much as I tried but I pushed on because I would never forgive myself if I forgot even a single word in it.
A scream suddenly tore through the air. It was such a painful scream. My eyes flew to my small dusty window, eyes literally stuck on it as they moved from each inch it allowed me to see yet nothing was amiss. The children still played, paying no mind to anything else. I stared for as long as I could, desperate for change, for anything to happen.
My breath was finally let out and I sank back in my seat before another scream tore through the air.
A woman came out running from the forest, blood covering her. Her body crumbled right before the children and chaos erupted all around.
My heart was beating from the very edge of my throat. Everyone was running back and forth, not knowing where to go. My hands lay flat on the window, literally breathing on it. A few warriors ran into the forest then more.
None cared for the children, all for themselves as they ran for safety.
What was happening?
Mothers grabbed their children and ran.
My eyes went wider and instinct kicked. I jumped down from the seat to pause.
There was no running for me, I was already hidden. My heart sank but I crawled back up as the screams got louder. From my line of sight, no one was in view yet still I heard the horror. My gut twisted and turned, fear nearly engulfing me. My breath came in rapid pants from the overtime my heart was working. My adrenaline pumped, begging us to run.
A few men ran out of the forest, blood all over their bodies.
My eyes would fall out from how wide they were.
A large black wolf jumped out and tore one of the warriors from behind. I shook as if to splatter, watching the impalement. It felt as if the claws were running through my own back.
I wanted to scream but I couldn’t.
My body ran cold as I froze. More foreign wolves came out and suddenly, a lot of our people were being thrown and torn apart right before my eyes. It was horrifying yet I could not tear my eyes away. I did not realize I had been silently crying until my hands fell on my face, finding it wet.
My door suddenly shook with such force. I jumped with a scream pulling from my lips as I turned to stare at it in horror. It seemed my eyes themselves were suddenly pumping as my heart.
“Princess!”
I should have been relieved but the horror poured even more.
“Princess!”
A silent sob broke through me. My hands stopped the sound from escaping as my shoulders shook back and forth.
“Princess!” Tyme screamed out so loud, pounding with such desperation.
“Princess we need to run!”
I ran to the door but my chain jerked me back as I was about to reach it. It brought me down to my reality. I stared back at it, the sting of it digging into my ankle.
There was no saving me.
“No Tyme. You need to leave!” I tried to stay as firm as I could.
“Princess no, please!” She wept so hard it brought more tears down my eyes.
“Tyme. Go! Save yourself, please. Take everyone else and leave!”
I wanted to rush to the door and scream through as if that would make her move faster.
“Princess no, I can’t leave you please.”
“Tyme. Go!” I screamed with much determination. I hoped Roselyn was already out. I could not take losing them. This day was bound to happen. The day where we would pay for our sins.
“Tyme. This is a command. Go!” I enforced, something that should have been easy for me to do but I was stripped of my power.
“Please.” I added, hearing her break down before she heaved over and over again.
“May you find your way to the moon goddess Princess. May she bathe you in her white light and heal you princess. I love you my princess. May the goddess be with you.” She forced the words out as fresh tears fell from my eyes.
“May the goddess be with you too Tyme.” I whispered out but I knew she heard me.
Her cries got loud before I heard her run away.
My arms fell around my body, hugging myself. I tried to hold it together but I was miserably failing. Maybe this was a good thing. Maybe I would finally pay for my sins with my own blood. I deserved this. I deserved all that was coming.
The screams had me hallucinating. They had me grip my head in an attempt to keep them out but they pushed through. I did not want to look but I kept going to the window and all I saw was red.The foreign wolves had moved from my section of the view. Just a few minutes and they were done outside.I could hear them ransack the castle. I could hear them drag all that were hidden.Mothers begged and the children cried. I could hear the men roar in their last attempt to keep their heads and balls. My feet carried me around the room by my command. I paced to the point where I thought my feet were bleeding then I stopped all at once. My chain was making noise as I dragged it back and forth.I hunched down, my eyes wrecking all through the room for a place to hide yet once again I found none. There were no weapons, no place to find solitude. I was in the open with the door being the only thing that would keep me from them.I rocked back and forth right under the window seat. My hair rocked wi
“Cut her loose.” The words were like weapons themselves. Fear drilled in from his voice. Cold and deadly.The men did not waste time. They looked around just as the man let go of my neck. He stood up, hearing him walk out of the room to the next.Pain pulled me from the empty space he had occupied. I turned my head to see the men tugging hard on the chain but it did not budge.“We can break her foot.”“Wouldn’t work. The chain is too tight. I doubt she even has skin there.”They tugged again then began slamming the chain over and over with no success.“It’s not working alpha!”The sentence pulled the man who had left back into the room.“Then cut her foot.” The alpha snapped and I sucked in a breath. I squeezed my eyes hard and let the chill run down my body.I deserve this, I told myself. Not even that was enough to take the horror away from the words that had just been spoken so casually. Even the three other men stopped in shock.“What if she is chained and locked in here for a rea
The women did not have to be told twice as they ran to the forest where I pointed. Any free woman picked a child even if they weren’t theirs and began running with everything they had. The screams and cries of children echoed and it took a second for the foreign men to realize what was happening “Princess!” “Princess!” “Princess!” The men, our men, roared for me to free them. “Princess!” The foreign men ran after the women, screaming orders. I took my stance, more coming from the castle and from the other side of the forests. “Princess!” It was chaos. “Pioitutuyo!” I screamed, my arms waving through the air and a handful of the foreign men near collapsed down. “Pioitutuyo!” I screamed again with another wave of them collapsing. “Princess!” Our warriors roared with such anger, needing to be free. They were riled up, tugging and pulling on their chains but those chains were not budging. A whole group of the foreign men were running my way. I turned, leaping away in a run.
