~Sebastian~
My hands trembled as I cupped her face, my heart pounded wildly against my ribcage. I couldn't recall when was the last time my heart pounded this hard. I couldn't help but feel scared as I waited for her response. Her silence was killing me."Hazel, please say something. "My voice was almost a whisper and shaky. She closed her eyes and heaved a deep sigh."I don't want to fight a losing battle, Sebastian. "She said and shook her head, then her lips curved into a bitter smile.'She's giving up on us. Our sweet Hazel is giving up on us. 'Knight howled inside my head, the pain was too much to bear. It felt like my heart was being pierced by a silver dagger."Are you giving up on us. "I asked her and I was met with another heart-wrenching silence."I have no choice, Sebastian. I'm on the loosing end. I'm bound to lose. "Her voice a whisper. I looked deep into her brown hazel eyes that I loved so much as though searching for some answers, but all I could see was sadness and unspoken fear.I didn't know what to do anymore. I didn't know how to convince her anymore."Please excuse me. "My sweet Hazel said and walked away from me. This time I didn't hold her back. I let her go. She was hurt and I was the one to be blamed for everything.I watched as she sauntered to the closet and picked up her nightgown then slid into it. I lusted over her sexy body. However, I didn't dare to touch her or do anything because I didn't have the courage to.She walked to the bed and crawled under the white sheets and turned her back on me. It was evident that she didn't want to see me. I stood in the same spot, lost and helpless.Heaving a deep sigh, I walked to the bathroom to freshen up. I wanted to get rid of my fated scent because it made me sick. It reminded me of my weaknesses.I turned the shower on absent-mindedly and walked under the warm running water with my clothes on. I closed my eyes and all the memories that I shared with Hazel began to haunt me."I don't know what to do, knight. I have tried my best to bring her back to me but...I have failed. I don't know what to do anymore. "I confessed to my wolf and he was silent.For the first time in my whole life, I was helpless. I didn't know how to deal with this situation.I wished Hazel and I would go back to our normal life. To live our lives like before. I wanted us to laugh, tease each other and do everything together like we always did before fate fucked up our lives.We have spent more than a decade building our relationship. Learning to understand each other. Studying each other's likes and dislikes...I still can't believe that it only took a few seconds to ruin our perfect relationship. Our perfect life and our perfect marriage.Everything we worked so hard to build crumbled into dust. The trust was destroyed.Hazel is a good soul. She's the best woman anyone could ever wish for. We grew up together and I knew her too well. Her father was a beta and my father was the Alpha of the mountain pack.I used to have a crush on her since the age of ten. However, I never confessed to her until she reached the age of sixteen and I began to court her and got married when she was eighteen and I was twenty years old.Since finding your fated was rare in our world, we decided to make our destiny and promised to love and cherish each other for the rest of our lives.Hazel was a tough girl. She trained daily to become strong so that she could be the strongest Luna and balance the power. She sacrificed her medical career to take the Luna duties.She did everything for me, for our pack and that's why we're the strongest pack in the east. But what did I do? I broke all the promises that I had made to her.I closed my eyes and tears flowed because I couldn't hold it anymore. The water washed away tears as soon as it came out of my eyes.I punched the concrete wall countless times, hoping that doing so would ease the pain that I was feeling deep down and make me feel less guilty. The pain of losing someone so dear to me was unbearable.Even though we're living under the same roof and we're still married. I know I'm losing her, she's slipping away from my grip slowly.Hazel is not only my mate, she's my best friend and my strength. She helped me build the pack and conquer the neighboring packs to acquire more land when I lost my father."Please hazel..."I tried to reach her through the mind link but she had shut me down. Which was not normal for her. It only meant one thing. That she had given up on me, on us.Although we disagreed sometimeswe always found a way back in each other's arms.She had never mind-blocked me.I don't know if this time we'll find a way back in each other's arms because the issue is so serious. Will she trust me again and believe in whatever I tell her?.I don't know because I have already broken all promises that I made to her. I just hope that she'll find it in her heart to forgive me and offer me another chance."You deserve it, Sebastian! You deserve it. "I told myself. I leaned on the wall and slowly slid on the floor because my legs couldn't stand my weight.All the good times that I shared with Hazel clouded my mind. The way we could make love in the shower, train together, watch the moon at night…It made me feel guiltier because it's all my fault that things turned out this way. I wasn't strong enough to fight the mate bond."Damn Alexa! Why did you