LOGINGavin and I were a perfect match. I was all about flirting and having fun, with no interest in commitment, until he came into my life.
He courted me for half a year. He did everything to win my heart and my trust. He always made sure I ate on time. He picked me up and dropped me off from my apartment to school just to make sure I was safe. He also always made time for me, even when we were both busy. He was such a green flag that I became secure he’d never fall out of love or, worse, cheat on me. I was out of sorts all day while working. I was on my way home when I stopped at a mini-mart to buy some alcohol. I wanted to get wasted but didn’t want the overstimulation of a bar. I opened a beer can and drank it while driving. My grip tightened on the can when I remembered the picture Gavin posted in his story earlier. I know I’m stupid for still not getting over him after what he did. I parked in front of my house. I finished the rest of the beer in the can before getting out of the car. My eyes drifted to Xerces’s yard. He was standing with his hand on his hip, talking to someone on the phone, but his gaze was on me. It lasted almost a minute, which was, so far, the longest stare we’d ever had. I grabbed the drinks I’d bought from the car. When I looked back, he had finished his conversation. His eyes dropped to what I was holding. “Wanna drink with me?” I offered. He didn’t say anything. “Fine,” I said. I just shrugged, turned my back on him, and went into the house. If I’d been in the mood, I would have insisted he join me, but unfortunately, I wasn’t. I changed into comfortable clothes before I started drinking. I’d bought a lot; I made sure I’d get drunk tonight. I opened another can and gulped it straight down. I winced as the bitterness scraped my throat. “Fuck men,” I murmured. “Fuck men or my brother?” Startled by his voice, I glanced toward the door. Xerces was standing there, one hand in his pants pocket. He walked over and took his seat on the couch across from me. “What are you doing here?” He raised an eyebrow and tilted his head. “You invited me, didn’t you?” “Oh…” He popped open a can and took a sip. “You’re still not over my brother.” “No,” I replied almost immediately. “That wasn’t a question.” “I’ve already moved on.” “Liar,” he said. “Is this why you suddenly started messing with my life? To get back at him for cheating on you with your sister? Now you’re hitting on me, too. Am I right?” A mocking smirk pulled at his lips. My throat went dry, forcing me to swallow hard. “How’d you know?” I asked, my voice low. There’s no point in denying it anymore. “He’s still my brother after all, even if I hate it. I know how he moves.” He opened another can and leaned back on the couch, legs splayed. He drank it without breaking his steady gaze. This was the only time his expression wasn’t cold or annoyed—it was just blank. “You knew he’d cheat on me?” “He’s a jerk. And you… you’re stupid. No wonder.” “Fuck you. I’m not stupid.” “Yes, you are. Stupid enough not to have the slightest idea that her boyfriend was seeing another woman before he went to his girlfriend’s house.” My eyes widened. “He what?” “You heard me perfectly.” “You knew about that?” Now it makes sense why, whenever Gavin came to my house, I’d often see Xerces in his yard watching us. He was definitely judging me. So fucking embarrassing. “Mm,” he nodded. “Quite a few times, actually.” “And you didn’t even tell me about it?” I bleated. “Why would I? I don’t care about you.” “Fuck it,” I murmured. “You could’ve told me about it. We literally live across from each other.” I opened another one and drank it. “Date me,” I said. “What?” “I said, date me.” He adjusted himself in his seat. “And why the fuck would I?” “Let’s just try it.” “Nah-uh. I don’t plan on being your fucking rebound.” “You’re not going to be my rebound.” “Don’t insult my intelligence. I’m not dumb like you.” “I like you,” I said. He smirked. “No, you don’t.” “Yes, I do,” I insisted. “I pity you then. You’re not my type. I won’t waste my time with someone like you.” “Why don’t we give it a try? Let’s see if you can stick to your words.” I placed the can down on the table and then stood. I stepped closer to him and leaned down, our faces at the same level. His eyes were back to their coldness, along with his poker face. I leaned in closer and pressed my lips against his. He didn’t move, but he didn’t push me away either. I grabbed his collar and slid my tongue into his mouth. I moved my lips aggressively and sucked on his tongue. Our faces were so close that we could barely see each other, but I couldn’t see any emotion in his eyes. Minutes passed, and still, he did not respond to my kisses. I slowly released his lips. They were wet and tinted with a red stain from my lipstick. I pushed him back on the couch, and without hesitation, I straddled him. Slowly, I eased down, sliding until I settled on his crotch. I could feel his bulge. Fuck. I don’t know if he was already aroused, but I could tell that he was extraordinarily big. I took one of his hands and slid it under the loose shirt I was wearing. His warm and calloused hand immediately grazed against my breasts. “Touch me,” I purred. He groped my breasts, causing my lips to part a bit, a soft moan escaping. I slowly ground my hips against his hardness, earning a soft curse from him. God, he sounded so sexy. “Your hand fits perfectly on my boob. I wonder if your fingers will do the same with my cunt.” “I wonder too how many fingers a slut like you can take?” Instead of getting offended, it only turned me on even more. “Two is enough.” “Three will be perfect.” I increased the pace against his bulge, feeling it grow bigger. Jesus! “Fuck,” he murmured. He gripped my waist so hard that I knew it would leave a mark. My hand traveled to his shirt, and I slowly lifted it up, revealing his abs and V-line. His body was so warm against my hand. I was about to take off my shirt when he grabbed my shoulders and stopped me. I looked at him in confusion. He smirked. “That’s enough for you. Try harder to seduce me next time, woman,” he challenged. He pushed me off him and fixed his wrinkled shirt. I stared at him in disbelief. “What the hell?” I groaned in frustration. He looked at me. “I never knew you were that easy.” He stormed out of my house, leaving me dumbfounded.