Wind, cold wind. A cry pulled from me as I came back to consciousness. There was too much wind and I could not breathe. The tears escaped even before I opened my eyes. My body was sore all over. It felt as if it had been thrown into a large river with a strong current. I was bouncing up and down. Each movement sent a thousand jolts of pain washing over my being. I turned pale. My eyes forcefully opened by every will I had in me. Silver-blue hair was all I saw and I knew where I was and where I was going. I was a prisoner of war and I would answer. He ran so fast I could not even get a glimpse of the ground. It was blurry, sending my mind into a drowsy spell. My stomach turned and I knew I would be sick. My hands held tighter onto the alpha, burying my head deeper in him. My eyes closed and I took in his heat to warm myself. His heart drummed so hard it would rip as he ate the distance with nothing but anger his fuel. It was the core of him. Everything he did was fuelled by it. S
My body was not built as the others. The cold just froze my bones. My toes and fingers were blue. No one else was in the cells. It was dark and silent. My arms were wrapped around my legs, my head on my knees until I heard footsteps a few hours later. I tipped my head up. The alpha stopped, staring at the open cell door then at me. He walked past it to me and I braced myself for impact. His hand wrapped around my hair and he tugged. I quickly scrambled up and stumbled after him as he dragged. His intent seemed to be to rip my hair off. My hands moved up by instinct but I caught myself and lowered them back down. My nails dug into my skin to divert the pain but it did not help. The floor was dirty, collecting so much dirt, with my feet left brown. Light shone through and nearly blinded me. He tugged once again, pulling a painful yelp from me. As silent as everyone was, I knew there were thousands of people watching. My skin itched from their eyes as the alpha dragged me from the ce
None of the men from my kingdom made a single sound as they ushered them toward the cells in a long line. They bowed their heads in submission and defeat. The night was silent as if the screams had chased away any life nearby. My eyes moved from the men to the alpha who stood by himself. He moved to collect water in a bucket and poured it all over the chopping block. The blood mixed with the water, falling away. He took the bucket filled with all the organs and took them to the cells where he left them for the men to see their flesh rot away. He walked out, fetching this and that. He scrubbed the chopping block clean then straightened up. I turned my head, seeing the large pack house where chatter was coming from. The lights were all on and I was sure they were having dinner. My eyes trailed back to the alpha as he walked to me. Blood was all that covered every inch of his skin. I should have shifted away from how scary he looked but I myself was defeated. My shoulders hung low an
Sleep would have been my redemption but I had finally escaped my demons, I did not want to see them ever again. “No pioitutuyo.” I cast out, a hitch in my breath as the spell took effect. I counted each second as the clock in my head ticked away. I drew the moon and saw it move across the sky until I got tired. Nothing could distract me from the pain nor the cold. My teeth chattered, and my nose was congested. My eyes were teary with a headache tearing through my brain but somehow, I bore through the hours. A sound pulled my brain from the gutter it had fallen in. I raised my head up, staring at the darkness but nothing came. I looked away only to be pulled back with the sound getting louder. It felt like a cry. I tried to get a much clear listen but my ears were practically useless at that point. My curiosity nearly got the best of me but I shook my head and leaned my cheek on the cool toilet. The sound got louder and louder until the screams were clear to me. My night turned fro
The house shook as a roar tore through then a door slammed. From there nothing but clutter filled the house. I heard things break, Alpha Logan smashing everything with groans of anger pouring from him until it all stopped. My body shrank and I wrapped my arms around my body as the silence stretched. I did not know where he was then suddenly he was all I could hear. He thundered up the steps until he walked through the door. His eyes found me and he did not even have to speak. I quickly rushed forward, expecting anything. He turned from my approach and rushed down the steps. He was walking so fast which left me running. The front door was thrown open with force. I closed it after and ran behind him. On his hand was a large container that seemed to be carrying a certain liquid. All parted ways or changed direction as soon as they saw him. No one could blame them, Alpha Logan was burning red in fury. The pack warriors were training at some part of the pack. I could hear them roar loud