show up in our lives and ruin everything? "I cursed under my breath and ran my fingers through my wet hair, holding onto it tightly with my eyes shut.Hazel and I were dancing on the dance floor when I suddenly smelled a sweet scent. She smelled of mint and apples.Mints, my favorite scent. Knight growled in my head as he fought for release."Hazel, hazel, hazel."I tried calling the name of my wife in my head. However, it didn't make sense anymore. Her name sounded blunt.I felt Hazel touch my face as she said something to me. However, I didn't feel her touch like other days. Her touches were so cold against my skin, they didn't hold any warmth. They didn't make my insides tickle or turn on Knight."Hazel…"I called, looking into her eyes and saw fear flush in her eyes. She was aware of what was going on.Hazel pulled me by my hand and I followed her lead. The scent got even more stronger with each passing second and I couldn't ignore the scent anymore.I stopped in tracks, then pulled my hand from her tight grip and turned around, following the scent without a care in the world. I wanted to stop in my tracks and run back to my wife but it seemed like my legs had a mind of their own.I thought I was strong enough to fight the bond but...it was so hard. That's because the bond between Alpha and his mate is so strong compared to other werewolves.The Alpha is the strongest amongst all, making the bond strong. For the first time in my entire life, I hated being an Alpha.I followed the scent, passing through the narrow hallway. I didn't care if I was being led to hell or the moon goddess, I kept on walking."Mate..."That was the only word that was ringing in my head. I walked out of the massive building and headed to the small flower garden where the scent led me and there she was.Her back was facing me and I couldn't tell what her face looked like. She was dressed in a white, backless satin dress which hugged her so tightly.The scent was even more strong with each step I took towards her. Knight growled in my head and my canines elongated, ready to sink into her flesh and claim her."Mate" I called, standing a few meters from her and she turned around to face me. She had brown hair and blue eyes just like mine.The pale light from the moon shone on her face and she looked so beautiful."Mate. "She called in a low voice and I groaned. Her voice was so sweet and soothing. I walked to her and wrapped my arms around her so tightly.She was so small in my arms and she hugged me back, tightly. Her touch was magical that it set every part of my body on fire. My eyes flashed and I closed them, my teeth itched to sink into her flesh."No, this is wrong. "I tried to say it under my breath. However, I didn't let go. It was easier said than done."This is right. You are mine and I'm yours. The moon goddess destined us to be together. I'm rightfully yours and you're rightfully mine. We were meant to be. "She said in a lovely voice and I groaned in return.I grazed her neck with my canines and sacked on her neck, fighting the urge to sink my elongated canines into her flesh. She moaned and her soft moans were like melodious songs in my ear. I wanted her to moan more, to moan for me.Why did it feel so good when I was doing something wrong?.I hoisted her and she wrapped her legs around my waist tightly. I touched her bare back and she moaned, kissing me on the neck.She ran her fingers in my hair, sending my spirits soaring in the sky. As though she was not getting enough of me, she slid her hands under my shirt and touched my bare chest, running her hand on my abs and upward my chest and I groaned. Knight fought for release, he wanted to be released so that he could meet his mate.His destined mate. His Gift from the moon goddess."Alpha, Where are you?" I heard Matteo's voice in my head."Luna has left the ceremony and I don't know where she went. She was already gone when I I went to look for her outside. The car is in the parking lot, meaning she left on foot. "My mind jolted back to the present when I heard those words and fear crept into my heart.That's when reality hit me harder. I let Alexas go and she looked at me in confusion, her eyes were misty. I wanted to touch her face and kiss tears away but I stepped back, away from her."Please don't reject me. "She pleaded, closing her eyes and tears ran down her cheeks. I could feel the pain and fear in her voice because of the mate bond.I wanted to reject her like I had told Hazel so many times but I couldn't bring myself to utter the words. My tongue became heavy and the words were stuck in my throat. I turned around and walked away without saying anything to Alexas.I stopped in my tracks and closed my eyes when Alexas wrapped her slender hands around my waist tightly from behind."Please don't leave me. How am I supposed to forget about you after sharing such a steamy moment?. Why are you doing this to me? .Are you going to leave just like that?. "She asked, her voice almost a whisper, tears flowing down her cheeks.Knight growled in my head. Fighting for release so that he could go to comfort his mate."Are you going to leave without telling me anything? Without telling me whether we'll ever see each other again or not? "Her hands tightened, making it hard for me to walk."Please… don't do this to. Please…don't leave me. "She cried and Knight growled in my head. Closing