“Is this good enough?” I mumbled while staring at myself in the mirror.I’ve been struggling to decide which one to choose for our date. Dating was nothing new to me, but this was the first time I had ever been this restless about it. Even though I knew I would look good in anything, I still wanted to look my best.“Ruelle?” Xerces called from the living room.Hearing his voice only made me panic even more.“Coming!” I shouted.I quickly finalized my look and hurried downstairs so I wouldn’t keep him waiting. My steps gradually slowed as I approached him, suddenly feeling self-conscious under his gaze.“You look good,” I complimented him.“Thanks. You look ethereal,” he said, then shyly looked away.I chuckled at how awkward he looked. Damn. I couldn’t believe he was acting like this. Just look at how quickly things had changed. The same man who used to look at me like I was the most annoying person alive was now standing in my living room, looking like he didn’t know where to put his
“I removed the secret room I reserved for you. I really didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable. I just wanted to have a chance to love you… even in secrecy,” he said sincerely.We moved to the balcony of my room, looking up at the sky with a glass of wine in our hands. The world had finally settled into silence after moments of loudness.“It’s fine. I was just really surprised. I almost thought you were aromantic.” I laughed it off, trying to ease the sudden heaviness between us.“You’re not mad anymore?”“I wasn’t mad. I was just shocked. And a little creeped out, to be honest,” I clarified. “How did you manage it?” I asked, genuinely wanting to know what went through his mind during all those years he carried his feelings alone.“Hmm?” I saw him glance at me through my peripheral vision. “Guess I had no choice.”“You did. You just let your cowardice get the better of you.” I turned to him, raising a brow. “I mean, don’t get me w
“Stop staring and talk,” I said after a couple of minutes had already passed since we settled into our seats, yet he still hadn’t said a word. He just kept staring at me. “How are you?” “What do you mean?” I watched him rub his palms together restlessly, his thighs slightly trembling. For the first time, I saw him visibly nervous, repeatedly letting out quiet sighs as though he were struggling to find the right words. “I gave you time to process everything. Were those days enough?” he asked, his voice almost pleading. “Can we talk about us now?” When he lifted his head to meet my gaze, I wanted to look away. Damn those tender, pleading eyes of his. How dare he look at me like that? After discovering his darkest, deepest secret, I started noticing how he was slowly tearing down the walls he’d built around himself, revealing the real man behind the aloof Xerces I had always known. And every time he showed me this side of himself, he never failed to catch me off guard. I didn’t k
“Happy New Year!”I rested my hands against the balcony railing as I stared at the dark sky being illuminated by fireworks.Another year had passed, and that only meant one thing: new year, new beginning.It was supposed to be like that, but how could I when a mind-blowing secret had just been dropped on me not even a week ago?My eyes, which were busy admiring the view above, slowly drifted toward the house across from mine. Among all the lively and noisy houses in our neighborhood, only that one looked different. All the lights were turned off, and every window was closed.He must be at his parents’ house.Our last conversation never continued after that. Two days. It had already been two days, and I still hadn’t gotten the courage to face him. For the first time in forever, I was actually this scared to confront someone.“Earth to Ruelle Altagracia.”My attention snapped back to my phone when I heard my friends’ voices. Oh, yeah. I completely forgot that my friends and I were on a
“When did all of this start?”“High school.”“High school?” I frowned in disbelief. “We didn’t even meet until I was already in college. It was when I moved here and found out you were my neighbor. What you’re saying doesn’t make sense. I didn’t even know you existed back then.”“It does.” His gaze remained fixed on me. “I’ve had my eye on you for a long time now. My younger brother went to the same school as you, and every time we’d drive there to pick him up, I’d always catch a glimpse of you from a distance. Standing in front of your school gate. Do you remember all the gifts you used to receive from anonymous senders?”I stared at him as memories from years ago slowly resurfaced. After a moment, I gave a small nod. Of course I remembered them. I’m a very sentimental person, and even after all these years, I still have every single one of those gifts.“They were all from me. I could never bring myself to approach you and hand them to you personally, so I asked someone else to do it
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I’d already lost count of how many times I’d cursed under my breath. My hands trembled as I ran them over my face, forcing myself to take a deep breath. What the fuck did I just see? Was that even real? My cheeks were already red from repeatedly slapping myself, hoping I’d wake up and realize none of it had actually happened. I was already sitting on the couch, yet it still felt like my body could give out at any second. I would’ve rather seen a ghost. Or a burglar. Hell, even a murderer. I would’ve expected any of those. But no. What I saw was far worse. It made me sick to my stomach, and the thought of it alone was enough to keep me awake the entire night. “What are you doing here?” Unlike the way I usually welcomed Xerces into my house, there wasn’t a trace of warmth in my voice this time. He lifted the food container in his hand. “I cooked too much. Thought we could eat together again.” My fists clenched at my sides as I looked him straight in the eye. H







