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Mesi's POV
Unspoken words and denied emotions.
I was stuck wondering if I had spent my life trying to break a generational curse only to repeat the actions I feared, only to be faced with the inevitable, I was too closed off. I had spent so much time trying to build my financial status that I forgot to build myself emotionally and after all this time I was left wondering how to fix what I had unknowingly destroyed.
I didn't fear being alone or at least I don't believe I do, but what I am sure of is my fear of dying alone with the knowledge that I never loved anything but myself and the wealth I had accumulated.
It was somewhat depressing to think that at my age emotions made me uncomfortable, that my biggest
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