my eyes and inhaling deeply, I pulled her hands from my body and turned around to look at her."I already have a wife and I have already claimed her. She's my Luna and I love her so much. I chose her and we have been married for six years now. There is no chance for us. "I told her and tears flowed from her eyes like a waterfall. I saw hope leave her eyes and I couldn't help but feel bad and guilty."What? I have been waiting for my mate my whole life. I have been waiting for you…Why didn't you wait for me?."She asked and I could feel torture and betrayal in her voice. She felt like I had betrayed her.However, I didn't say anything because I didn't know what to say. I turned around and walked away without looking back, knight howled in my head. However, I didn't give him the opportunity to overpower me.I couldn't tell how many hours I had spent in the shower. I stood up and removed the clothes, then began to wash away Alexa's scent.Her scent was the reason why I'm going through this pain. It's her scent that led me to her. I despised myself for falling into her trap. Her sickening sweet scent lured me into a world of misery and I don't know how to get out of it.I'm stuck. All I can see is darkness. All the bright days are gone and now I'm drowning in regrets and pain. I wish I could listen to Hazel when she asked me to ignore the invitation so that we could celebrate our sixth marriage anniversary.The day that was supposed to be joyous was now filled with agony. I turned off the shower and walked out of the bathroom. I raised my head to check on the digital wall clock. It was past midnight, I couldn't believe that I had spent three hours in the shower. Cursing and blaming myself.My heart twisted inside my chest when I turned to look at the bed and laid my eyes on Hazel. She was hugging the pillow so tightly as though it was someone. I felt jealousy.She looked sad even though she was sleeping. Dry tears were on her cheeks, it was evident that she had cried herself to sleep.I walked to the bed and looked at her, and tears flowed from my eyes. I couldn't recall when was the last time I saw her this vulnerable.I vowed to make her happy the day of our wedding. I swore to protect and take good care of her heart. I bowed my head in shame when the words echoed in my head."It's all my fault. "I blamed myself for the millionth time. I knelt on the cold concrete floor and stretched my hand to touch her face.However, I couldn't find the courage to feel her angelic face. I didn't deserve it. I'm the reason why she's sad and broken.I fisted my hand in the air and pulled it back."I'm so sorry Hazel..."I said in a low voice and bowed my head in shame.Hello dear reader.Sorry for the long chapter.I had to explain how Sebastian was feeling,his regrets,his fated and about him and Hazel.
Chapter 04 The pastHazel"What are you doing in the forest little princess? "I turned in the direction of the familiar voice and smiled.The soothing female voice that sang me a lullaby and read me stories before I fell asleep."I'm looking for mushrooms, mama. It has been a long time since we tasted it. I'm tired of meat and vegetables. ''I said and turned around, then continued to pick more mushrooms."The forest is not a safe place for you or anyone at your age. It's too dangerous. You made me scared. "I saw worry in my mother's eyes and she heaved a deep sigh.Sigh of relief because she had found her missing princess."I'm sorry that I came to the forest without your permission. It's just that...I knew you wouldn't allow me, that's why I decided to sneak. "I confessed, fiddling with the helm of my dress."It's okay. Don't ever do that without my permission, right? "She asked and I nodded, "We can buy mushrooms from the market, you don't have to come all the way here. Come on, let'
Two weeks passed and I didn't hear anything from Sebastian's mate. I did my background check with the help of Monalisa, one of the east Lunas who is my friend.Alexas is Alpha Raymond's daughter from the West. She was invited in annual ceremony by her cousin Alpha Leonard, the Alpha of the Silver Moon pack where the annual ceremony took place.She's the only child of Alpha Raymond. Her mother died while giving birth to her and she was raised single handedly by her father.Monalisa dug deep and even brought me a picture of Alexas. Even though I didn't want to admit it because it hurt damn much. Alexas is a beautiful woman. She has long brown hair, blue eyes which resembled Sebastian's and an hourglass figure."I hope she won't show up in our peaceful lives again," Mia told me and I didn't know how to respond to her statement."I hope so too."I told my wolf and she was quiet. I heaved a sigh and closed the files that I was going through inside my Luna's office.Sebastian was not around,
~Hazel~It felt like time was moving in slow motion.I couldn't believe what was happening. I wished it could be a nightmare so that I could wake up in my bed and Sebastian hug me tightly."Wha...what is she doing here?" I asked, my voice full of worry. Mia howled in my head, sensing danger.It was silent, everyone was silent and it made me more scared. I looked at Sebastian and he looked away. I turned my head to Matteo and I saw uncertainty in his eyes."What are you doing here Alexa?"I asked her and she trembled.My voice was cold,I didn't want to be nice to her."I didn't come to cause harm, Luna Hazel.I'm only seeking refuge in your pack because mine is destroyed. The dark prince attacked our pack and took my father as his captive. He gave up himself to save mine."She said and tears poured from her eyes."Why mountain? There are so many packs you could go to.Why here?"I asked her and she bowed her head, avoiding my questions."Why didn't you go to Silver Pack?.I believe Alpha Leonar
~Sebastian~Hazel turned her back on me and faced the wall when she saw me walk to the our room. She moved on the edge of the bed leaving a big space for me.It was evident that she didn't want me to be any closer to her.Hazel didn't talk to me the whole day.She was quiet throughout the journey to Silver pack and back.I tried to crack some jokes but she didn't laugh,I was met with silence and I kept my jokes to myself.She avoided me at all costs and all I could do was to stare her from afar.Heaving a deep sigh, I climbed onto the bed and moved close to her.Ignoring her reaction from earlier."You'll fall off the bed in the middle of the night. I don't bite."I said, sounding funny to lighten the mood. I tried to touch her and pull her in the middle of the bed but she pushed my hand away."Don't touch me."She woke up and looked at me, pain flashed in her brown hazel eyes. I wanted to stretch my hands and touch her beautiful face but I restricted myself."Are you going to reject her or n
~Hazel~I woke up and went for my morning runs as usual,I took a warm shower and dressed up for the day. I looked at myself in the mirror as I tied my hair into a ponytail and I didn't like what I saw.A sigh escaped my lips when I realised that I had lost some weight. There were dark circles under my eyes because of lack of enough sleep. I had nightmares often about my mother and I found it hard to get some sleep afterwards."Good morning."I heard his husky voice pierce through the quiet air but I didn't bother to look his way.I turned on my heels and walked out of the room without looking back at him.He had come back the shower.It has already been one week since Alexa moved into our house.I have asked Sebastian to tell her to get out of our house multiple times but every time he's about to chase her something would come up and it would become hard for him to do it.Alexa is so dramatic, she would collapse on the ground or go to her knees and start pleading. Sometimes she would
~Hazel~"You can ask me anything on this earth but don't ask me to let you go because I won't, Hazel. I can't let you go."Sebastian hugged me so tightly and soft sobs escaped my lips."You're mine, Hazel. There is no way, I'm letting you go. I love you. I promised your father that I would protect you from anyone who wants to harm you. I'm not letting you go."He shook his head vigorously and clung to me so tightly as though he was afraid that I would escape through the window and run away.I fought to get break free from his suffocating embrace and he let me go. Tears streamed from his eyes as well."You're hurting me, Sebastian. You're doing the exact opposite of what you promised my father. I can't take it anymore, Seb. Please let me go. Please reject me so that I can be free from this chains of fate."I begged for my freedom. I would have rejected him and left the pack if I had the power to.However, I couldn't since rejection needs both parties.He needs to accept the rejection so t
~Sebastian~"Where is Hazel?"I asked as soon as I got out of the car. Matteo bowed his head when he heard my question and I could tell that it was bad news.Matteo called me when I was in an important business meeting and informed me what had happened to the pack.My heart pounded wildly against my ribcage and thick sweat dripped down my spine. I couldn't help but feel some uneasiness. My eyes swept around the pack and my heart squeezed inside my chest. The Lycan prince's soldiers had destroyed my pack.However that was less of my concern.I turned around to look for Hazel by myself if Matteo didn't have the balls to tell me where she was."She's not around."I stopped in my tracks and froze in place when I heard Matteo's voice talk behind me. I turned around to look at him, holding my breath.I wanted to confirm if he was trying to pull a prank or whether he was serious about it. If it was a prank, it would be one of the scariest pranks ever. Matteo is good when it comes to pranks so
~Hazel~The track stopped all of a sudden and they opened the door. It was still dark outside, however, I was able to see someone being pushed towards the track."Monalisa…"I said in almost a whisper. Even though I wasn't able to see through the darkness clearly, I was able to notice her."Hazel…"She whispered my name as she climbed inside the track and sat beside me. The track's door shut and after a few seconds, it began to move once again.It was silent inside the track for some time."So he gave you to the Lycan soldiers as a trophy to prove that they defeated mountain pack."Monalisa inquired, her voice cold and full of hatred.Heaving a deep sigh, I shook my head gently."No, he didn't give me up. I was the one who gave up on myself. The prince's soldiers attacked the pack while he was not around, remember."I tried to make Monalisa recall and she nodded her head, remembering.She moved close to me and I laid my head on her shoulder like I have always done whenever we were caught u